“A heartfelt ballad about lost love and longing. Emotional lyrics, soft melody, and the pain of goodbye. Inspired by the memory of Mathilda.”

I remember the first time you looked at me,
Like a dream that I never thought I’d see.
But now I’m standing here alone,
Wondering where the love has gone.

I need you, baby, can’t you see?
I thought we’d be forever, you and me.
But the nights are long, the silence loud,
And your touch is lost in a crowd.

Mathilda, you broke my heart,
I thought our love would never fall apart.
A kiss goodbye, a silent scream,
You’re just a fading memory, a dream.

Forever turned to never, 
in the blink of an eye,
I need you more than words can say,
But you’re gone, and I’m here to cry.

But now I’m holding only air,
And wishing you were still there.

I dream of the love that we used to know,
But now it’s lost, just like the snow.
Falling fast, then fading away,
And I’m still here, begging you to stay.

Mathilda, oh, Mathilda, where did we go wrong?
I need you, baby, but you’re gone.
But now I’m holding only air,
and wishing you were still there.

Mathilda

5008 funky

Atmosphere

believe 3

Thursday release as usual. This time round we going on wild ride in the world of afro house. Enjoy.

ezzydj - Lush Sessions 25-Afro House

2031 cinematic

UNHOLY MARY by Nova J

[Spoken Intro]
I’ll give you until the count of five.
Then I do it.
5… 4… 3… 2… 1…

[Verse 1]
You cry wolf in the courthouse, you cry wolf in the pews
Every man who gets close leaves branded, accused
Unholy Mary, queen of shadows and schemes
You built your religion on your children’s screams

[Pre-Chorus]
Every story you spin gets heavier still
Like snow piling high on that house on the hill
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)

[Verse 2]
You lock all the windows, you deadbolt the door
Homeschool their silence, they don’t dream anymore
You search for new labels, new ways to get paid
But the mirror reflects every debt you’ve made

[Pre-Chorus]
Every promise you broke turned colder with time
Your letters to God just excuses in rhyme
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)

[Chorus]
Unholy Mary, where do you hide?
(Unholy Mary… where do you hide?)
Your children are shadows, they stand by your side
(Unholy Mary…)
The mirror won’t answer, it just looks right through
 (Unholy Mary… what happened to you?)
Unholy Mary, what happened to you?
(Unholy Mary… what happened to you?!)

[Bridge]
Vanity binds you, your mercy decays
Loneliness lingers, you’re lost in the maze
Your children bear burdens they never should know
You pray for redemption, but the mercy won’t show

[Outro]
Snow falling steady on your backyard gate
The candles burn out, but you’re still awake
It’s your fate. Oh Mary. It’s your fate.
Your fate. Your fate.

[Instrumental Close]

Unholy Mary

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9042 Encuentro

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3739 techno

Unfortunately I cannot commit to a style like all the other artists. Of course, that would make sense, but I just love (almost) everything that has to do with music. I am happy if other people like it.

3739 techno

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