at least he wanted something 

prod: @vito2300
 
you know i like it when you speak to me soft 
most nights i spend with you alone
feels like we don’t even talk 
know you don’t need me at all 
i’m just taking up this space 
know i’m just here by default

don’t want another 
staying here is gon make me suffer 
n my body shudder 
another night i spent playing lover 
so over summer 
sunlight poking right thru the shutter 
laid under covers
every time i just let him under 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

facing the repercussions 
it’s just what happens 
i can’t help that i'm no good at loving 
i’m just so unbecoming 
he only want me in passing 
at least he wanted something 

yeah is it too much 
promise i’ll be good enough 
be what you want 
even if i can’t feel your touch 
i'm leaking blood 
just waiting till i'm getting crushed 
and when we’re tongue to tongue 
i almost feel like there’s an us 

i’m just a body 
take it off 
and come put it on me 
no need for talking 
when it’s done 
you don’t need to call me 
this shit gon haunt me 
coming round it gets so disheartening 
i guess he caught me
every touch it just leave me starving 

but i’m still there 
right under you
every time 
you call my name 
in the way that i like 
don’t make me feel like 
i am more than a night 
god i tried 
god i tried 

n it’s not hard to see 
but i still don’t get it 
and i bet crying here 
would make me pathetic 
i just type it up 
but don’t send the message 
and god it’s killing me 
but i think i’ll let it 

i know i do this to myself 
i know what’s going on here 
i know i could avoid it, well
i know you’ve put it so clear
and it’s so stupid that i’m wiping my tears 
yeah it’s so stupid that i hold you this dear

unbecoming

heylog - continue [cover]

fighting for a life that i
do not want
ill cover my eyes and ill shake it off
howd i wake up wishing
i never did
scared of almost everything
youll probably set me off
anxiety is crazy bro
like i can barely talk
howd i wake up wishing
i wont again

im hopeless
you beat me just to know who i am
i think im losing
arrested by the palm of your hand
imprisoned
you held me there to judge who i am
you think im losing
Du sahst mein Schweigen nie als Schrei

how many more times do i have to say to you
that im fine with it
youll lie again
surely its so obvious that all ive ever wanted
was to die again
ill hide again

im so scared of the future
i dont know
how to reduce it to nothing
running around in my head
im sure
if i told you what i planned for
call me delusional
im bored
fighting for a life

im hopeless
you beat me just to know who i am
i think im losing
arrested by the palm of your hand
imprisoned
you held me there to judge who i am
you think im losing
Du sahst mein Schweigen nie als Schrei

imprison

you fell and stained the ground beneath us 


prod/master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

feeling my body going numb
waiting but morning never come
i hope that god will forgive me 
oh the things that i've done
hurt somebody i needed
and somebody i loved
blood loss
my vision is starred,
hold on
i'm slowly reaching my fingers over top 
don't think there's ever been something 
that i feel like i want 

it's just the way that it goes
i know you feel like i don't 
like i don't love you at all 
i know it kills you the most
i never wanted to go 
i never wanted to stop 

i called your name a thousand times
and in my dreams i saw you die 
i saw the light fade out your eyes
and i woke alone,
and cried in case you
could hear me there
could hear me 
i screamed your name 
believe me 

(baby i wanted to stop 
got me praying to god 
love i'd do anything, i've
i've got my hand round the cross) 

i can feel the warmth 
drain out of your skin 
my shirt stole red from the cracks of your lips
i held you close and you felt so thin
i held you close like the way that you did 

i held you close
i held you close

you fell and stained the ground beneath us





i held you close

Vails x Mackk - not so special
Prod. By Mackk
Vocals from vails 
Lyrics below:

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

Yeah yeah I break down when the world gets loud
Yeah yeah Smile on my face but I’m not proud
Yeah yeah I’m just a ghost in a fragile shell
Yeah yeah Been through heaven, but I stayed in hell

I been runnin’ from the pain I feel inside,
Smile on my face but it’s all a disguise,
Bottle it up, yeah, I keep it in tight,
Pray for the day that I’ll finally feel right

You see hope where I see my flaws,
I see cracks where you see no walls,
I keep falling no hands to hold,
Heart too numb, it’s already cold

It’s already cold it’s already cold
And now I’m freezing, now you’re leaving
Now I’m grieving baby why you leaving me 

You think of me special, but I ain’t shit
Got a lotta issues I can’t fix
Heart been cracked, yeah it’s got no stitch
Every time you love me, it just don’t stick

I been running from myself again
Tryna fake a smile, play pretend
You see gold where there’s rust and pain
You hold on tight, but I just can’t stay the same

#rap #melodic #vails

Not so special

Listen to "it's complicated" by Raihan, Swiik
https://too.fm/rbo7zxx

Lyrics:
bittersweet lips with a pretty face
wanna run away but you don't like chasing
butterflies that will make you fly away
went from plain in love to it's complicated

for better or for worse
will we ever learn?
we've been taking turns to get hurt

promises of change
we've been switching lanes
now we drive each other insane

we've been on and off
thinking that there's more
tell me is there love when its war?

in the end do we pretend its all fine?

spoke in tongues with our broken hearts
sweep the shards underneath our carpet
drop your weapons, hold me in your arms
complicated love and we still want it

everything was so heavenly
then you turned to an enemy, enemy
willingly said you're missing me
silly me, oh you're killing, me killing me

killing me, killing me, killing me
you're killing me, you're killing me, killing me
said you're killing me, you're killing me, you're killing me
oh you're killing me, you're- you're killing me, you're killing me

for better or for worse
will we ever learn?
we've been taking turns to get hurt

promises of change
we've been switching lanes
now we drive each other insane

we've been on and off
thinking that there's more
tell me is there love when its war?

in the end do we pretend its all fine?

bittersweet lips with a pretty face
wanna run away but you don't like chasing
butterflies that will make you fly away
went from plain in love to it's complicated

its complicated

This the best part of the story
Making it out after its all bloody and gory
I lift my arms and i look up it’s like im soaring 
I handed her my heart like can u keep it for me 
It’s almost 5 im working while they tucked in snoring 
I couldn’t live a normal life the shit was boring 
I tore it all apart now something new is forming 
You can keep the love I gave you it’s not for me
Im on the highway doing 90 thinking bout it 
If I go off this median like it’s accident 
I got this pump might put the shit right to my melon
I just don’t think I got the guts to put a shell in 
If he racking arcteryx he prolly tellin  g 
All my homies diked up like Ellen D
I made about as many wishes as the well is deep
I don’t think there’s any truth in what your telling me
And bitch i brought my name outside 
When I’m walking to the ___
I brought my name outside when I’m walking down the street 
Pull out pieces of my heart 
So something’s left there when I leave  
Bitch im faded barely holding on myself like an old tee 
Don’t show my face outside
Less it’s for nessisity
As long as my mom proud 
U can all think less of me 
Bitch im on it right now 
I can barely feel my feet
I was down before but now im making money though at least 
It’s nothing much fuck everybody 2016 
I go to bed fucked up so when I see you in my dreams I don’t remember it as much 
This drop it steep 
The whole world spinning around me but I’m planted in this seat 
And I noticed everything just don’t say everything I see 
And I always act polite so I feel less bad when I leave 
And I lost myself in people that were not for me 
And it still hurts all the time but it’s a bit less bad at least 
And it’s nothing much forever est 2016
And it hated seeing you cry 
And I loved seeing you happy 
And I know it’s okay to cry
But I don’t want it about me 
And I know you hate when I 
Say that but it’s what I mean 
And I don’t feel bad for loving unconditionally 
And I don’t feel bad for wishing I could make you smile at me 
And Im smiling right back cause if anything its funny 
And I didn’t think that I’d make it this far past 20

making shapes

broke every rule i had sorry just kinda pours out of me u know :\

lots of different people

labyrinth

find me

a little demo lol
guitar by me

if i try the same snow cone
i wonder if it will still
taste like coconuts
if i try to love myself
maybe it will stop
all of my cuts

we were 16 i believe
sometimes i think it was all a dream
i think about it all the time
just look under my sleeves

it takes me back
to the place i used to live
ur house looks different now
theres no room for me to fit

if i try the same snow cone
i wonder if it will still
taste like coconuts
if i try to love myself
maybe it will stop
all of my cuts

i want to hate you
so fucking bad
but i really cant
hate someone
who had my back
i want to hate you
so fucking bad
but maybe i can
hate someone
who stabbed me in the back

if i try the same snow cone
i wonder if it will still
taste like coconuts
if i try to love myself
maybe it will stop
all of my cuts

its complicated

static ;