mixed by plugp
(side note)- its ok to be sad or to cry

lyrics:
Does it hurt when you say u hate yourself
Putting others first then your mental health
I got good at faking confidence
Its a party of two and there’s subsidence
Im not good or bad im just decent
Im just bad at explaining how im feeling
Didn’t mean to let you down
Didn’t mean to scare you now
If I tell you how I feel you Im scared you'd turn around
And yeah im scared of that
Wish I didn’t tell you that
Ive been trying to open up but you don’t call me
But im a mental reck
Im holding on at best
Ive been trying my best but im not good enough

Does it hurt when you say u hate yourself
Putting others first then your mental health
I got good at faking confidence
Its a party of two and there’s subsidence

Ive been running for a while nothings getting better
Everyone around me is doing so much better
Post a blurry picture of a moment cause I miss it
Im a shitty person but I feel like I acknowledge it
I don’t like to stand out maybe not that obvious 
And every time I call you up I feel like I’m obnoxious 
And that’s how I feel 
That’s how I feel
Please don’t walk away if I open up
It would mean so much
If you just let me talk
Please don’t walk away if I start breaking down
I don’t like to cry so I get teary eyed

Does it hurt when you say u hate yourself
Putting others first then your mental health
I got good at faking confidence
Its a party of two and there’s subsidence
Im not good or bad im just decent

pls dont go if i open up :/ (prod. plugp)

Yung Blasian