This song was my shit in 2018 and fuck its so good still

i know this song doesnt have a lot of traction, but i gotta be honest. this song has helped a lot. makes me want to try to see the next day y'know? anyway. if this is my last time enjoyin this song, thank you.

Sum emo shit

I fall asleep to Alan Watts. What a time to be. 

Being, Not Becoming

Remixed Sample: the story so far - navy blue

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I walked her home, for the last time

Mixed by They Say and Lil Lotus
Written and recorded by Yung Lazarus & Lil Lotus
Fool For You EP coming soon

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Street Lights (ft.Lil Lotus)(prod.killedmyself)

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Ft:
https://soundcloud.com/coldhart
https://twitter.com/Coldh4rt
https://www.instagram.com/coldhart_/

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
roelun.co
twitter.com/roelun
www.instagram.com/roelun/

Bodybag Ft. Coldhart (Prod. nedarb)

prod: @caspr

lyrics:
water down the drain, thats a rain check
wishin on the change, thats a safe bet
i cover up the pain with your blankets
dont put it on my name i wouldnt trust that
lying on the frame that you want back
leaving out the things that ill hold back
ive never been the same since i left that
im counting on your name like i need that

unattached, unappealing
she did that, sick of hearing
all this same fucking shit
bring it right back like our cd mix
sold my time cuz i need my fix
end my life like i wont be missed
she loves good sex in the back of the whip
she loves good weed, good times and my dick
she hangs polaroids of the people she misses
try and take a guess whos next on that list
i write these words with a weight on my wrist
that transcends time and the way we coexsist

Follow me <3

water down the drain (prod. caspr)

no samples
guitars by 1080p dreams
prod. @prodbyglacier

LYRICS:

laying in my bed, once again
trying to convince myself
that all those times we shared didn't mean that much to me
like every pointless afternoon in your room
watching your dvd collection
i always failed to mention that your favorite movies are dumb
and i hate them
but i still love you
even though you left me feeling lonely, empty and confused
what the fuck was that about?
now i'm trying to find a lesson
but i'm stuck with all these questions 
at a dead end
and i'm stressing
it's depressing cause i feel like i lost my best friend
do you know that feeling too?
and no, i'm not naive
i know you have your reasons
and i'll try my best to see them
and not be bitter and resentful
but i couldn't help think of our potential
couldn't you see it too?
i guess not
now everything we were is just an overused melody
everything we were is just me singing loud out of key
everything we were is just an overused melody
in this shitty song that i created when i was sad and all alone
(sorry about last summer when i broke your heart into a thousand pieces, just wait until wintertime to see if you'll be okay)

i'm sorry about last summer(prod. by glacier)

prod @4evrgone i jus added sum bass <3

found myself so thin
downing bottles again
I don't care what you did
just wanna distance myself

from the old bleeding well
from those posts seeking help
know I can't accept shit 
so just go on without me

just get on without me 
know it won't be harming 
know you won't be hurting 
from much that's been haunting me

and that's fine

leave it up to me 
let me fucking bleed 
let me stay 
x3 

it never really mattered anyway

it never really mattered anyway prod. 4evr

produced by @prodreaper
mixed by @nick-grivell

i break fast, move slow
don’t ask, they all know
their fake laughs, won’t change
walk past, no names
blades and, roses
my heart stays, frozen
i lay back, breathe deep
i flip through my TV.

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities
i miss the way you smile through the pain
inside your photos
you haunt my dreams

watch the raindrops rolling off the tattoos
on your shoulder
since you left me I’ve grown colder
breathing heavy like theirs boulders on my chest

its real
but all of the rest 
don’t care how you feel
so i think its best
this blood I’ve spilled still goes to waste

i get that membrance of your face
while I’m walking in the downpour of this rain
outside your place, I’m breathing your name

i hate the way the wind still howls
through the leaves outside my window
don’t breathe your insecurities

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Blades & Roses -(prod. reaper)

prod. @tothegood

LYRICS:

...and I've been feeling worse as each day passes by
Got lost in my head, couldn't stop questioning why
Trying to fill the holes of this existence
How did this story start? Where does it end?

God slammed the door on me again
I banged on it and begged "please let me in"
The universe is such a fucked up place
It slammed its door right in my face
x2

and I've been feeling numb as the weeks pass by me
I'm thinking that this hole's too deep to dig out of
Will anybody help me square this circle?
Fuck my life, I even ditched the dress rehearsal

I'm trying to find the meaning for why my heart is beating
Still searching for the reason as to why I'm even breathing

God slammed the door on me again
I banged on it and begged "please let me in"
The universe is such a fucked up place
It slammed its door right in my face
x2

and I've been feeling worse as each day passes by
Got lost in my head, couldn't stop questioning why
Trying to fill the holes of this existence
Am I the only one here who thinks that none of this makes sense?

Help me understand my purpose
and everything that led me to be here
I lie awake and wonder if any of this matters...

I DM'd God and got left on seen (prod. tothegood)

ihateshinigami - I Miss You (Ft. YungJZAisDead)

miss u haven't met u tho

no samples.  
@cpt_sad
@stationsix

begin everyday with an end in mind.

END IN MIND. (feat. yesterday, thebreathingbackwards)

mixed / mastered by lil narnia

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good

or am I wasting my time
thinking you might come back 
and make this right
tasting blood when I bite down
miss you so much right now
wish I didn't find out 
all the shit you did
all of our promises are you heartless
I find solace in memories against the truth
me and you we weren't meant to be
god damn I wish the memory would leave

I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
falling asleep in my arms
and theres a hell that she brings
always lingering in her heart
now its inside mine but
I remember everything
heaven didn't seem so far
when you were with me
simple and clean like kingdom hearts
now you're gone in a blink
wonder what you think of me
are you gone for good
(jon)
about to take it all
just too far now
show the whole world who you are now
I remember how you raised the bar now
with all that hate laying in your heart now
I let you get close to me
you're not what you're supposed to be
wish you never noticed me
are you gone for good or am I

heaven didn't seem so far (feat. jon simmons)[prod. BlingBlou]

<3
I hate you I love you Its complicated 

Prod 
@jakkyboí
@BradyAmour

Art
@Brady Amour

Hit up 
@scottysplashes for mixing

I hate you I love you Its complicated (prod. jakkyboí + Brady Amour)

a 4 song ep made from the heart !! ;)

vocals by @supachefm & @93FEETOFSMOKE
produced, mixed & mastered by @93FEETOFSMOKE
art by @cranchyou

scary nights w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE

any inquiries contact management at: cxltgod@gmail.com

Street Lights (ft.Lil Lotus)(prod.killedmyself)

Saint Lazare

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