heylog (T＿T)

Heylog

heylog

heylog<3

prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

spotify

care w/ heylog♡

produced by heylog

lyrics:
the birds all sing a beautiful song
light beams through this is where i belong
peaceful people who fear to talk
they mimic them and love to mock
women from different countries
i feel pressured there's people watching me
pull u in with the sound of harmonies
they say this kid's gifted with prodigy

occupied i'm tired of people
that look in ur eye tells me u are deceitful
you live knowing this time your whole act has been a lie
you walk by the garden and every flower dies

THE BIRDS ALL SING A BEAUTIFUL SONG
LIGHT BEAMS DOWN THIS IS WHERE I BELONG
PEACEFUL PEOPLE WHO FEAR TO TALK
THEY MIMIC THEM AND LOVE TO MOCK
WOMEN FROM DIFFERENT COUNTRIES
I FEEL PRESSURED THERE'S PEOPLE WATCHING ME
PULL YOU IN WITH THE SOUND OF HARMONIES
THEY SAY THIS KID'S GIFTED WITH PRODIGY

yeah u better run from me i said
i'm used to this and being lonely
conversations don't extend when i'm
short on words i guess i don't feel like talking
spare my life it's just begun
i'm still tryna get us back but i know we're done
growing old too fast i'm too slow to outrun
problems chasing me but i know that they won

this is where i belong

produced by heylog

lyrics:
stop
(what)
where did we go wrong
like.. it hasn't even been long
i always search for u
but hell, i don't have a clue
i might've made you a song
but
does that even have a cost?
no
well baby it's all that i've got
hoping that we could just stop
listen here u need to know
come closer this is unknown
our love is what i'd die for
i don't bluff so let's explore
(ok)
i love you and no one else
i left u so i'll take the guilt
please don't move and just sit still
please don't go it's me i'll kill

i trusted you, i guess rn ur dead to me
i look at you and every time i grit my teeth
she said we're friends but na ur not friends w me
and i swear u would never get along w me
look
u were the only friend i ever had
but i still have all these cuts along my back
thought i'd never forgive you
never thought you'd be an issue
and i put every bit of my trust in her
now i have a hard time trusting anyone
forget you, i wanna be alone
i hate you, thought you were my bro

i love you

produced by heylog

lyrics:
pacing around the floor making circles that could go miles
tears are running down my face they're stacking up in piles
threw us in recycle, unrecognizable files
all our data's lost, babe it's been a while
cause we
don't need
us
remember when we met i was too scared to even look at u
these knots that are in my stomach ain't normal they're all bc of u
and i can't help but stutter the first time i ever talked to you
and i knew u were special, really thought we'd have a future
but we
don't need
us

i stg
this can't be real
2 years gone
nothing to feel
it went so fast
thought it would last
but i was too, arrogant with that

staying the night at your home
feels good waking up, knowing ur close
don't know why or how i go
with you, was never alone
i'm poppin all my cells
where are you now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay right here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that i've always feared
that i fear

CAPABLE OF LOSING EVERYTHING
I GOT NO FRIENDS
ONLY PEOPLE THROUGH A PHONE SCREEN
I'M ALONE LESS
WHEN YOU CALLED I WAS HOPING
YOU WERE COMING HOME
1 YEAR DONE NOW 3
LEFT TO GO
POURING OUT MY HEART TO RANDOM EYES
BET THEY KNOW ME
BETTER THAN YOU EVER DID
COME AND SHOW ME
SHE'S TOO BUSY THROWING UP
ALL THE ALCOHOL
WHILE I'M SITTING IN MY LIVING ROOM
CUDDLING WITH MY DOG
bored out of my mind, riff guitar i love to escape
cut off everyone, i keep swimming in my mistakes
staring at the ceiling
bet it has more feelings
than i ever will i come to realize i'm deceiving

produced by heylog

lyrics:
would u like to meet in the summer
catch up on life or should i even bother to plan a dine
i don't really even know where u reside
pick apart my soul and it feel like
something has been missing
right now i really miss u
n when i'm alone i wish i could reach out and kiss you
but life isn't fair
no life's never fair
the one i truly loved is gone now i'm the only one that's here
man i'm really done, getting tired, might just book a plane
this the same shirt i wore, for like 3 days
throw it on, roll my eyes looking mad at the stains
no if u can't handle this then u can't handle me
i'm busy hangin w myself so i got no time
to come through and drink booze or waste my life
peer pressure, i said i don't wanna get high
but the pressure continues i got a fragile mind
so i fantasize about a future that lies
and u are in it w me, all the way till we die
but i don't want it to seem like i am forcing
anything oh at all, just tell me what u think

always feelin down, guess this is life
surprised i live another night
surprised i haven't took my life
surprised i'm even still alive
but i got way too much to lose
i don't do it for me, i do it for you
i put away the knife, i did that for you
i'm wonderin if u can see, i'm right in front of you

so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too
so would u wanna run away with me..?
through the mountains and things i've never seen
on a hill maybe lay down by a tree
and close my eyes with a little bit of breeze
she said, "i can't do this log... i can't look after u no more"
so why u telling me this now?
i thought u had me figured out

man i'm really done getting tired might just book for a plane
in the north montana, gotta isolate
need someone to break my heart to feel something
cus i deserve it i've caused way too many pains
so i fantasize about a girl who i'd die for
and she look up to me, like "ur the one that i search for"
but that's too good to be true
and that is my point of view
if i had to ask one thing
would you die for me too

reside

produced by heylog

lyrics:
ok i been right here since the beginning
look into the mirror and i hate what i see
back away n just shake it off
i never even knew i could look this rough
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust

well i heard what u said right behind me
making rumors up bro why u lying
so tired of being under the bus
always cautious about who i trust
so i don't need anyone, only need me
cus in the end that's the most important thing to me
i never noticed when we talk
both your lips are coated with gloss
so i'm glad we're done and i'm glad we broke up
if u saw me u might just throw up
hate myself, show it through a cut
new faces, have to adjust
and i hate the way you look at me
your face expressions fib to me
and i sent you a text but it never received
and u sent me a snap but it says pending
and i cant believe we're separate paths
i hope ur happy and i hope ur glad
so finally i can catch a breath
without your hands around my neck

i'm glad we broke up

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

produced by heylog

lyrics:
(keep thinking that i'm stuck 
falling from the sun
you found me in the mud
can you tell i've had enough)

getting muddy
hurts when your words crush me
can we please lie here
maybe i'm just tired
i'm strong when i'm alone
right now i feel so weak
breaking all my bones
i know ur judging me
i left it and our home
i feel u getting closer, hoping i can fix
your only little problem, praying that you'll quit
i'm sorry i'm such a bother, i probably ruined this
i don't know if i should call her, just saying that i miss you
but i'm confident that i got her, talking with her lips
took a chunk out of my shoulder, rashes on my neck
my mouth is filled with water as she take another sip
i don't know if i should stop her, trying to convince
that ur not even fair, do you think this is a game?
scrunching up my hair, do nothing how am i drained?
why do u even go? when this party's filled with hoes
MY STOMACH DROP, NERVOUS NELLY
TWISTS AND TURNS IN MY TUMMY
oh down another bottle it's her 3rd now
getting wasted quick
i don't see a point in this
turn towards a drink
baby let me tell you it ain't gonna fix a thing

i don't know if i can do this
continue making music
i've grown to be something
and i don't wanna lose it
i'm feeling all this pressure
they want me to start over
but that ain't gonna happen
i'll continue being a loser

getting muddy
hurts when your words crush me
can we please lie here
maybe i'm just tired
i'm strong when i'm alone
right now i feel so weak
breaking all my bones
i know ur judging me
left it and our

breaking out of my shell, tell me how do u do this
these stories that you tell, aint no coincidence
forgot how love is felt, you reminding me of it
don't need u to compel anything ur not comfortable with

(i'm not done yet)

my iris glistens, she told me "im amazed, 
i've never seen such blue eyes on a face"
hard to listen what did you even say
going fast it's too late to hit the breaks
getting stabbed busy drowning in a lake
on dnd i promise i'm not okay
associate with no one just only me
talk to people trying not decay

coincidence

Spotify: lnkfi.re/heylogaloneagain
AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFIYFgu2tWY

Artist:
@heylog

Lyrics:
no luck, i'm bored about everyday
you suck and i would say it to your face
know why i'm here but i don't have to stay
it's because i love you so i won't walk away
but that's something i'd say in the past
moving on to new friends, discover new laughs
i've held this loneliness for too long
seeing friends but why do i still feel alone
alone again
i love my life
i burn my hand
i love my life
she asked me,
"how do you do?"
well i hate myself
but what's new?

alone again
i've lost my mind
i heal my skin
oh i'm alright
she asked me,
"so what's new"
well like nothing
and what about you

no luck, i'm bored about everyday
i suck, i do nothing to make a change
building up my anger i got so much hate
if i were you i'd leave, why don't you walk away
but you got something to say? cause you keep staring at me
and i would talk to you but i'm too busy sweating
and the social awkwardness is getting to me
oh i went too long without socializing

so just run away cause i look like a monster
im sorry, that i hurt your daughter
i know your family hates me but your dad yeah he was pretty cool
maybe you should learn from him take off that worthless costume
alone again
i love my life
i burn my hand
i love my life
she asked me,
"how do you do?"
well i hate myself
but what's new?

alone again
i messed up bad
i cut my skin
and grow it back

heylog - alone again

'i'm sorry' produced by heylog

lyrics:
every other june is never hot it's just as cold
staying in my house all day my skin could probably mold
closing both my drapes and sit in silence while i scroll
loving u is hard when i don't love me as a whole
mom notices whenever i'm down i point my chin
she ask, "is something wrong?" but everytime i always fib
people my age are married when i feel like a kid
i write all apologies to people on a list
so i'm sorry for mistakes i've made i need to watch my tone
i'm sorry letting people down u didn't have to go
i'm sorry for responding late just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry for never smiling but can't u see i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i wanted ur opinion u didn't have to be so blunt
telling u my secrets but u were so wrong to trust
everything is hitting now not separate, all at once
and it hurts so much
in the dirt eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm so close from disapearing
yet again another year

there's a reason why i hide my face and my identity
people are so curious if i'm young or if i'm 23
searching for the info and my god it just upsets me
please just let it go i have a life and i'm not telling
show me some respect, there's a point that i'm unknown
maybe i dislike my face or maybe i just don't
music is my second life and my first is personal
finding out the truth u come to realize it just hurts to know

i'm sorry for mistakes i've made, i need to watch my tone
i'm always letting people down and everytime they go
i'm sorry i'm on dnd just tired of my phone
and i'm sorry i don't smile, is it clear to u i'm broke
i am out of luck when nothing goes the way i want
i play out all scenarios but they're too go to trust
dodging my own hatred but i always fail to duck
every problems hitting me like a million bombs
and it hurts so much
in the dirt, eating mud
let me say it really sucks
i'm so close to giving up
and i really hate it here
this pain is severe
i'm this close from disappearing
i survive another year

i'm sorry

'collide' produced by heylog

lyrics:
removing pieces of flesh
ur gonna leave me i bet
i don't stand a single chance
when u don't even lend me a hand
i'm hurting but i'm fine
i'm burning, still alive
i watch all my emotions collide
put me to a test
anchored, need to rest
but right now i can't and it's
because i'm so stressed on my last and final breath
sad just like usual, oh boy i'm such a mess
i don't fit in, something just doesn't click
worry u won't hurt my feelings i'll just lay in bed

I AM LOST FOR WORDS I'M AFRAID OF GETTING CURVED
do u think u feel me well enough to know my hurt
I AM LOST FOR WORTH HONESTLY THIS COULD BE WORSE
all the things i've done tell me what do i deserve
I AM SO DEPRESSED IS IT A LITTLE OBVIOUS
searching for a light but it seems all the powers dead
I FEEL MY DESCENT WEIGHT ME DOWN AND SLOWLY PRESS
barely ever happy always find it hard to get

i am so depressed
nothing new i guess
sum up everything and i'm hanging by a thread	
constantly regret
flip a switch and just reset
wish it was that easy, repeat it all again

collide

'me' produced by heylog

lyrics:
you see
i'm always down
down bad and
turn around
walking backwards
hit the ground
lookin up pushing me down
my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be
look i
step in a party
wonder why
am i here 
and check the time
check the weather 
and do it twice
then i realize my biggest enemy
is
me
but how can
this
be?

if u know me well enough then u know i got flaws
u gotta get going, when u leave i shut off
argue with me all the time i'm just overthinking
grab the brain and took the mind connecting all the pieces oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time..
i been
in front of me

can't get me to stop
my shoes giving me blisters
it's difficult to crop u out the picture
but i gotta do it one of these days or later
baby i'm a nuisance
my hearts covered in layers oh
the enemy
here is me
this whole time
i been..
in front of me
look here i go through it
this not a joke i'm so pissed
wake up and mope, slouching
always no hope
(but don't quit)
hate on myself
that's my loss
i don't need help
i'm so done
one two three four
i'm it
but i give up
you win
take me out the frame i don't do this
swear like every single day i'm always losing
can't tear me apart already ruined
but i don't know why u lie what are u doing
already knew it
hating myself twice now i don't even cry no more
underneath my eyes, rapidly bounce back and forth
seeing through your lies
now i don't get phased
but thank god, now i realize
that the enemy is me

'mike' produced by heylog

lyrics:
on this road alone dead bush rolling by
seeing stars shooting around but it's not even night
i can't even keep my legs under me even if i tried
voices say to rest my feet but it's all just a lie
man this struggle never ends even if i want it to
i barely can pretend cause it's not me or what i wanna do
and i'm not afraid of death but it's something i would never choose
and i wish that i knew less cause i'm tryna see the right of you
lurking in the shadows oh man i feel alive
i don't think that i am seeable, i might burn from the light
and i'm tired fighting battles with me, myself and i
cause i don't got any strategies or tactics in this mind
i keep putting people first but i need to be more selfish
and i need to know my worth cause right now i'm really helpless
and u said that you'd be here for me and i said, "k i doubt that"
next time don't promise anything if ur not gonna stick to it

i don't feel like playing games
i'm so mad that i could punch something
but i learned how to refrain
u said you've changed for the good
but honestly it feels the same
u said you've changed for the good
but honestly you feel the same
yeah u feel the same
i bottle it up keep it inside no out
let loose of all of me when ur not around

i guess u didn't even understand a word i said
i don't think that u deserve me, i think u deserve the best
i can barely by, sink into the deepest depths
in my mental, in my mind it's all coming to an end
sinking to the bottom yeah i get it, but what's up?
trying to stay positive but it's not working out
you know you'll never hurt me, i'm already numb
even if u tried, wish the best of luck
lurking in the shadows oh man i feel alive
i don't think that i am seeable, i might burn from the light
and i'm tired fighting battles with me, myself and i
cause i don't got any strategies or tactics in this mind
i keep putting people first but i need to be more selfish
and i need to know my worth cause right now i'm really helpless
and u said that you'd be here for me and i said, "k i doubt that"
next time don't promise anything if ur not gonna stick to it

mike

'the war III' produced by heylog

lyrics:
resting my eyes wonder if this is a dream
barely get by, drips of blood stain through my fleece
stumbled across some stones near the creek
stopping i pause and hear the angels sing
gasping breaths of air, vision narrow and it's blurred
stop telling me to calm down that only makes it worse
sharpen i got claws now, cutting through my shirt
this is not the end just know soon i will return
watching people die, i cannot look or see
covering my eyes, i hear the distant screams
plugging both my ears but the sound bleeds
crying more tears than it is raining
throw it all away could tell u didn't care
is that all u got? love when it ain't fair
move me out and crop the picture, never there
people love to talk but never wanna square

tell me what u want baby tell me what u need
going through it all everything is out of reach
engaging in a fight everyone is scared of me
but they will never know deep down i'm only weak
please just hear me out can u promise me one thing
i can never win if u promise you'll never leave
baby i'm alone, does life have any means?
falling through the cracks and slipping right through the seams
stepping on the gas
quarter of a tank
i gotta ways to go but i know i have the strength
not in crowds or packs
2 if even that
i fight all by myself, capable of what i have

go in pissed off risking my life
stranded, panic tracking the time
dangerous hatred, kill and divide
this is not what i had implied
bleeding out, mission abort
loose ties, cutting the cords
stable, carry support
no i don't care if this all distorts
contradicting yourself, you make no sense
i try to get me to talk but i'm so dense
shoot my thoughts at the floor and think again
my depression is war, a chain of events
u made a mistake of losing this
now i feel unworthy of so many things
i continue to grow, thanks to a screen
and continue to fly feeling free

trusting my gut
made the right choice
when is it time to stop feeling destroyed
bottom of the ocean
fell into a void
i kinda like it here no sign of any noise
fighting for my life
this is the war III
letting go of souls
who were so close to me
aching won't stop
my heart from leaving
charging with no hope
but i have to believe

believe
believe
believe oh, i need to believe

the war III

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

trash

guitar sampled from ichika nito
everything else was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
often this summer we fight and start over
u were the best but this bye aint forever
ill make space for your tears on my shoulders
cause ill still be here when ur ready to come home

i want u to stay for a while
i cant go to bed havent slept in a while
took u back home from the windmills
cant see us with anyone else
weve tried but its so hard
im just another kid reaching for your arms
like i said, "cant we try again"
i promise ill make it up i dont want this to end

often this summer we fight and start over
u were the best but this bye aint forever
ill make space for your tears on my shoulders
cause ill still be here when ur ready to come home

come home

this track was produced by @nevrfall

lyrics:
i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

life ur body, dont feel ashamed
i still feel u miles away
i still feel lonely when im with you
all these people around and i miss you
i dont think this feelings right
caught your stare as we locking eyes
i dont know who these people are
bandages gotta hide my scars

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶?
𝘰𝘩. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸...
𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

I BARELY KNOW WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THESE WOMEN ARE
I BARELY KNOW WHO THIS BITCH IS
BABY JUST HOLD ME ITS GETTING DARK
WHERE I AM 2 HOURS DIFFERENCE
NOW WERE APART EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT
NOW WERE AFAR EVERYTHING FEELS DISTANT
IN 4 YEARS
will we still be kissing?

i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

miles away (p. nevrfall)

lyrics:
(heylog)
why u cryin do u even have a reason
the suns behind the clouds the plants need feedin
its always up to u i dont care what we ever do
but can u stay for me dont leave so soon

but i fall too easily
all i want is sleep i do nothing
they cut me off im worth nothing
but she make me feel like im worth something

(yuno)
i can sing to you 
inside a dream with you
i cant count sheep anymore i'm in love with you 
tell me what can i do
to feel less invisible 
and feel i'm worth it 
cause i'm not what you want 
and i'm not who you think i am
tears falling from the sky 
cause if i'm not
then i'm just lost 
and i'm no longer who you know
 my hearts cut in two
what else i can i do
but breathe 

(heylog)
why u cryin do u even have a reason
does that consider me a rude person?
in your eyes i know thats how u look at me
u need god its not my fault atleast im helping

(yuno)
why cryin do you even have a reason
lonely girl what a way to live a life
if it were me i wouldn't make to the night
buried in that phone talking to guys she doesn't like
she don't think twice when she breathing in her lungs 
she has fun
in her lonely world

(heylog)
i forgot your name
can u tell it again?
i cant sleep now im daydreaming wow
my loves in it too, god i miss you

yuno & heylog ~ echoes (p.rafinha5yp)

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

shelter

the beat was produced by @lindenpearce @nevrfall

lyrics:
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺, 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘶
𝘥𝘰 𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯? 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘶

light blonde hair hangs over your eyes
i dont wanna waste all ur time
am i wrong, i think im right
on the search for duds just to light it one more time

eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im waitin for you
im bad at the first move
im breaking for you
im sad now, its not new
not afraid of death bitch im burning in both eyes
when she look at me i lose track of mind
if i give u my heart, will u hold it tight?
and if u gimme yours, i promise ill treat it right
i get nervous on what i could say to u
i dont want u to leave so damn soon
i would spare my time just for u
and if this could be it, id take a bullet for u

im sorry u had to go, ill see u in a week or so
i put u in my phone but im nervous to hit u up
now that youre here, im shy gotta cover up
im a nervous wreck, but thats because when ur
eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im wastin your time
im sorry, ill shut my mind

𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦

nervous (p. linden & nevrfall)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we dont break
ill love u till the end
dear anjed
i need to say something
id fall in love again
i wish u the best

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

u recalling what u said?
you was talking behind my back
i deleted everything
i cleared out all the messages
he was like a brother
i hate him for doing that
deep down it still hurts
but ill b over it
dear anjed i lost
dont know if i can get u back
now since weve matured
maybe try again
i can take us places
am i overthinking
ur in another book
while im flippin through these pages
hey anjed im sorry
i got to get this off my chest
we been together twice so we have learned from our past
its like ur a stranger
i get to know u once again
could never function right she got me short im losing breath
dear anjed this is me
giving u my heart
theres nothing to be afraid of ill keep in my arms
i havent gone to sleep
cause im thinking of u in the dark
join me in this journey i believe three times a charm

deeply in fate
u could heal my pain
before we done break
ill love u to the end
hey anjed
this is important
ill love  once again
ill be here to the end

dear anjed i want
u
like really bad
hope this isnt dumb
i hope that youll be glad
hey anjed hello
u
it got me sad
years have gone by
patience really met
here we are again..

dear anjed

produced by heylog
main guitar played by SADisfying

lyrics:
if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels takin my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

i wish youd stay home permanently
i cant sleep alone if ur in my dreams
i cant let u go this cant be happening
but ur bad for me
but ur bad for me
i still love u even if u hate me
i still want u even if u despite me
i still care for u even if u dont care for me
u were good to me
u were great for me

i never understood 
how u could put up with me
cause i barely showed love 
im still surprised u didnt leave me
now as i look back
i shouldve cherished what i had with you
call me "heyregret" 
thats how i feel with everything
i havent touched food all day
too busy making music 
she asked me if im aokay
"i listen to ur lyrics"
i dont know how to love
i show zero emotion
only in my songs
my tears could flood the ocean

if i cant love
will i end up
lone and forgot
or spend it with someone
i cant fall in love
my hearts dead probably numb
i hope it wont be long
to heal cus its been months
if i cant love
will she leave us?
alone here in the dust
ill never get enough
my time is up
i cant think with all the fuss
these camels taking my lungs
i think of u when im buzzed

months

guitars were done by SADisfying & heylog

lyrics:
and i try to run from u but i end up right back where i begin
her waist is skinny young face may i borrow u just for one sec
and there's this place we'll stay where the fire burns, it's nice and quiet
ill be by your side i swear take care of u until i end
i'm in the mud cut up god forgive me for i have sinned
i pull out the nails and heal i guess that's what i get
and i'm pullin out my hair and i'm still learning how to control it
but i'm still doubting me to this day i'm really tryna fix it
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon

i write this song i'm scared to death no one will even like it
and i dump my thoughts to the world i'll probably regret this
and i can't sleep if ur rent free in and out of my head
so basically i'm starting to think i'll be like this for infinite
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon
and you're halfway across the world i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess and my hairs a nest and im too ashamed to look
and i fell for u and i recommend that u fall for me too
and u left me but i left u first i hope we'll meet again soon