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Production by Saint Mike
Vocals & Lyrics by Me
- another blow to the heart again
- why do I do this to myself
- swimming up stream to get some air
- sometimes I wish I would just choke
- yearning for dreamscapes it isn’t fair
- I don’t know what is real
- the more I reach out, seems nothings there
- but still it won’t conclude 

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- new faces come by but I compare
- them to what I saw in you
- trying to fit a circle with a square
- it will never make a two

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out


#grunge #alternativerock #alternative #alt #emo #deftones

Limerance

This circle calls your name like fire that has bestowed upon another disbelief 
A disbelief that you were something 
could feel something yet not human 
not human like me 
Pressed upon my heart 
Subtle at the start 
Rest upon another shoreline 

Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright 
Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here

If this is the fiction we live then I want to be etched out of every plot 
I’m tired of every false god and broken promises 
Again and again 
When do we learn for the better?
My wrists never heal from the limits I was to afraid to take 
So I close my eyes and take that leap of faith 
Into the circle of mistakes 

Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright 
Cast away another tear 
Don’t worry when I die I’ll always be right here 
You rip apart my dreams at night 
Lie to me and tell me everything will all be alright

Circle (prod. saint mike)

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Lyrics:
I can feel you all the time
I can’t feel, it’s you that’s on my mind
And it’s all the time

My heart has abandoned me
It’s a crime scene
You got away scot free

What you took from me…

And inside of me
I can’t parse the lies from honesty
And it’s honestly..

..what I dread!
What you said went over my head
But I’ll still go long
Past the end zone, I’m gone

Blind spot
You’re too perfect like a psyop
What you left of me
Now I can’t breathe

I can’t tell what’s on your mind
I can’t feel this all the time
Can I draw the line?

Unrequited love is hell
Practice your name out loud like a spell

Still feel your claws in my body
Can’t get your voice out of my memory or my heart
And I want to set you free 

You’ll need a thieving crew
It’s locked tight behind an iron vault
Trigger in your palm
You’re the cool one good at sabotage…

Description:
For Kanon.

What is there left to say? I’ve put it all out there for better or for worse. I think ‘Corazón’ or this album could speak better to it than my writing here. Most of ‘LNR_[05]’ too. The moment I met her gaze, anything that wasn’t her in my heart was instantly seared away. I spent that summer running away from those feelings until finally, during the final week of the residency where I met her, the feelings kind of hit a boiling point. I didn’t want to live with regret so I gave in..and it swept me away like a flood. I couldn’t outrun it. I still can’t. I feel her in every heartbeat. I see her eyes in every sunset. I hear her voice in the susurration of leaves in the wind..but I’m trying to close the door now.  [...cont'd in the letter below]

Produced, Mixed, and Mastered by Killer Bee 

Letter:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Qjz81M-qgqwAfEk5BO7rX8HYcimryuZC/view?usp=drive_link

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Sleepyhead

A new recording of an old track of ours originally recorded in 1998 at Castlesound Studios, Pencaitland. This version is to be released on the "Invisible Man" EP by VEER which is out on all major platforms from 25/07/25