Diary 101

replies prod @1plugsoon & @ilyajay

My life hasn't been the best I know that bc I'm just not like the rest. I'm feeling blue inside cuz I'm so depressed, I dunno how else I'm being so upset. Gotta put a smile on my face I don't want no one to know, I know that I'll die one day but I just wonder how I'll go. Will I kill my self, or will I die unexpected? Yeah she broke my heart, that was sum expected, what did i do wrong? Bitch u left me for dead. I just hate her guts, now I know where we stand.

I can't eat no more, cuz I feel sick. Anxiety it took over my body now bruh I feel sick. I relate so much to Travis cuz these girls are all the same. they don't care about me, yeah they're all the same. I was high on the streets and it was 3 AM, was high asf on the streets and they were worried man. 

I could've died that night, it was just one of those damn nights. But I always get back to my demons, I'm positive that my shadow is my mfing demon. Bleeding cuts and stitches, dying's on my wishlist. Bro I don't like college, it feels like prison. I don't want a future job no I just wanna make that music, that's all I wanna do I really wanna make music. 

No im not satisfied (x2) I just wanna escape, I  wanna escape this life. I'm in my bedroom I don't got no friends bro. I'm in my bedroom I don't got no friends no, I'm in my bedroom I got no friends no. In my bedroom I gotta record yuh. Huh.

my shadow is a demon

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my shadow is a demon (prod dimpleb + backxster)

Dunno where to go, I've been in this place before. Picked blades up bro at 13 I wasn't enough, just like my scars bro I'm so fucking lost. Serb I miss u so much yea I just wanna talk, I got scars on my body don't remind me I fucked up. Suicidal thoughts rip robin Williams, no matter what I gotta push thru that shit is resilience. 

She doesn't care about me she she doesn't care bout my feelings. Life's bout learning lessons bro and life's bout all that healing. Guess I got no friends left that shit happens when you're winning.

I make mistakes mistakes mistakes sometimes I fuck up okay, I'm just human don't u understand. I'm just like Gia no one understands, my wrist is bleeding yea it's burning man. These niggas hate me, but I’m not Caring man. She just talked to me but that girl's full of lust, been thru so much pain bitch all I want is love.

Bitch i want is love (x)

awakenings

awakenings (prod dimpleb)

At this point I'm scared to open up and fall in love, cuz I don't wanna be in broken fucking pieces. My blood it hit the floor as I was praying to Jesus, like please help me like can you tell me... I can't even eat today nah and i puked too, nigga as a child I had a dream and it was YouTube. Yea I still got dreams yuh, yeah i gotta chase them. 

I wanna go up w my friends I gotta rest up, wait wait wait I don't even got that many friends. I don't got that many friends, cuz I'll die a lonely man. I'd rather be lonely than to hang with all these fake guys, shoutout to my dad cuz that man taught me much about like. Gotta be a hustler gotta be a hustler gotta be a hustler I can't give up I'm a hustler. 

My dad went to the Netherlands from Ghana and didn't die, yea that nigga saw so much but he's still standing tall. Yea lil boy I got many cuts, but I'm still alive now. They're wanting me to fail yea they're wanting me to fall. I don't owe nobody shit get out ion gaf. Ion owe nobody shit no I don't give a fuck

can't eat (prod 77mending)

I’m surrounded by these people but I'm still feeling isolated, all these niggas wanna sleep on me they all know that I'm underrated. Why'd she kiss me on the lips she knows that she's not gonna see me later. Why'd she do this shit to me she's playing guess bro I’ll be crying later. I don't wanna go to  college I wanna do what I love, I thought that she was the one but I guess that girl she gave up. 

These girls ain't shit they're all the same they're all the same, cuts on my wrist I went thru pain I went thru pain. You tried to kiss on my bro you're nothing but a hoe. Blood it dripped on the floor oh no, oh no-oo-oo.  

I'm tryna make it cuz I wanna give back to my parents, I wanna make it cuz I wanna live life like it's my last day. The only reason I'm still breathing's cuz of my nephew. Whenever I see that lil kid I tell him I love you. I want nothing but happiness for you. 

[osei... 'hello osei'] <3

I hope that you're not gonna go thru what I went through, if u wanna talk ill be there bro I gotchu. niggas is all talk yea they're lame I gotta block u  

Mm-mm-a aa I'm alone

caged

why i'm still breathing (prod backxster)

[I'm dying you know that? I'm dying here.]

I just dunno who to talk to, you lied to my face when you said Osei I love you. Ion think love exists I think that shit is fake, hoes they stay on tinder they can't get away. Am I good enough? Idk. Bitch why'd you leave me? Those times were a lie, yeah I know, the times that you kissed me.

Stop looking at my body and please look at my heart, I'm not made for lust I got pain and I got scars. Whenever I love, I just be loving too hard. And that shit hurts me all the damn time I should do better. I stopped cutting on myself I’m doing better, it's almost been a year yeah I hope I don't relapse. Loneliness follows me everywhere, used to cut my wrist yeah my blood it was everywhere. 

I know that there's something wrong with me, I should try to sign up for that therapy. But last time it felt like no one was helping me, there's no hope, oh. I don't think I wanna go. I got no one left like oh.

hopeless romantic

hopeless romantic (prod dimpleb)

1.solo
2.+septembah
3.+rexiroh
4.+dimpleb
5.+mynorth
6.solo
7.+mynorth
8.solo
9.+mynorth
10.solo
11.solo
12.solo

my winter samples#25(rexiroh,mynorth,septembah,dimpleb)

cheater w/ arid prod me

@johnnyrunts
@jkjmetasco
i needa see ya tn
i need ya rn
meet me in ur room w the lights out
we can sit n talk til the party dies down
we can do what u want baby i wont let u down

circles now im runnin
its hurts when i see u comin
turnin ur back on me
baby dont turn ur back on us
how can u chalk it down to luck
u think that its coincedence 
but i think that its always been

i think its never not been you
for the first time in a long time
i dont what to do
baby pls dont make me choose
between what i want and whats best for me

circles ft johnnyrunts (jkjmetasco)

@possumsprings

let me go
can you let me go
It just feels so cold
Why u break my heart 
im like why you break my bones
I wrote you a note
I know you want my soul
goo
let me goo
take me home 
tried w everything i got
just for you im spilling blood
time will never heal these cuts
heal these cuts
i feel numb
crying on my fucking own
tell me where tf u go
can you call me on my phone
reminds me of your ringtones
and im still hearing your echoes 
I cant seem to let go
feel like somethings missing
still hearing your echoes
I cant get her out my system
days seem like years in this month of December

ringtones prod nassim

off the wall prod 222quiet

instagram - @nubieheartsing
OSSWorld ✨🌐
#HeartSing💗💌
Lyrics
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Nubie
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Chorus
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I'm obsessed I swear I'm serious
Your eyes and the way that you're speaking
Heartbeats collide let's sync them
I need a raft I'm sinking
I'll be there in the moment
Hot nights are getting colder
I know it's hard to leave this
I know it's hard just breathe in
Just breathe in
Just breathe in
I need you breathing
I wanna see you
I know it's hard believe me
I'll keep your heart on beating
I won't be here forever
One day we'll break this tether
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Verse
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Tether, tether
One day we'll break this tether
One day, one day
Someday we'll be together
I'm freezing in the winter
For you I'll try to better
I know, I know 
I know someday we'll be together 
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Chorus
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I'm obsessed I swear I'm serious
Your eyes and the way that you're speaking
Heartbeats collide let's sync them
I need a raft I'm sinking
I'll be there in the moment
Hot nights are getting colder
I know it's hard to leave this
I know it's hard just breathe in

I Think You're Beautiful If That Even Matters To You

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ty for listening

me:
yea i need you shawty
ion need nobody
i wish you would call right
i wish you would call right
i wish you would call right nowww
ohh, oohhh, ohh
i wish you would call right

vacy:
might just be a different way i was all in it
baby if we falling down
then im callin it
girl just know now 
im different 
girl just know now
im missing
girl just know now i-
i dont feel like shouting
when the time feels drowning
when the time feels drowning

me:
nothin's wrong bout me
up all night its so hard to sleep
love is all i need
oh baby come back to me

needyoushawty (okmax & yuko)

@hollons @cld @rewind214 @afterstoryx

i have so much im so excited to share

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@hollons

been like this my whole life
ask me how im doin im gon say im alright
im like what u wna do? she wna hit the mall right
got me brand new prada shoes
prada cups in all white
alright
she wna go like all night
racks all on me she wna live the good life
30 w a beam U wna talk its on sight
ya im wit the team gettin high we take flight
blood up on the seats bitch im inna beamerrrr
racks all on me u can see the jeans stuffed
ya we poppin beans put it inna lean cup
ur bitch all on me ion wna link up

@lifegiverr

scratch on my body girl tatt me XO
we dont have to fight cuz i know how things goo

blood on my arms dont know how we stand yuhhh
dont know who i am hope u understand yuhh
we can take a trip kickin white sand uppp
take a take a pic hope you show your fans uppp

dont know who to trust but
i know that youve got me
when i start to freak out
will u come and stop me

dont know how to act when 
i see that you call me
you bring me to pieces
i speak like a zombie

and when i go up wanna bring you
you know its all love hope you see through
your skin is so rough wanna heal you
cant cant nobody tell us what we been through

link up +hollons (cld, rewind)

when We gon come Together (rebornhq)

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18M, Huge fan of Osei's music. Love your music, bro, truly.

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