you're just a memory

last song for a week or 2 i have strep throat

@stolemyfirstname
heyyy i just wanna fucking kill myself
i got 36 more days till i fucking break
crying in my room it’s a god damn loop 
you should know why i hate you
but i know you can’t get it through
and i really gotta stop cutting and my wrists are super bloody
i’m just a stupid useless bitch
and i know i gotta sit down

@zomiraa
already told you I’m a corpse, ima leave my blood on the bedroom floor. All the things she said including I’m a chore, why did she say that it hit to the core. Im a zombie what more do you want from me. I ain’t got a brain but I promise I can see. I can also hear and I know I can speak, cuz I sung this song and you know that it’s me.

im so stupid i wanna shoot myself w/ zomira

@yrui
baby was something i said too extreme?
i thought that we were a team i guess i was wrong
so thats why i am writing and singin this song
i just be cuttin in my room for soo damn long 
@sbxmar
bloody wrist what the fuck did i do wrong
yh im cutting my wrist yh cutting to the bone 
yh im better off alone when im up better not call my phone
im not tryna get along ill push you back get out of my zone

bloody wrists w/ sbxmar

Valentines day but im not pretty like you (feat kaysnoto, 14 days after February, and creepies)

lowk i suck at music but its wtv

losin u w/ sbxmar

remember you <3

have never been happy not even as a kid

wanna slit my wrist till it all falls off
i dont ever feel a shit so i hate waking up
i wish i could just live in my dreams
i feel like im so much happier when shit aint real
i hate my fucking life i just wanna bleed out
on the bathroom floor, right there on the ground
im not the only son so it really doesnt count
if i ever disappear, then you shouldnt have a doubt
bitch im dead as fuck thats why i call myself a zombie
born in 08 but i died 2003
i think my therapist fucking hates me
i guess i shouldve saw it coming when i failed to speak
i just wanna be the one you love
but i keep fucking up so ive had enough
walking to the forest straight smoke in my lungs
popped 10 paracets and i hope i overdose

why do i always feel indifferent  lol

Nova Ray (talk to you)

This song is about the process of dreaming, waking up from your alarm, pressing the snooze button and falling back asleep repetitively 