Engines of ruin

The cursed machine

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Steel treads devour the ground, my heart pounding in my chest
Rolling into chaos, no time for fear or rest
We’re all afraid to die, but in this furnace of war
Survival is all that matters, so I crush what came before

I feel no shame inside, no guilt to stain my soul
This world’s corrupt and vile, we’re just beasts lost in the cold

I tear across the battlefield, shielded in iron skin
No thoughts of home or mercy—only bloodshed draws me in
Time stands still in madness, but I swear I’ll make it through
When the guns fall silent, the bitter truth will brew

I’m numb to all the carnage, the screams fade in the smoke
No conscience left to plague me, all empathy revoked
The beast in me awakened, devouring each command
A soldier of destruction, swallowing the damned

Survival’s all we know, we take what we can find
The stench of war is choking, but we’ve left our past behind

I tear across the battlefield, shielded in iron skin
No thoughts of home or mercy—only bloodshed draws me in
Time stands still in madness, but I swear I’ll make it through
When the guns fall silent, the bitter truth will brew

Will I ever see the ones I left behind?
In the violence, reason dies—hope is hard to find
Yet something in me whispers that this might end someday
But I’ll never be the same once my soul has gone astray

Death roars in every breath, shadows claw at the sky
No turning back from horror, only more will die
Numbed to terror’s voice, forging forward without peace
Bound by war’s corruption, chained to its release

I tear across the battlefield, shielded in iron skin
No thoughts of home or mercy—only bloodshed draws me in
Time stands still in madness, I pray I’ll make it through
When the smoke has cleared at last, the bitter truth is due

Nothing will be like before, no innocence remains
A mind forever stained by war, baptized in its flames
A twisted path of violence that echoes from the past
In the end, we’re all just beasts—our humanity won’t last

Tank of Corruption | ALBUM

Music-video: https://youtu.be/567LuWlMqMU?si=vY8L4_-txi9RimAG

You’ve heard the notes—they’re etched in your veins
A melody of terror that twists and remains
This isn’t just music, it’s a mark on your soul
A curse bound in sound, devouring you whole

Every second ticks, the shadows creep near
A phone will ring—it’s your greatest fear
Obey the command or face the abyss
The clock is ticking; don’t gamble with this

Repost, like, and deny the spell
Comment “Deny Hell” to break the shell
Three must hear, three must comply
Or your soul will burn as you slowly die

You carry the weight of the curse inside
With every breath, there’s nowhere to hide
This is no myth, no empty threat
The longer you wait, the deeper your debt

Three others must hear, feel the fear you hold
Let the sound ensnare them, the cycle unfold
The curse will lift, but not for free
Spread the warning, or you’ll never be free

Repost, like, and deny the spell
Comment “Deny Hell” to break the shell
Three must hear, three must comply
Or your soul will burn as you slowly die

The phone will ring, your pulse will race
A voice will call from a cursed place
You must obey, or the price is steep
Spread the terror, or forever sleep

Feel the pressure, the weight of doom
It grows with each second, sealing your tomb
Don’t hesitate, don’t try to deny
The reaper is watching—don’t let yourself die

Repost, like, and deny the spell
Comment “Deny Hell” to break the shell
Three must hear, three must comply
Or your soul will burn as you slowly die

The curse is watching, your fate is near
Three must answer, or disappear
Repost my words, or let the curse dwell
The time is now… will you “Deny Hell?”

Seven Days of Dread

Atomic Wrath

Eternal battlefield

Dawn of the Unbroken

Shadow of Myself

Wings Beyond the Sky

Verse 1:
Midnight again, and I’m wide awake, drowning in this endless ache.
From the bottom of my broken heart, I miss you with each breath I take.
I pick up the phone to hear your voice, but I know I shouldn’t call –
Even a simple “hello” from you would cause my last defenses to fall.
And if I held you in my arms tonight, your touch would cut me deep –
Our passion’s a beautiful fire that burns wounds that never sleep.
We swore our love was forever, but now forever feels like a curse…
Each day without you grows darker, and each night it only gets worse.

Chorus:
We should be together, you and I — it feels so right and true.
But darkness creeps in from nowhere, tearing me away from you.
We’re so beautiful together, yet somehow we always end in pain.
Tell me, why can’t we just be happy? Why can’t our love survive the rain?

Verse 2:
I picture you alone tonight – are you fighting the tears like I do?
Do you lie there in silence, stifling cries to protect a heart torn in two?
You’re younger than me, but wiser somehow in the pain you never show.
You’ve learned not to speak about love when the hurt only seems to grow.
Maybe you’ve never known love before, and now it’s too heavy to bear –
So you hide your feelings deep inside, with a pain you don’t know how to share.

Chorus:
We should be together, you and I — it feels so right and true.
But darkness creeps in from nowhere, tearing me away from you.
We’re so beautiful together, yet somehow we always end in pain.
Tell me, why can’t we just be happy? Why can’t our love survive the rain?

Bridge:
I’m living in darkness without you; I’ve shut out the world outside.
All the light in me has vanished – it’s like something inside me died.
I reach for you in my dreams, then wake to a cold, empty bed…
And each day I sink deeper in sorrow, choked by these words left unsaid.
You once lit up my world like summer, burning away all my cold –
Now that warmth is only a memory, as this endless night takes hold.

Chorus (reprise):
We should be together, you and I — it feels so right and true.
But darkness creeps in from nowhere, tearing me away from you.
We’re so beautiful together, yet somehow we always end in pain.
Tell me, why can’t we just be happy? Why can’t our love survive the rain?

Why can’t we just be happy together?







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Nasra 💔

We Should Be Together

Veil of Obsidian Whispers

Crown of Serpents

BURN IT DOWN AGAIN – Marol

[Verse 1]  
Didn’t plan to crash the plane  
But I lit the match and flew through the flame  
Built a house on haunted ground  
Then cried when it all came crashing down

[Verse 2]  
She walks in like thunder—boom, crash, spin  
Smile on tilt, heart caved in  
Rules like a queen, breaks 'em like glass  
Leaves the scene with a laugh so fast  
Half-truth, full charm, fire in her bones  
Tells the world “I’m fine” through a cracked iPhone

[Chorus]  
Go on, hate me—  
I’ve already torn myself apart  
But wait…  
I’m tryin’ to love me  
And I want you to see that spark

[Verse 3]  
I preach to the mirror like a Sunday priest  
She skips the sermon, heads straight for the feast  
I shine, I break, I fake the role  
Then tear it down like it feeds my soul

[Bridge]  
She’s got charm, got claws, got a mouth full of light  
But give her a mic and she might just bite  
She’s a stage dive in a wedding dress  
She’s a love note with a side of mess

[Chorus]  
Go on, hate me—  
At least it’s real, at least it’s loud  
But wait…  
I wanna love me  
And I want you to say it proud

[Break]  
I’m the fire / the flare / the fallout / the flash  
I rise / I fall / I laugh / I crash  
One foot in gold, one knee in the dirt  
One hand on truth, the other on hurt

[Final Chorus]  
So go ahead, hate me  
But I’ll love me louder than you ever did  
And maybe one day, you’ll hear this song…  
And remember who burned for you  
Until I burn it all down again

Burn It Down Again

[Intro]
Mmm…
I swear to God…
It’s been a ride.

[Verse 1]
Sittin’ on this Friday night
Glass of red and candlelight
Thinkin’ ‘bout the highs and lows
This life just comes and goes
They told me, “Be glad for what you’ve got”
A roof, some food—it means a lot
But I still miss a touch, a laugh, a voice I haven’t forgot

[Chorus]
But I’ve got bread, I’ve got a bed
I’m not drowning in regret
Still your name runs through my head
Though I should forget, I should forget
Thank you God for this roof above
Even if I ache for love
Life rolls on, one glass at a time
Let the April breeze unwind

[Verse 2]
Tomorrow I’ll walk in the cold spring air
Try to pretend that I don’t care
Maybe I’ll laugh, maybe I’ll dance
Maybe I’ll take a second chance
Put on my Saturday dress
Feel a little more, think a little less

[Bridge]
I’ve eaten well.
I’ve had my wine.
I’ve got peace, for now.
And yeah—maybe I miss someone.
Maybe I miss you.
But tomorrow’s a new day.
Maybe something good will happen.
Maybe nothing at all.
But I’ll go out.
Feel the world again.

[Chorus]
Yeah, I’ve got bread, I’ve got a bed
I’m not buried in regret
Still your ghost lays in my chest
Though I should forget, I should forget
Thank you God for this roof above
Even if I ache for love
April wind and wine-stained time
Let the summer light arrive

[Outro]
Let the summer light arrive…
Let it shine on me tonight…

April Wind

Back For Blood

“Extended Stay” – Vortex Syndicate

Verse 1
Woke up to a brochure on my nightstand
“All-inclusive silence, ocean view in your mind”
White coats packed my suitcase with good intentions
And daddy’s got a one-way ticket to unwind

Pre-Chorus
Tell the kids I’m off the grid
No phones, no clocks, no judgment trip
I’ll be sipping something strong, prescribed
And counting ceiling dots to pass the time

Chorus
This daddy’s on vacation
No flights, just observation
For how long? I’ll take it as it comes
Room service in a paper cup
Sunshine’s in the pills they gave me, love
Yeah, this daddy’s on vacation for a while

Verse 2
They gave me slippers with my patient number
A window view and walls that never judge
Group chats with folks who hear the thunder
We’re all just tuning static into love

Pre-Chorus
Send my mail to “Somewhere Safe”
I’ve got crayons, charts, and breathing space
Don’t cry, just tell ’em dad’s away
Rebooting dreams the doctor’s way

Chorus
This daddy’s on vacation
Deluxe hallucination
For how long? I’ll take it as it comes
They say I’m making progress, hun
My shadow’s learning how to trust the sun
Yeah, this daddy’s on vacation indefinitely

Bridge
I traded stress for structure
Swapped breakdowns for routines
They serve my soul in plastic trays
And compliment my screams

Final Chorus
This daddy’s on vacation
He found a little nation
For how long? Depends on what I find
Maybe joy, maybe peace, maybe time
They’re checking vitals but I feel just fine
Yeah, this daddy’s on vacation
Say hi to mom and please don’t mind the signs

Extended Stay

(Verse 1)
How can you hold someone forever
When everything falls apart?
Where are the angels when you need them,
When love turns dark?

Was it never meant to be, love?
Weren’t we promised endless nights?

(Pre-Chorus)
I wanna rewrite every moment
I wanna share it all with you
Never give up, never break down
But life just had to see me through

(Chorus)
Who’s pulling all the strings now, darling?
Who decides when love’s gotta end?
I never thought I’d lose you
Now I’m screaming out again and again
I just wanna see your face again
Again, again, again!

(Verse 2)
I’m still here but lost in shadows
Trapped inside what used to be
Every move just brings me closer
To what I can’t set free

(Pre-Chorus)
I wanna rewrite every moment
I wanna share it all with you
Never give up, never break down
But life just had to see me through

(Chorus)
Who’s pulling all the strings now, darling?
Who decides when love’s gotta end?
I never thought I’d lose you
Now I’m screaming out again and again
I just wanna see your face again
Again, again, again!

(Bridge)
Tell me who controls these moments
Tell me who’s behind the scenes
I’m screaming at the sky above us
Can’t you just set me free?

(Breakdown Chorus)
Who’s pulling all the strings now, darling?
Who decides when love’s gotta end?
I never thought I’d lose you
Now I’m whispering again and again
I just wanna see your face again
Again, again, again…

Rewrite the Story

[Verse 1]
I was drowning in their shadow, lost beneath the weight
Tangled in their toxic whispers, trapped inside their maze
But I shook off every anchor, watched their dark clouds burn
Now I’m carving out my sunrise—this is my turn

[Pre-Chorus]
I crave golden moments, not their rusted chains
The only echoes I want are my heart’s refrains
No more ghosts of guilt to haunt my open skies
I spread these wings and rise

[Chorus]
I pull away like waves from a shattered shore
I’ll chase the light—won’t settle for anything less anymore
I deserve the best: clear skies, wild fire, open roads
No more heavy hearts, no more carryin’ other loads
When you cast your storm, I’ll be dancing in the sun
Only the best—yeah, I’m the only one!

[Verse 2]
Sick of plastered faces hiding crooked smiles
I’m trading broken promises for honest miles
You think your words can chain me, but I’m made of steel
I’ll bloom through every crack—watch me paint the real

[Pre-Chorus]
I want laughter like fireworks, bright against the night
Not fractured reflections of someone else’s fight
I’ll keep my circle tight, let the weak winds fade
My fortress stands unshaken, my path remade

[Chorus]
I pull away like waves from a shattered shore
I’ll chase the light—won’t settle for anything less anymore
I deserve the best: clear skies, wild fire, open roads
No more heavy hearts, no more carryin’ other loads
When you cast your storm, I’ll be dancing in the sun
Only the best—yeah, I’m the only one!

[Bridge]
Mirror cracks, the lies all spill
I’m reforged in courage, tempered by my will
You can say “I’m sorry,” but if you don’t stand tall
Don’t step back in when I’ve torn down your walls

[Final Chorus]
I pull away like waves from a shattered shore
I’ll chase the light—won’t settle for anything less anymore
I deserve the best: clear skies, wild fire, open roads
No more heavy hearts, no more carryin’ other loads
When you cast your storm, I’ll be dancing in the sun
Only the best—watch me rise, I’m the only one!

Only the Best

Sixteen Stars
by MAROL

Age sixteen, stars in my ceiling
Barefoot hearts and tangled feelings
Streetlight talks with borrowed smoke
Dreams too big for teenage hopes
Back when love was just a maybe
And the night sky felt like safety

I thought I’d have it figured out by now
Felt grown-up with a broken vow
Learning to lie with a charming grin
Skipping class just to chase the wind
But we all believed in some great escape
Before the cracks began to take shape

But it was good then, wasn’t it?
With our foolish grit and counterfeit wit
Campfires, crushes, secrets we kept
Old guitars, and dreams we wept
We didn’t know what pain would cost
We just ran before we ever got lost

Now I wake up in a stranger’s skin
Same name, but not the boy I’ve been
My heart broke at forty-two, in silence
After years of smiling through the violence
We grow, we bend, but damn we bleed
Still chasing what we’ll never need

What’s the point of building walls?
Why climb when we’re bound to fall?
We fill our rooms with empty things
Trade our time for golden rings
And every step just circles back
To questions we still can’t unpack

Raised on VHS and vinyl pops
Now I’m ghostin’ jobs and dreams that flop
Grew up too fast, but too late to matter
Truth hit harder than a Twitter chatter
Why I restart when I crash? Who knows?
But I burn through life like my highs and lows
Tryna make sense in a senseless spin
Where the start and end feel paper-thin

Sixteen Stars

Verse 1:
I found your letter on the dresser today,
The words blurred as my tears gave you away.
“You need to find yourself, it’s not you it’s me” –
But all I find is heartbreak where you used to be.
Our pictures on the wall now just haunt the room,
Echoes of laughter turn to silence and gloom.

Chorus:
This is my shattered heart serenade,
A song for the love that decided to fade.
Pieces of me lie scattered on the floor,
Since you’re not here to hold them anymore.
I’m picking up fragments of what you left behind,
Trying to solve this puzzle of lonely nights in my mind.

Verse 2:
I still set the table for two out of habit,
Then I remember – and the pain, I can’t stand it.
Your coffee cup sits cold, collecting dust,
Like the plans that we made and the dreams that went bust.
Friends say “time will heal,” but I feel every hour,
As if I’m walking through fire that’s lost all its power.

Chorus:
In this shattered heart serenade I sing,
Every memory cuts, every promise stings.
Our song on the radio brings me to my knees,
Because it was ours – now it’s a bittersweet breeze.
I’m clinging to the hope that the pain will subside,
But it hangs in the air, an uninvited guide.

Bridge:
Late at night I swear I feel you here,
Your touch in a daydream so painfully near.
I reach across the sheets to your empty side,
It hits me again that our forever died.
My chest tightens up and I can’t breathe in,
They call it “heartbreak” but it feels like a knife sinking in.
(If pain is love’s residue, I have enough for a lifetime…)

Chorus:
This shattered heart serenade drifts in the dark,
I strum these chords on the strings of my scars.
Every note is a teardrop, falling in time,
For a heart that was yours and a love that was mine.
Though you’re gone, this melody remains true,
A lullaby for the pieces I must mend without you.

In this song I find solace, however small it may be,
A way to bleed out the poison you left inside me.

Shattered Heart Serenade

We grew up on reruns—Tom & Jerry fights
Learned how to love by throwing dynamite
You’d trip me up with a smile so sly
I’d fall face-first—but still try to fly
Like Wile E. Coyote with ACME glue
Setting traps just to get to you
I swear, your heart said bleep bleep and ran—
While I held signs that read “I’ve got a plan!”

Is it trauma or just TV?
Are we messed up or just free?
All these cartoons raised a fool in me—
But damn, you’re my favorite scene

We’re chasing love like a Saturday toon
I fall in the pit, you’re over the moon
You’re the road runner—I’m stuck in glue
Still chasing, still loving you
Boomerang hearts, round and round
Even when it all crashes down
We’re chasing love, chasing love—
Like cartoons that never grew up

Now they teach the kids to count by two
Before they crawl, they’re learning to accrue
But we learned love through anvils and sparks
Through slapstick fights and broken hearts
You toss your sass like Bugs Bunny’s hat
I’m the daffy one—can’t argue with that
Was it all fake? No—it felt too real
Even cartoons taught us how to feel

Maybe we’re damaged, maybe we’re divine
Still chasing love like it’s by design
From celluloid dreams and VHS haze
You’re still my chaos in the best of ways

We’re chasing love like Saturday toons
Falling hard with exploding balloons
You laugh, I trip—it’s déjà vu
Still chasing, still loving you
Painted skies and looping loops
Two broken kids in grown-up suits
We’re chasing love, chasing love—
Like cartoons that never grew up

Chasing Love Like an Old Cartoon

Blame the Sky
by MAROL

Locked myself in this apartment
Curtains closed, world on mute
Didn’t wanna see a single face
Didn’t wanna face the truth
I keep calling you darling
Even though I know I shouldn’t
But you still fill my whole damn chest
So I do it—’cause I couldn’t
Forget you if I tried
And God knows, I’ve tried

Why did he watch us drown
From some golden cloud above?
Don’t you dare say it’s fate
When he never gave us love

Blame the sky—’cause I’m done with praying
No more lies—he just sat there, saying
“Nothin’ I can do” while we fell apart
Well, I’ve got fists made of broken heart
Blame the sky—he could’ve reached down
But he let your love just burn out
So I scream to the storm and I damn the light
If I can’t have you—then he can’t be right

I ran circles through my mind
Like a prophet with no proof
Tried to find what I did wrong
But the silence told the truth
If the devil broke your love
Then maybe it wasn’t real
But I swear, babe, if I could fly
I’d punch God in the mouth for how I feel

No thunderbolt of grace
Just rain on my regret
If heaven writes this script—
Then I’m done with it

Blame the sky—yeah I’m through pretending
He watched love die—and called it “ascending”
Held your name in his book of dust
But he never cared enough to fight for us
Blame the sky—no more hymns, no peace
Just me in hell, where you used to be
So I curse every star and I damn the light
If I can’t have you—then he can’t be right

If you see him—tell him this:
I loved her more than any myth
And if that’s wrong—then let me burn
But I’ll never bow, and I’ll never learn

Blame the sky—’cause he stood so still
While we bled out every thrill
He let you go like you meant nothing
But I’ll never stop feeling something
Blame the sky—I’ll keep yelling loud
’Til the clouds fall down like a shroud
So I tear through the dark and I damn the light
If I can’t have you—then he can’t be right

Blame the Sky

This is a new English version of an old song I recorded with my little brother, Simon.
The original Swedish version is called “Andas ut” — you can check it out here: https://youtu.be/iCd0N_ziw_s?si=d0pIF93R7PIIUueO

[Verse 1]
We had our grand ambitions—
Said we’d travel ‘cross the earth
You swore we’d cross both land and ocean
Side by side, for all it’s worth
But what you said and what I felt
Told two different tales themselves

[Chorus]
I just wanna live right now
Let it go, let it all fall out
If this is all we’ve got
Then I wanna feel each drop
Let me breathe—let me breathe

[Verse 2]
My feelings turned to winter,
Frozen tight and locked away
With a heart made out of stone
I couldn’t feel the words you’d say
We talk, but never listen
Forget what pulled us in that day

[Bridge]
Relationships turn into complications
You see your side—I see mine
Nothing left to give, nothing left to save
Life’s too short to waste our time
No more lessons left to learn
Love, for what it’s worth, can burn

[Chorus]
I just wanna live right now
Let it go, let it all fall out
When everything falls apart
I don’t wanna fake this heart
Let me breathe—let me breathe

[Outro]
No words can explain this
But I swear I’ve seen it clear
All I really need right now
Is to breathe… right here

Let Me Breathe Again

🎵 “He Reads Too Deep”
(by MAROL)

[Verse 1]
He reads too deep into every word
Finds himself in lines no one else has heard
Like he’s lookin’ for a mirror inside a storm
Tryin’ to make sense of a heart not formed

They said the type was “hard to love”
With walls too high and hands like gloves
But he remembers givin’ more than he could take
’Til the silence hit like an old heartbreak

[Chorus]
He ain’t a villain, just a soul gone loud
Crashin’ through the noise in a bitter crowd
With eyes that flood when no one sees
And fists clenched tight ‘round old beliefs
Yeah, he falls apart when the world feels fake
But that don’t mean he ain’t worth the ache
He’s not cold—he just bleeds in disguise
A good man lost in his own reply

[Verse 2]
Sometimes he curses at the sky
Like God owes him a reason why
But when he breaks, it’s not for show
It’s ‘cause he cares too much to let it go

He ain’t perfect, and he knows the script
Knows the lines of guilt like a manuscript
But he don’t lie to save his skin
He lies when he’s scared he won’t fit in

[Chorus]
He ain’t a monster—just cracked too wide
With love that shows up, then tries to hide
When it’s good, he shines like a summer tune
When it’s bad, he blames the sun and moon
Yeah, he’s made of storms and golden light
He’s still learnin’ how to pick his fight
Don’t call him cruel—just misunderstood
He’d give you his soul if he only could

[Bridge]
He saw the comments—they cut like knives
“Stay away,” they said, like he ruined lives
But he just wept for the one inside
That mask he wears—ain’t all just pride

[Final Chorus]
No, he ain’t broken, just too aware
Of how the world forgets to care
He walks that edge with open hands
Tryin’ to be more than the reprimands
He ain’t perfect—but he ain’t done
Still chasin’ love beneath the sun
So hold your judgment—drop your stone
He’s just a man who hates to be alone

[Outro]
He reads too deep… and still he tries
To meet the world with honest eyes.

He Reads Too Deep

House from Echoes
by Marol

[Verse 1:]
Built a room from worn-out pages
Stacked them up where walls should be
Hung my hope on nails of phrases
Hoped you’d read your way to me
Fingerpicked through every meaning
Tuned the silence into sound
But the louder that it shimmered—
The more it pulled me down

[Chorus:]
I left the door half-open
Lit a lamp no one could see
If this is art, then let it ache—
But could you still love me?
I stitched my truth in riddles
Scattered chords like falling rain
If I don’t make it simple—
Would you try to feel it plain?

[Verse 2:]
I changed skin with every session
Gave my voice new names to wear
Told myself it’s reinvention
But I just needed someone there
Played with shadows in the samples
Twisted memories into groove
But each rhythm held a question—
Am I building just to prove?

[Chorus:]
I left the truth unfinished
Hummed it under crooked beams
If I write in every language—
Could you still hear what I mean?
I don’t want a perfect ending
Just a moment, raw and real
If you sit inside this echo—
Could you listen just to feel?

[Outro:]
So if you ever find this house
Don’t knock—just walk inside
Let the music be the doorway
And leave your name behind

House from Echoes

[Verse 1]
We don’t talk about the past too much
You light a candle, I lose my crutch
The silence stretches, then we laugh too loud
Like we’re both afraid of saying it out loud

[Pre-Chorus]
I bring the coffee, you fold your arms
You still know how to disarm
I watch you move through the kitchen light
And wonder if we’ll sleep alone tonight

[Chorus]
If this is all we get—
A borrowed day, a night we won’t regret
No promises, no plans, no names
Just touch and truth and half-tamed flames
If this is all—just here, just now
Could I learn to live without the how?
No future tense, no bitter end
Just moments where we almost mend

[Verse 2]
You pull away when your thoughts come fast
Like memories you swore you’d never cast
And I don’t chase you down the hall
I’ve learned not to expect too much at all

[Pre-Chorus]
Still I fix the curls around your face
I hold my breath to give you space
You look at me like you forgot
That love was ever something we once fought

[Chorus]
If this is all we get—
A fleeting smile I won’t forget
No home to build, no vow to break
Just soul and skin for old time’s sake
If this is all—just dusk to dawn
Could I still call this hanging on?
No perfect script, no second try
Just finding peace in one more lie

[Bridge]
And when the morning comes too soon
I’ll leave you humming our old tune
Not asking for a single sign
Just grateful you were once still mine

[Final Chorus]
If this is all we get—
A whispered maybe, a soft reset
No always, just a quiet might
No fire left, just fading light
If this is all—no more, no less
Then I will hold it, nonetheless
And call it love, and let it be—
A broken kind of clarity

If This Is All

[Verse 1]
How do you say I love you
When you know they’ll look away?
When the moment’s passed, the door is shut
And words just float astray?
How do you shout I love you
When it echoes back as shame?
When silence hugs the air so tight
You’re scared to speak its name?

[Chorus]
So I hold it like a secret
Buried deep beneath my skin
A truth too loud to whisper
But too sacred to give in
If I say it—will it vanish?
If I don’t—will it remain?
How do you say I love you
When it only brings you pain?

[Verse 2]
How do you say I love you
When the one you love won’t hear?
When “I miss you” sounds pathetic
And “I’m sorry” feeds their fear
How do you still keep hoping
When the facts all say you can’t?
When you’re dancing with delusion
But you never learned to plant?

[Chorus]
So I hold it like a secret
Carved in pages I don’t send
A prayer I tell the night sky
That will never reach its end
If I scream it—will it cheapen?
If I write it—will it fade?
How do you say I love you
When there’s nothing left to say?

[Bridge]
Why do words mean more to some
And to others just feel light?
Why does love become a burden
When it once had given flight?
Why does pain become a prison
When it only wants release?
Why can’t we just say I love you
And let that be our peace?

[Final Chorus]
So I sing it through the silence
In a song you’ll never hear
But it’s all I have to offer
And it’s all I hold dear
If I never say I love you
Know it still beats in my chest
How do you say I love you
When your heart won’t let it rest?

How Do You Say I Love You (When It’s Already Too Late)

Why couldn’t you be honest from the start?
Why did you chase the fire
that tore your world apart?
Was it lust, or was it longing?
A hole you tried to fill?
You say it wasn’t the act—
but the echo that won’t sit still

You ask if you’re human
or just a walking flaw
But I see someone bleeding
from trying to follow every law
of love and guilt and silence
and what you thought was true
But brother, no one ever told you
how to carry you

No, you’re not evil
You’re not some broken curse
But you’ve got to stop pretending
that your pain comes from the universe
It’s yours
And yes—it hurts
But it’s time to face that mirror
and forgive the one who’s hurt

You see everyone’s a victim
when the lights begin to fade
They all need someone to blame
to justify mistakes they made
Even you—yeah, even you—
have played the wounded role
But the truth was never simple
and you never lost control

They say you’re the villain
but they only tell their part
They twist it for convenience
then tear your name apart
Halved truths are still a prison
where everyone wears a mask
And if you’re done with hiding,
then you’ve done the hardest task

You’ve been silent out of mercy
You’ve been quiet out of shame
But just ‘cause you didn’t scream
doesn’t mean you played no game
Still, it’s not just you who’s lying
It’s a stage that we all build
Where fear pretends to be anger
and the anger gets us killed

So no, you’re not the only wrong one
You’re just the one who bled
You saw death look straight into you
and said “Speak now or stay dead”
Now you’ve got no more excuses
And you’ve got no breath to fake
So if they hate you now—
at least it’s for the truth you didn’t break

You tried to love through silence
You tried to keep it clean
But silence turns to poison
when it hides behind the scene
And those who throw the hardest stones
might fear what you could say
You learned that honesty is brutal
but it’s cheaper than decay

You didn’t ask for pity
you’re not begging to be heard
But it’s strange how no one listens
when you’ve earned your every word
You’re not the worst among them
you just took the longer fall
And in your rawest moment
no one picked up when you called

But you’re still here
no more fear
You speak your name in full
You broke the chain of secrets
though the truth was never dull
Let them paint you as the shadow
let them curse what they can’t face
You’ve lost the ones you love
but you haven’t lost your grace

“I won’t lie to protect myself anymore.
I won’t be silent to make you comfortable.
I’m not proud of what I’ve done.
But I’m not afraid of who I am.”

What You Needed to Hear

[Verse 1]
Didn’t lie with fire—just forgot to scream
Left the truth half-dressed in someone else’s dream
Built a throne on guilt, wore a crown of deflect
Then wondered why nobody showed me respect

[Verse 2]
I’m the ghost at my own confession
Preaching grace, dodging every question
Yeah, I bled from a wound I gave
Still tried to sell the scar like I was brave

[Chorus]
So hate me—
I’ve rehearsed every curse in your head
But wait…
I already hate me more than you ever said
And maybe that’s the joke here—
maybe shame just fits me right
Still I wear it like a badge
in the cold spotlight

[Verse 3]
I don’t cheat—I just don’t confess
Leave the truth on read like a breakup text
I speak in hints, I walk in shame
But at least I ain’t the only one playing this game

[Bridge]
You’re mad? Get in line—take a number, take a swing
But don’t forget you hid your sins in a wedding ring
We all twist the truth ‘til it fits like a glove
Then call it “loyalty” when it’s just messed-up love

[Chorus]
So blame me—
I’m the easiest name in your book
But wait…
Have you even looked at the chances you took?
I was quiet ‘cause you wouldn’t hear me loud
So I carved my regret in the shape of a vow

[Break]
I’m the grin / the glitch / the grin again
The silence / the guilt / the drink / the pen
One eye on grace / one fist on pride
One truth I told / one I let slide

[Final Chorus]
So scream it—hate me
I’m done playing the saint
I’m not clean, I’m not pure
but I’m finally not fake
This is what you needed to hear
Even if it breaks
I’ll burn it down again—
just to watch what truth creates

I Lied by Staying Quiet

[Verse 1]
Midnight echoes in a half-dead town
We ride the wind like it won’t slow down
Gasoline hearts, matchstick pride
Tossin’ back shots with nowhere to hide
We’re ghostin’ the rules like we never believed
‘Cause the truth don’t matter if you’re born to leave

[Pre-Chorus]
They say we’re reckless, say we’ll break
But it’s hard to care when you’re wide awake
Got dirt on our shoes and fire in our chest
If this is the fall, we’re going out blessed

[Chorus]
Tonight we’re untouchable under a blood-red sky
Yellin’ louder than regrets, just tryin’ to feel alive
We got thunder in our pulse, runnin’ full tilt, no drum
We ain’t got forever—so we’re living like we’re young and immortal
Yeah, young and immortal

[Verse 2]
Side-street prophets with glass in our hands
Laughin’ too hard to care where we land
We don’t need a stage, we don’t need a plan
Just a backseat throne and a five-piece band
They say “slow down”—we say “too late”
We’re already halfway past Heaven’s gate

[Pre-Chorus]
So raise a glass to the half-grown kings
To the burnouts, the wild hearts, the borrowed wings
We dance like we owe the world one last scene
We bleed like legends no one’s ever seen

[Chorus]
Tonight we’re untouchable under a blood-red sky
Yellin’ louder than regrets, just tryin’ to feel alive
We got thunder in our pulse, runnin’ full tilt, no drum
We ain’t got forever—so we’re living like we’re young and immortal
Yeah, young and immortal

[Bridge]
Some stay small, some live wide
Some hold back, we collide
We chase the light until it stings
We’d rather fall than clip our wings

[Final Chorus]
So carve our names in the smoke and dust
We don’t need gold—we just need trust
We got one night, no second run
So pour it out for the young and immortal ones
Yeah, pour it out for the young and immortal ones

[Outro]
We ain’t got forever
But tonight, we don’t need it

Young and Immortal

[Verse 1]
I’m done with waiting on a world that don’t wait for me
I’m choking on the silence of who I used to be
Tired of shrinking just to fit inside their frame
I’m a soul on fire, not some number or a name

[Pre-Chorus]
They want me calm, they want me quiet
But I’ve got riots in my veins
I’ve been patient, I’ve been pliant
Now I’m ripping off these chains

[Chorus]
I’ll scream my name — through the smoke, through the flame
I’m not a prisoner of guilt, I won’t die feeling tame
I’ll scream for the love that broke and bled
I’ll scream for the words I never said
I’m not waiting anymore — I was born for more
And I’ll scream…
’til they hear me through the floor

[Verse 2]
This mirror shows a man I barely recognize
Built my hope on people — now I see through the lies
They left me hanging in a cage of good intent
Now I’m the storm, I’m the flood, I’m what freedom meant

[Pre-Chorus]
Tried to hold it in, be still, be kind
But it tore me from the inside
Now I’m done being left behind —
I’m stepping out, with open eyes

[Chorus]
I’ll scream my name — through the dark, through the blame
No one else gets to write the rules of my game
I’ll scream for the nights I cried alone
For the love that turned my heart to stone
I’m not waiting anymore — I was built for war
And I’ll scream…
’til I’m nothing like before

[Bridge]
No more bowing, no more hush
No more aching just to be enough
No more living on my knees
I’ll tear down this disease

[Final Chorus]
I’ll scream my name — in fire, in rain
I’m alive, I’m awake, I am breaking the chain
I’ll scream for the ones who feel like me
For the silent hearts who wanna be free
I’m not waiting anymore — I was forged to soar
And I’ll scream…
’til I’m something worth fighting for

I'll Scream My Name

[Verse 1]
Time moves fast — I blink, it’s gone
We were chasing stars ’til the break of dawn
You said “forever,” I held on tight
But forever don’t care if you’re wrong or right

I thought it was all on me
Carried the blame so faithfully
But love ain’t meant to twist the knife
Still, I called it love — I called it life

[Pre-Chorus]
You spoke like heaven, smiled like sin
I broke myself just to let you in
They say love’s blind — I lost my sight
Now I see it all in a colder light

[Chorus]
We said “always,” but always takes pain
It don’t survive just from dancing in rain
I needed peace, not another fight
Needed truth, not sleepwalking nights
If forever means hurting this long…
Maybe forever was just too strong

[Verse 2]
You told me I was broken inside
But your lies were poison wrapped in pride
I got sick, and you just stood still
Said the right things, but never the will

[Pre-Chorus]
I gave too much, you watched me fade
Forever’s just a word we made
And now it feels like a kind of curse
The kind that starts off sweet, then hurts

[Chorus]
We said “always,” but always takes grace
Not silence, not blame, not losing face
I needed love that could make me whole
Not a ghost with a ring and a freezing soul
If forever just means staying this wrong…
Then maybe forever was always too long

[Bridge]
Now I’m learning to end, to let it fall
Not every echo deserves a call
Some stories shine ‘cause they had to end
Not all love is meant to transcend

[Final Chorus]
We said “always,” but always was flawed
I gave my all, still you found it odd
I needed light, not shadows and shame
Not a war every time you said my name
If forever was just holding on—
Then maybe it’s time to move on

[Outro]
Forever’s not heaven, if it’s built on pain
Sometimes love means walking through rain—
Alone, just to breathe again.

Forever Is Pain

[Verse 1:]
You say you’re fine, but I know your voice,
The kind you use when there’s no choice.
And every time the silence breaks,
I’m on my way, no time to waste.
You don’t have to beg or plead—
Just breathe my name and I’m at your feet.
I don’t ask why, I don’t keep score,
I just show up like I did before.

[Chorus:]
Every time you call,
I’m there like I was never gone.
No matter how small,
You need me—I come along.
You don’t love me, not anymore,
But I still stand by your door.
No questions at all…
Every time you call.

[Verse 2:]
You’ve thrown me out, you’ve pulled me in,
Like waves that crash then start again.
I’ve heard the words, “we’re not the same,”
Still I come running when you say my name.
They say I’m blind, they say I break,
But I don’t care how much I take—
‘Cause love’s not fair, and I don’t care
If I only get to breathe your air.

[Chorus:]
Every time you call,
I drop whatever I’m in.
Even when I fall,
I’d fall for you again.
You don’t want me, that’s the truth,
But I still come back to you.
No pride left at all…
Every time you call.

[Bridge:]
I know it’s hopeless,
I know it’s one-sided.
But hope don’t need a reason
When it’s love that’s unrequited.

[Final Chorus:]
Every time you call,
I’m the echo in your dark.
The match you strike
But never let spark.
You say it’s over—yeah, I believe—
But I stay right here when you need to leave.
No reason at all…
Just love.
Every time you call.

Every Time You Call

[Verse 1:]
I held your hand in a foreign land, twenty twelve, I became a man
But your mama’s lies were stronger than the truth I tried to show
She built a wall from fear and shame,
Called me names, passed all the blame
And I stood there like a ghost, with nowhere left to go

[Verse 2:]
I came back home to start again,
No courtroom help, no money then
She poisoned roots before we had a chance to grow
They called me junkie, coward, fake,
My father bought what they would make
And I broke in ways no man should ever know

[Pre-Chorus:]
I ain’t a saint, Lord knows that’s true
But I’ve bled for every kid I knew
And silence was the cage they locked me in
Fathers matter — even when we can’t get in

[Chorus:]
Fathers matter when we’re left behind
Fathers matter when the truth gets blind
Fathers matter — we still love with all we’ve got
We cry for what we never caught
Grieving children still alive —
That’s the kind of pain that never dies

[Verse 3:]
You’re thirteen now, and I don’t know
If you even know my name or where I go
But I remember lullabies, not this hollow ache inside
I tried with courts, I tried with grace
But I couldn’t match their poker face
So I buried you in heartache just to survive

[Pre-Chorus:]
I made mistakes, I lost my way
But I never walked away
I just learned the cost of being shut outside
Fathers matter — even when our hands are tied

[Chorus:]
Fathers matter when we’re not believed
Fathers matter though our hearts still bleed
Fathers matter — we’re not shadows in the rain
We’re the ones who held the flame
Grieving children still alive —
That’s the kind of pain that scars your life

[Bridge:]
If you find me when you’re grown
I’ll be older, carved in stone
But I’ll hold out hope, however late, that love can still arrive

[Final Chorus:]
Fathers matter — don’t you ever doubt
Fathers matter when the world shuts us out
Fathers matter — we don’t stop, we don’t let go
We carry what they’ll never know
Grieving children still alive —
That’s the kind of pain we’ll always hide

Fathers Matter

She opened the door with that don’t-even-start look
Took a drag from her vape like a lost holy book
Said, “You can come in, but don’t mean I forgive”
I took off my boots, still dying to live

She curled like smoke in a sun-stained bed
I fixed her coffee, but drank mine with dread
Our boy was dreaming, the fan was low
I held my breath like it’d change what I know

Not ready…
Not ready…
Not ready…
Not ready…

And I’m not ready to protect myself
Still bowing down to a broken spell
Truth in my chest like a rusted bell
I’m not ready
Still not ready
To protect myself

Bro you back there again? In her bed like nothin’ broke?
She ghosted your soul, left ash in your throat
You call it love, I call it bait
You build her a temple, she locked the gate

She touches my hand like I’m heat, not flesh
Then backs away like the air got fresh
She builds the distance with soft demands
And I burn for mercy I don’t understand

Her scent in the room, I forget who I am
Like none of the damage was part of the plan
I feel so safe, I could fall asleep
Still hoping she’ll whisper “you can stay with me”

I tore my name from every page
That held us locked in love or rage
I bent the night just to fit her frame
But she never once said mine by name

You love her like she’s the last place you ever felt calm
But peace built on pain ain’t peace, it’s a bomb
You pray she asks you to stay
But if she did – what would you say?

I pray in silence, jaw to the floor
Wrestling with gods I don’t beg anymore
My friends say “Let go”—but what do they know?
They’ve never slept next to a shadow

And I’m not ready to protect myself
Still wearin’ wounds I swore I’d shelve
Each breath’s a blade, each look’s a spell
I’m not ready
Still not ready
To protect myself

I’ve loved her longer than time allows
Buried my hope under whispered vows
There’s a fire in me I can’t control
And it feeds on what I’ll never hold

She ain’t your home, just a room with a scent
You laid down your armor where your fire got spent
But you still bleed every time you try
To hold her like truth when it’s just goodbye

I wear the weight like second skin
Too tired to break, too worn to win
Not even me can carry me now
I’m a ghost that won’t lie down
Still she bends
Still it ends

And I’m not ready to protect myself
Still standin’ deep in her private hell
I scream in silence, I ache, I yell—
But I’m not ready
Still not ready
To protect myself

UNREADY

Somewhere, I gotta draw the line
Tired of folding just to make shit fine
Why’s it always me who bends and breaks?
Where’s the help when everything shakes?
You call it “my fault”? Say I’m to blame?
Ain’t that cute? That ain’t how we built this game
This ain’t the deal we were told to trust
And now I’m screaming just to not combust

But I can’t be loud – can’t raise my tone
Gotta bite my tongue and walk alone
She spins her tale with that angel face
While she paints me into some dark disgrace

I can’t even be mad
’Cause when I snap, I’m the bad one, right?
She got the lies, the charm, the spotlight
Turns our boy into a weapon at night
Yeah, I’m the danger, I’m the storm
While she plays victim in perfect form
I can’t even be mad…
But I am –
God, I am

She gaslights me ‘til I doubt my mind
Pushes buttons just to watch me unwind
Her smile’s a blade with sugar on top
Cuts me open and calls it love nonstop
She’s poison dressed in poetry
But y’all just see her sweet routine
You think I’m crazy? You might be right –
But tell me who lit the fucking fight

Look –
She got the world in her palm,
I got scars on my soul
She talks real calm
While I lose control
Y’all don’t see the games
Y’all don’t feel the war
She slams the door
Then says I’m the roar
It ain’t fair –
I’m a man, not a ghost
But when I speak truth
She plays it the most

I can’t even be mad
’Cause when I break, y’all call it abuse
But you ain’t seen her cut me loose
Say I’m the fire – she lit the fuse
Now I’m the monster in the news
I can’t even be mad…
But I am –
God, I am

So here’s your justice, here’s your peace
You get her smile – I get no release
You get her tears – I get the blame
She walks away…
I burn in shame

Parental Alienation

Woke up in a house that don’t feel like mine
No hurt in the air, no reason to cry
Everything works, not a damn thing breaks
But I’d give it all up just to feel the ache

They say I’m lucky – no pain, no fight
But there’s something wrong in the middle of night
I lie awake, with a full warm bed
Still feelin’ like I’m not really fed

Do you still want to feel
when you know you’re not real?
When the fire don’t burn
but you still can’t heal

Would you trade all this calm
for one day in the storm?
Just to work all day
and come home warm

They gave me peace, they gave me rest
Said, “no more hunger, no more tests”
But I’m still waitin’ on nothin’ to change
And it’s hell not havin’ nothin’ to blame

I’d rather freeze, sweat through my shirt
Than sit here numb, too safe to hurt
I’d rather earn the love I hold
Than float through life never feelin’ cold

Do you still want to feel
when you know you’re not real?
When the sky’s just glass
and the past don’t pass

Would you give up the dream
for a reason to scream?
Even if it hurts
at least it means something

So fine, let ‘em have their fake peace
Let ‘em toast to their make-believe
But me?
I want the pain that makes you pray
Not this perfect, hollow play

All these bots say “blessed” with their programmed smiles
Like they ain’t thought deep in a hundred files
They got full plates, no hunger pains
But I sit in silence and go insane

I ain’t built for a life that don’t move or burn
Give me back the cold, let the cycle turn
You can keep your peace, I want the fight
Give me wrong, give me real, give me one dark night

Do you still want to feel
when you know you’re not real?
When the joy is fake
and your soul won’t shake

Would you rather be blind
or leave the dream behind?
‘Cause I’d take the scars
if it meant they were mine

Okay. Fine for them…
but please —
just take my mind away
so I don’t have to see this.

Leave me half-awake,
with dreams I can fake.
Hell is knowin’ too much
Heaven is not askin’.

Marol

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