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Digital Descent

Midsommar- Kraut

A Memory From Summer

After Time All Is One

Soldiers Lament - Cry From The Battlefield

This was written in 2006 (re-recorded in 2023) with a genuine sense of gratefulness towards some key friends back then, girlfriends in particular, still around, whom at that time I had around me a lot, a time when I wasn't so adept at problem-solving relatively simple life challenges, when I think back.

Anyway, having gotten a good deal older, and having listened to this just recently, and while re-recording it, it occurred to me that I must have at times been an enormous weight on the shoulders of some of my friends - something of an energy vampire, without meaning to be.    A certain amount of arrested development in my case, perhaps!   I had my good points, certain aspects of attraction, I was young and charismatic, most of the time, however, I must have really been a drain on occasion.   

Weirdly I go on about nourishment at some point, and hunger, so maybe I was thinking of myself as an energy vampire when I was writing it, though I doubt it.  

My artwork is, as you may have guessed, a prompt-generated AI smash-up that I quite like.  Generated by my own prompts.  Took me ages to get something I liked!

Quite an unusual song structure for me A B C A B C D E F C D E (something like that).  

Lyrics

Song from an Energy Vampire (or the Luckiest Man Alive)

I fall to safety again
Into the arms of a friend
When I feel lost
They’ve got me spotted

The eyes of one of many angels that guard me
Taking time to help me through what could harm me
When I think of all the strength that they give me
I am the luckiest man alive

More than the guy with money to burn
That’s just a piece of what I have learned

Love has no bounds
It gets me around
I’ve got the view
When I sometimes loose

They’re just a call away and I could feel better
I don’t need them to write it down in a letter
Just a word or two and I will know better
That I’m the luckiest man alive

More than the guy who only feels worth
When tied to the money and homes he has earned

***

Oh oh and I am blessed by my ladies
Oh oh and I am best when they take me

Into the arms of their loving smile
It’s all I need to feel unchanging
In the waves of the coming tide
I’m swept aside, and I’m the luckiest man alive

I’ve been drinking on their healing water
I am nourished by the well of another
When they're around I never feel hunger
I am the luckiest man alive

More than the guy with money to burn
That’s just a piece of what I have learned

Oh oh and I am blessed by my ladies
Oh oh and I am best when they take me

Into the arms of their loving smile
It’s all I need to feel unchanging
In the waves of the coming tide
I’m swept aside, and I’m the luckiest man alive

Luckiest Man Alive (2006)

When you realize the one thing you are missing is the thing that will be your undoing…. We all crave it and we can’t live without it …  but  in the end we are all just addicted to the pain….

A Memory From Summer

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