Art by @worldwidewilly

Used to be a friend
Now I don't know at all

Imma go til I'm dead
Don't you walk on my set
I feel pain when its cold
Never tripping never all that
Was talking that was all cap
Bonnie clyde at the bleachers
If you ride imma see ya
Have her singing like she Sia
Imma go til I'm dead
Don't you walk on my set
I feel pain when its cold
Never tripping never all that
Was talking that was all cap
Bonnie clyde at the bleachers
If you ride imma see ya
Have her singing like she Sia

(Starfall)
Its my confession
Don't know without direction
We are losing our connection
I know you crave affection
Cause I know you
Better than anyone else
Yea I know you
Better than you know yourself

(Christian Blair)
Swear you in love
Watchu gon do
This time I aint worried bout you
This my life
I don't lose
Even if you wanna tell the truth
And i'm always there
You been tryna stop and stare
How many times will I not care
But you'll never know
I won't talk to you

(Kaido)
I won't talk to you
This feeling i'm stressed out
I feel like I'm older
It's cold in october
I love you it's over
But how could this happen to me
Too many drinks in hotels I'm ashamed
I'm feeling like Drake
I'm glad that you know them I wont say no names
You did me shady
I couldn't love you
I couldn't hold you
I don't even want you
And it was a mistake
I'm glad that you know them I wont say no names
I'm glad that you love everything that I make
I'm glad that you know that I know Im ashamed
I'm glad that you know that I know Im ashamed

Imma go til I'm dead
Don't you walk on my set
I feel pain when its cold
Never trippin never all that
Was talking that was all cap
Bonnie clyde at the bleachers
If you ride imma see ya
Have her singing like she Sia
Imma go til I'm dead
Don't you walk on my set
I feel pain when its cold
Never trippin never all that
Was talking that was all cap
Bonnie clyde at the bleachers
If you ride imma see ya
Have her singing like she Sia

Set w/ Starfall, Christian Blair & Kaido (Michael Warren)

w/ https://soundcloud.com/1kaido & https://soundcloud.com/ihatebixby Prod https://soundcloud.com/prodbyjoshwa & https://soundcloud.com/rosesleeves
Why do leaves fall
After I pick em up
After Hours with sunsets can't get enough
You pushed me off of the swings think I fell in love
But it only ever started cuz of alcohol
I think you never wanna see me again
Just sucks cuz I know we will never be friends
They´d always tell me i'm too deep in love 
Think I believe em cuz im missing sumn
December always got me thinking that I need you
I always swipe up on your story like I have to
I think im falling 
Do you think you could stop it 
Wow wow wow
It kinda sucks that I think we could never be
Cuz if not than you'd be to  perfect me
I can't imagine how you felt but i'm not sorry
I sorta feel the same but dont say that's beyond me
I can't talk
About you I won't bring that up
I feel like I can't love you
But it's sumn I want to

It’s like feeling i can’t get out
It’s like a feeling i can’t get out inside
You and i
i
You moved out of state
There’s no need to run away
I’m thinking it’s better on my own
I’m tryna find my way out of the darkness
Imma be an artist
Imma do it on my own
 
Tell me what's it's like
Does it feel right?
How to feel alive
in the daylight
I don't wanna try
It wasn't too late for us
In my head but it's too late
I see through your lies
Facing back i tried, I can't let go
How could I survive
Falling
I can't stop

I think you never wanna see me again
Just sucks cuz I know we will never be friends
They´d always tell me i'm too deep in love 
Think I believe em cuz im missing sumn
December always got me thinking that I need you
I always swipe up on your story like I have to
I think im falling 
Do you think you could stop it 
Wow wow wow
It kinda sucks that I think we could never be
Cuz if not than you'd be to  perfect me
I can't imagine how you felt but i'm not sorry
I sorta feel the same but dont say that's beyond me
I can't talk
About you I won't bring that up
I feels like I can't love you
But it's sumn I want to

Deep In Love w/ Kaido & Bixby (Joshwa &  Rosesleeves)

Prod @saiwai

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7IFMPvKFBnQ89JldrHzwqY?si=IeGMMi_HS5e7rSIPU35XYg

Lyrics:

Oh why do I feel this way 
Tell me everythings okay 
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that 0-0
I got so much to lose
And I don’t know what to do
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that

Never been like this 
Never been like that
Oh where are u at
I need u so bad
Cuz i keep on thinkin bout u
And my heart is beating for u
And all my feelings for u
Oh boy its nthn new

Cuz u got me like this ohhh
And u got me like that oohhh
Cuz u got me like this ohhh
And u got me like that oohhh

Cuz u got me just like this 
And u got me just like that
And i keep on coming back
Oh babe oh just like that

Oh why do I feel this way 
Tell me everythings okay 
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that 0-0
I got so much to lose
And I don’t know what to do
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that
why do i why do i
why do i feel this way
heart beating 
this feeling 
has me coming right back
oh just like that 
I got so much to lose
And I don’t know what to do
cause every word you say
Has me coming right back 
Oh just like that

just like that (sai)

dont wanna fight
can you give me a minute
i've been running in circles
and I’m trying not to give in
you can’t just hear me out no you never wanna listen
you paint me so bad I’ve been feeling like the villain

if i knew what i knew right now
would i lose it again somehow
guess it’s too late to stay
and i’m too late to change
and i knew you would say that i
fucked up and i know i’m not good enough
talk so much so from now on I’ll be shutting up
doing too much needa take it down a notch
I know you love to watch

I know you love to watch your plans unfold
thinkin that you got it all under control
you try to hide it like you think i don’t know
i just keep it quiet i don’t really want to show
bc i don’t wanna

villain (prod. maskedman)

w/ https://soundcloud.com/starfall prod https://soundcloud.com/prodbyjoshwa https://soundcloud.com/rosesleeves & https://soundcloud.com/buginfestedfloorboards
You hurt everytime you love
And I break every sense of trust
I wish I could love you
But i'm making it hard too
Same place that and we're at
Is how we started I hate that
You can't handle the truth
It's so easy being over you

Why do you stay 
Been needing you all day
It's so sad that
I hadda let you 
Go go go
I let you
Hope hope hope
I saved my own
Finding places
I wanna run to
You found your own peace
I found a new you
Even if we fall into pieces
I'll be here if you need it

Tell me if it's really you
i wanna show you all the things we'll do 
Maybe i'll tell you some exciting news
I think i'm startna really like u too 
I think you're great
Always late
Don't care what the world could say about you 
Hate all the way 
When somebody can't relate around you
Hey, may i say, that i really like being around you 
Changing your mind and shit
I'd rather have you lie than this 
Maybe it's time to quit 
But you are all i'm thinking about

Why do you stay 
Been needing you all day
It's so sad that
I hadda let you 
Go go go
I let you
Hope hope hope
I saved my own
Finding places
I wanna run to
You found your own peace
I found a new you
Even if we fall into pieces
I'll be here if you need it

Everytime You Love w/ Starfall (Joshwa, Soju & Rosesleeves)

@jayya1k

(killnord)
you look so bad i’m into you 
i wish you felt the same i do 
don’t need that much, i’ll wait for you
i can’t escape the way you move
it’s not about me, it’s all about you
can’t reach your heart, is it bullet proof?
i fucking hate you yes i do
i just can’t stand the way you 
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care

(jayya)
you know i hate when you lie to me
but i can’t overlook it girl you know that’s the pride in me
it’s been this way for weeks so it comes no surprise to me 
i shut myself off once again and deal with it privately 
i hate the way you always get what u want 
always put up a front 
i’m so tired of all the fighting can we just make up
i’m so tired of all the fighting i think we need to break up 
it’s been way too long

(killnord)
i swear you look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad you look so bad yuh
look so bad but you don’t even care

spotify

so bad feat. jayya (okayjml)

mixed @oroahh & me 
Written @oroahh & me
Produced @Jonah_bru
All Plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/maxrrss/pieces-feat-oroah

Lyrics:
(me)
I don't wanna talk to u, girl 
I need a moment
U dictate every way that I feel
Words are so potent
What I wanna say to you, girl
I could give you the world 
But you tore me to pieces 
For no decent reason

(me)
Oh my god
I don't wanna talk bout it 
Everything I did just by your side
I don't wanna think bout it
Everytime, i do feelings i die
Just too hard for you to really try
Give a lil bit of love
Give a lil bit of -ooh

(roah)
This feeling
It's leaving
I don't know how to stop
Can you feel it 
You do not need it
Baby, could you stop
We aint really have to hold it down
We just have to really focus now 
Speak up before goes, going south
oh don't shut your mouth
told you, and I told her
I got big chips on my shoulder
And they keep growing as im older
Keep showing as I hold you tight
I don't really wanna speak tonight
I just really want you out my sight
I don't think that we could do this right
I don't wanna talk girl just decide

pieces w/ roah (jonah.bru)

WUSWRONG* (w/ max ruben & riensu) [prod. masked man]

prod pieper beats

https://open.spotify.com/track/6o6YyUVlMWGBGMbsXINCwW?si=d355e9d4fcc744b8

@zephyrcove

@1toge

Swear I can't catch a break with you
This shit not safe for you
It be like 3 in the morning you calling up
Swear you got all these bad intentions
That's why I ain't trynna get closer
I swear if you get somebody else
They gon fall for your shit

Like I don't understand
How you get your tricks off
You're not high demand
Like I just put that shit away
Swear you're the same as yesterday

If I could take it all back I swear I would
All this talk about me is not doing you any good
Swear that shit was just a bad plan
Reaching out for me that's just so sad man
But I've been doing good I'm fucking wit these other hoes yea

@riensu

I know you look for me, everywhere you go, yeah
I know you're missing me but I don't really know ya
You never should've did me dirty in the first place
You never should've did me dirty in the first place

You did me so wrong
But I know I'm on your mind
Baby, there's no need to hide
Ima put you on the side now
I don't care if you cry now

@1toge

Yeah you ain't seen the best
I'm over that
Say it with your chest
What's up with that
It seems I finally got my mind right
It seems I'm finally counting commas on a new high

@riensu

You wasted all my time now
But we don't need a time out
I think this might be the end now
There's no need to pretend
Nothing left to amend

Now I got you pissed off
It's so sad
I see you trying every single way to get me mad
It's your fault
Yeah, you never shoulda gotten involved
With me

She said she wanna kick it
But this ain't no fifa
Saying that she miss it
Know I had to leave her
Her new man want a feature
He will never get it
Seeing that I'm up
I hope that it makes you livid

@1toge

I don't take this shit lightly
You just can't help but go and despite me
It seems I got on your nerves
Am I under your skin swear you love it
Swear you love it
I'm her on playlist
Favorite artist
Let me break it down for you baby now
You was fake and I don't want you around

Yeah you ain't seen the best
I'm over that
Say it with your chest
What's up with that
It seems I finally got my mind right
It seems I'm finally counting commas on a new high

@riensu

You wasted all my time now
But we don't need a time out
I think this might be the end now
There's no need to pretend
Nothing left to amend

over it w/ riensu

Rant: I made this song in 8 hours and uploaded it here bc I'm so fucking mad at myself that I'm nowhere near as good at music as I want to be no matter how much time I've put in. I understand that it's a never-ending path and that I lack experience, but when I listen to the music of the role models I admire or even any SC artist, I genuinely wonder what I'm doing. I keep thinking about how people in SC who have less equipment make such beautiful music, and I keep telling myself that I'm not cut out for making music because I feel like it might be true given that no matter how hard I seem to try, I just keep producing things that I'm not proud of.  I'm still fucking mad, but I won't stop trying.

Edit: Arhghghg you guys really liked this song and wanted it on spotify so I uploaded it there! Thank you so much for the messages and love. I don't know how to feel. So please feel free to listen on any platform you like ;w; ♥ (Though I mastered the spotify version a bit better heheh)

[Verse]:
Lately I've been taking so much shit from no one but myself
(You wanna break it off, break it off)
I cant get anything to work,
Is it just my lack of talent and reserve?
(Boy, youre just not enough, not enough)

But I wanna cross 
The boundaries that I never thought I'd touch
All the pain that I go through for things I love
And I wanna give it up, god I wanna stop

[Pre]:
God I cant,
Waste my life
All this time, 
Have I done any right?

Dont think I wanna do this anymore
It just makes me feel miserable
Dont even know what to do
Lately I've been feeling like a fraud
Now I put my heart in the ground

"You're not cut for this, stop it now"
Ha, yeah

[Chorus]:
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 

(God I cant)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Waste my life)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
(All this time)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Have I done any right?)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more

Frustrated

s/o to the most genuine ppl i've ever met through music @1kaido @yoshi

prod. dye

https://www.instagram.com/starfallxo/
https://www.instagram.com/whoiskaido/
https://www.instagram.com/christianblair/
https://www.instagram.com/1lildyee/

lyrics

[ star's verse ]

am i allowed to speak on the truth?
i think you'd understand my pain if i did what you did, to you
and it's hard, but i'm getting through.
i wish you knew what this shit do to me when you leave so soon.

why can't you stop and listen?
i tried my best but but i'm bout to give in,
i tried to leave but you're my addiction.

what is trust? no idea.
think i'm stupid? oo woa oo woa oo woa

it's just a feeling but i'm feeling intoxicated,
im trynna tell you sum but i just can't really explain it
i wish i had you by my side then i wouldn't have to be crying,
wanna say that i don't love you but then i would just be lying,
gotta let you go, you keep on playing with my heart

wait, where even is it?

you tore that shit apart,
think i'm stupid?
im not.
nah i ain't stupid, you're fucking round with me you're acting like im clueless.

[ @1kaido's verse ]

i had to run away from you
cause you weren’t happy at all
if i was
hiding the truth you couldn’t take it all
and your best friend
she wouldn’t hate me at all
if she knew what i would do
it’s just a feeling but i’m feeling intoxicated
would you feel better if i told you about when we dated
i love you
want you
baby i don’t need you at all
i’m overthinking it all
like just don’t do it all
and your blood is so pretty
you’re feeling my pity
and that’s okay

[ @yoshi's verse ]

tell me when you wake up
you’re so pretty in your makeup, girl
its no problem if you can’t be here
oo- ooooo - oooo

i know its been a while, but we’re falling apart
feels like you stabbed me in my heart
have you been telling me the truth?
well have you, don't lie

you said i was in love with you
you said i’m ready to die for two

ive been running away
yeah im scared of you i
can’t take anymore

the truth w/ kaido & christian blair

wouldn't you wanna learn how to stop?

Ruin You For Me (music video)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSN673-gMqY

Set w/ Starfall, Christian Blair & Kaido (Michael Warren)

Noahh