The Shadow of Lobhadh's Feral Ghost

Multi-Instrumentalist Solo Artist
Personal Photography and Digital Album Art
Music is better than the life experiences it describes
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“But I don’t want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness, I want sin.”

In a society that has abolished all adventure, the only adventure left is to abolish that society.
“It is in your power to withdraw yourself whenever you desire. Perfect tranquility within consists in the good ordering of the mind, the realm of your own.”

melancholy

Good morning. you've made it. The end. all of this, everything here building towards a single meaningless moment. The moment it is all stripped away and you live for this moment you temporary creature you..you're slipping into the unknown... because all you'll ever find in the end...its time to wake up.

The very meaninglessness of life forces a man to create his own meaning. Children begin life with an untarnished sense of wonder, a capacity to experience total joy at something as simple as the greenness of a leaf; but as they grow older, the awareness of death and decay begins to impinge on their consciousness and subtly erode their joie de vivre, their idealism - and their assumption of immortality.

As a child matures, he sees death and pain everywhere about him, and begins to lose faith in the ultimate goodness of man. But if he’s reasonably strong - and lucky - he can emerge from this twilight of the soul into a rebirth of life’s élan.

Both because of and in spite of his awareness of the meaninglessness of life, he can forge a fresh sense of purpose and affirmation. He may not recapture the same pure sense of wonder he was born with, but he can shape something far more enduring and sustaining.

The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent; but if we can come to terms with this indifference and accept the challenges of life within the boundaries of death - however mutable man may be able to make them - our existence as a species can have genuine meaning and fulfillment. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light. - 

"Some critics of the pessimist often think they have his back to the wall when they blithely jeer, “If that is how this fellow feels, he should either kill himself or be decried as a hypocrite.” That the pessimist should kill himself in order to live up to his ideas may be counterattacked as betraying such a crass intellect that it does not deserve a response. Yet it is not much of a chore to produce one. Simply because someone has reached the conclusion that the amount of suffering in this world is enough that anyone would be better off never having been born does not mean that by force of logic or sincerity he must kill himself. It only means he has concluded that the amount of suffering in this world is enough that anyone would be better off never having been born. Others may disagree on this point as it pleases them, but they must accept that if they believe themselves to have a stronger case than the pessimist, then they are mistaken."

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society. 

Really?
That makes you cringe?
The fact that we are systematically endorsing schizophrenia through our entertainment, empowering unnatural and unhealthy lifestyles and foods, smokes, drinks and drugs, or the fact that we all secretly hate each other to the point of bloodshed and war, or the fact that we cannot fucking unify behind one purpose such as leaving this planet to settle elsewhere, or the fact that we have more money passing celebrity hands than cancer victims, or the fact that we are nothing short of a fucking plague to the planet don't bother you?

“The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.”

"The physics which is going on at the very remote future is extraordinarily like the physics going on at the very beginning." ~ Sir Roger Penrose

"...the sea's only gifts are harsh blows and, occasionally, the chance to feel strong. Now, I don't know much about the sea, but I do know that that's the way it is here. And I also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong, to measure yourself at least once, to find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions, facing blind, deaf stone alone, with nothing to help you but your own hands and your own head..."

"Violence is not necessary to destroy a civilization. Each civilization dies from
indifference toward the unique values which created it."

'suffering is the sole origin of consciousness' -Fyodor Dostoyevsky

"the most basic, most rudimentary spiritual need of the Russian people is the need for suffering, ever-present and unquenchable, everywhere and in everything."

👻 Conjure

The solo project of Nate WhyNot, Conjure dives deep into the surreal and introspective—crafting haunting melodies, textured atmospheres, and emotionally raw compositions. It’s music that lingers like a ghost in your chest.

🔮 Conjure Beats 

A channel for visual experiments, mixtapes, and genre-defiant collaboration. Think of it as a shadow collective: a space where artists gather, sounds cross boundaries, and music is summoned, not streamed.
https://www.youtube.com/@conjure23287

👾 WhyNo†!?

A genre-defying collaboration between Suture and Nate WhyNot, WhyNo†!? is where sonic boundaries dissolve and echoes from the void take shape. It’s also Nate’s playground for refining his DJ craft and weaving together chaotic energy with curated chaos.
https://soundcloud.com/daniel-andrew-lovejoy

🧬 D.N.A.

A side project fueled by spontaneous creation, D.N.A. is where Nate experiments with intricate beats, glitchy layers, and lyrical play—always unpredictable, always evolving.
🔗 soundcloud.com/dna_123music


- Conjure & WhyNo†!?

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The Shadow of Lobhadh's Feral Ghost

12th Calamity