sometimes its hard to move on
but i still do it
mama said stay strong
so ima do it
i got friends to lean on
so ima do it
ima show them all
yea ima do it
i feel like the best
but sometimes feel weak
its hard to get dressed
i just wanna sleep
u wouldnt understand it unless u were me
but give me bout a week and i'll be on my feet

ima stand tall 
ima keep my word
and im sorry to my friends when i dont reply
i know you feel unheard
but i listen
i read every message
i just dont know how to talk sometimes
i hope you get it
regretting
every single time i left ur message
i wish i could change it but its too late now
its in the past 
and there's no way i can turn back time
i just gotta move on but its hard

stay strong (mental yugen)

with @counterxo prod @makemeapromise + @neohnq
TYSM FOR LISTENING
//
lyrics:

(me)
i dont want to talk to you
you threw me to the side
no matter what i did it was no use
now im breaking down because of all the abuse
im just glad that you're not around

i know you don't see it the same way
after all the trust was broken
"please dont leave" please dont repeat in my head
"let me be what you need" is all that i said
i wont make the same mistake again
and i wont let you know where ive been
i wont let you talk to me not like back then
what we used to be i cant comprehend

i dont want to think anymore
what i used to see in my head no end
now my body's laying on the floor
what we used to be i cant comprehend

(counter)
I made mistakes 
I know time heals but it’s too late
I did everything to make you stay
But you did everything to hurt my case 
Why can’t you say it to my face?
I don’t think my head’s in the right place
One step at a time with a slow pace
I can’t fall off the edge with your embrace
Awake all night can’t get no rest
It’s not enough when i try my best
I tried to be everything I’m a mess
I realized that right before you left
We could’ve been so much more I know 
We aren’t where we should be so let’s go
You let the pedals decay on the rose
Too overwhelmed so I just froze

(me)
i know you don't see it the same way
after all the trust was broken
"please dont leave" please dont repeat in my head
"let me be what you need" is all that i said
i wont make the same mistake again
and i wont let you know where ive been
i wont let you talk to me not like back then
what we used to be i cant comprehend

past mistakes

past mistakes w/ counter (surgeon + neohn)

prod: me
ft: @atractixn

**lyrics**

@1blckhrt
i cant keep doing this
all these bitches hitting my phone, bitch i aint fit
fit for the numbers or the drugs i dont know shit
talkin on r3 you gon meet my damn blick kid

all these pussies wanna talk they aint see my problems
semiautomatic on my hip yea i caught em
sprayed him down empty mag and clip yea i shot him
these pussies always scared yea i taught em

cant get out of bed yet im still making dollars
put him to rest, lay him down if he holler
bitch im up, yea my stats getting hotter
pull up with a stick like im harry potter

@atractixn
i cant do this
i said im useless
but im w r3 n we makin music
ive lost my conscious im still searchin
i got no options is it even worth it

i got problems, im usin magic jus to solve it
ik ur broke but its funny cuz im ballin
get a job n go to college, thas my only option
now i keep a stick on my side, get to moppin

can't keep doing this w/ raynen

@counterxo
@angelino1k
————
I was right there when you needed me
Got a big heart and some pockets, do this easily 
I took your advice when you said I shouldn’t give my heart for free
Now I can’t breathe cause you’re not here, no you’re not in reach

I crawled out the dark
I still don’t know where you are
Seen your ghost in my room, so I know your presence ain’t far
Girl you left me so scarred 
Now Im breaking apart
Tried to heal these wounds but I don’t know to start

You can say what you want, but you really can’t fuck with me in my zone 
I’m counting the racks up, enjoying my peace so just leave me alone
I don’t wanna talk at all, please leave a message right after the tone
She has the key to my heart, she took it and ran should’ve known 

But in the back of my mind 
I know that I’m still empty
I’m still empty
The cuts run deep

Haven’t figured out what it takes
To find everything that I brushed aside, everything that I erased
I just want it back, girl I cannot lie, see the difference that you’ve made
I don’t wanna everything inside anymore, I might break cause

out of reach

counter - out of reach (lino x audii)

yes i did all 4 verses by myself
not my song lol
og: https://soundcloud.com/cruseyyyy/ur-mad

crusey - ur mad +trustt +prkr blu +1crusafix [COVER]

call

1k p. hiroya

leafo - i dont know u anymore like i used to (prod. SHADE08)

lyric video / visualizer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKCvwEJJuJg

lyrics:

intro:
hallucinations of you in my room
and im eating all the things that arent allowed to consume

verse 1:
blood on my white tee
from the words you've said to me
hate what i have
so i bathe in blood, it stained my teeth
i just wanna dance in my room
and i'll eat my eyes in the afternoon
missing you bad now i smell your perfume

chorus:
ive been up and i saw the sun rise
and i know its my fault and i know i lied
but i hate your friends, i apologize
but i dont wanna waste my time on crying
so i changed your contact, i changed my phone
you live nearby so i moved from home
but the lights are on, you can knock on the door
but this time i dont know you anymore

post chorus:
i dont know you anymore
i dont know you anymore
i dont know you anymore
i dont know you anymore
cuz i dont know you anymore
i dont know you anymore
i dont know you anymore
lights are open, you can knock on the door

verse 2:
reading all the letters that you wrote me and i cried
then i somehow ended js up on the floor, slept on my side
missing when you talk to me, can we please meet tonight?
and im losing all my grip, i lost my mind, i cant decide
all of it was from my heart, what i gave you
i fucked up and i know my mistakes too
honestly i dont really blame you
but its hard to move on when i dont hate you

outro:
i dont know you
i dont know you
i dont know you
i dont know you

i dont know u anymore like i used to (SHADE08)

cover art created by alton (twitter.com/euclicide)


@1gr4eme @xvvr @hypnotherapy444