@zephyrcove
@ripwarheart
@1kise
cover: www.instagram.com/ollofm3/

If you want my heart, then you’re gonna have to take it
I stole your trust from the start, hope you don’t mind if I break it 
I’ve been feelin so dull, who brought all the shade in?
So much shit to own up to I think I’m just gonna say it
I’ll try, I’ll try again
I’ll try, I’ll try again
I don’t mean to hurt you again
I swear I’ll try to make amends

I don’t wanna talk about it, I’m not ready to fall
Take a look into my eyes, and watch the memories dissolve 
I didn’t know that love was like this, and I regretted the fall
I don’t wanna hear your voice, don’t wanna see you at all

You know I like to talk, but you enjoyed to listen
I think that we should stop, this ain’t what I envisioned 
I can’t tell if I love you
I don’t know why I say that
I think I might’ve lost myself
I’m tryna find a way back

If you want my heart, then you’re gonna have to take it
I stole your trust from the start, hope you don’t mind if I break it 
I’ve been feelin so dull, who brought all the shade in?
So much shit to own up to I think I’m just gonna say it
I’ll try, I’ll try again
I’ll try, I’ll try again
I don’t mean to hurt you again
I swear I’ll try to make amends

Recorded 12/1/22

All Plats

try again (prod me & warheart)

Produced by mndls 
Mixed & Mastered by me + @gloomed
Lyrics by me & gloom

[gloomed]
Uh, what is just wrong with you baby?
Feels like I’ve been losing myself in this hades
Stop lying, fucking try it
I got one thing to tell you before I start dying

You meant nothing else, all them heartbreaks and panics were hell
I’m tired of living like there is nobody who could give help
I’m a psychopathic killer, baby, the way I fucking kill myself
Theres string on my heart, and you know how to play that shit so damn well
Uh, pass it all the way

[union*]
And he gon' pass the mic like he passin' me a drank
I was out all night, I was fucking up my name
She said she “Obsessed” with me, she only want the fame
I’ve been

[gloomed]
Losing myself 'cause I cant restrain
The hive mind killing and they fucked up my brain
I’ve been illin' so how could I lose my brain?
Baby been talking but she don’t understand this hate

[union*]
And she don’t understand what I’ve been through 
Hell and back because of you
And I don’t feel like you get me
And all around, I think you wanna forget

Depressions high with a fear of being alone
Fight all night for a scent of a serotone
I was tryna forget you
Nah fuck that, I was tryna reset
'Cause you’ve been acting different lately 
The bars set high and your tryna degrade me
My throne sits higher than you, ain’t that a fuckin' day dream
I know you fucking hate me 

[gloomed]
Losing myself 'cause I cant restrain
The hive mind killing and they fucked up my brain
I’ve been illin' so how could I lose my brain?
Baby been talking but she don’t-

(Mockingbird)

mockingbird

mockingbird (w/ gloomed) [p. mndls]

always in the background w/ thrml

Mastered by @noraevelyne
lyrics
can u look at me the way i look at you
i know it looks bad but i wanna change for you
(oh) nothing i wouldnt do
just to be up next to you
(oh) i wanna be up next to u

But i cant
and it just hurts
cant say anything to make me give a fuck
you never really cared to think of what i want
im stuck in this place yeah it really, really sucks x2

why cant you talk to me the way i want you to
and you made me a promise but you broke that too
you said it was fake, and it broke into 2
i dont really know what to do

dont dont break all your promises
no i dont care what no one says
(dont go and break your promises, just because of what your friend said)
(it dont make no sense, can you get that through your head)

Nora
vibrant eyes
a promsie with no lies
soft skin and eyes
im horrible but i seem nice

where did i get 
wubdaishdiusha
and i look in her eyes
im getting to look how
how my consoiuness
so dont leave, just put a leave in this

so dont leave before
i pick up my feet from the floor
i wanna see you smile
to make that happen ill go any mile

promises + nora evelyne  (xnull + yametsu)

realise that the blocks don't stop
want u to keep jumping and thinking
at this very moment i push it all away
need things to go in my head
these hills are silent
it's so easy to stay inside
like the few square feet around me
are the essence of this life of mine

why even talk about happy things
when it always just loops back to black
why bother with friendships
when it all just ends and we're all gonna go mad
of loneliness
i see all around me noones without it
these screens do help
dive in and now we're knowing and righteous

but i know this is all just me
im awful
i wish upon others what i have
misfortune

u keep saying its not my fault but ik ive done something im sorry its happened like this

sing this once and never again

with some new friends thank you @riensu @1toge
follow them:
www.instagram.com/ri3nsu/
www.instagram.com/notmanni/
all plats march 31st: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/andrelv/want-your-attention-feat-manni---riensu

prod me once again

lyrics:
always feeling nervous yeah i never can relax
you know there's always trepidation just a feeling in my chest
and im running from my problems cos i never know whats next
really hope its not too late
i need a second to react

chorus:
i dont have any more reasons just to see you around
i just wanna hear the words that you wanna tell me
i lost my mind but u found it
why am i always so selfish
i dont need your attention
but i want it
every thought that i have always circles back to you
im so scared of you so i can never tell the truth
my heart is beating so fast i don't know what to do
im falling again and its so hard to find you

manni ✰ @1toge:
its so hard to let go
when i really wanted more now
but you wanna slow down
is this all a game to you
cause i dont really have a clue
fuck do you want me to do
did you want me to relapse
i just want my keys back
did you really mean that
theres no point if you dont feel love
so i wonder if i cross your mind
cause i dont really want to be left behind

riensu @riensu:
i've been waiting for you to come save me
cause after all we've been through you're still my safety
would you catch me again and again
dont want to pretend
but i'll be fine without you

r: she got me running back
m: she got me wanting more
r: tell me what its all for
m: tell me and ill love you more
r: lets get right to the chase
m: run around my mind like a maze
r: no text back like im not phased, at all

(chorus again)

my verse:
im way too tired to converse
guess i'll see you again
i try my best but it never works
cos you fuck up my plans
i swear im stuck in a curse
i'll never understand
im falling again
and its so hard to find you
if i had another chance i swear i'll never lose
you grazed right pass me
didnt even know its you
they told me everything is fine i really hope its true
you know its never easy but im weathering with you

want your attention w/ manni ✰ & riensu

enjoy.

i think they hate me 
that's what i get for being myself :(
she hates the doubt i have
i love destroying myself :D

i know what it's like when love turns to hate
i need a fren outside of this game
it all ends the same, it all ends the same
so trust me when i say
let it die
fuck it. let it die
so fuck it let it die
fuck it. let it die

there's too many bones that i could break
i swallowed a falling star that was fake

o o oo o o o o o o o o o o o oo o o oo o o 

i mean, look at how you get everything you ever wanted

apparently i'm inferior because i can't do the same

and if my scars ever reopen
you just tell me to close them
open diary i know the truth always

i got like
three thousand thoughts a minute
leave these bitches all on read
i hate talking i admit it
think i'll dye my hair so i feel different
make a scene so i can fit in
but she knows that's not who you are 

and your only two hours away
don't worry baby it's not a problem
i ain't worried about being popular
i don't care if they even know my name
cause

there's too many bones that i could break
i swallowed a falling star that was fake

fake
a falling star that's fake

i swallowed a falling star

enjoy or dont enjoy
its ok 
new drop next week too or the week after? idk 
happy may 

don't give me everything that i could ever want
cuz someones out there starving it'll never be enough
i'd rather waste all my school grants on drugs
spendin all my money on some internet love 

stay with me
in love with me
love with me love with me love with me
she's in love with my nails painted
and she loves when my hairs braided
and she loves that i'm underrated
stay with me
in love with me

brb im waiting
that's my favorite song

i hate waiting for love
wtf took yall so long

we’re stuck in the Westin 
i'm not that interesting
id say i love u to ur face in like three languages
we got nothing to do
your flight leaves up at noon
shawty watchu trynna do
i think im in love with u
lol this rhyme scheme 

she wants something more than a best friend
good thing im her best friend
and im her favorite yup

i've got all her favorite songs
i like to do what i want
i've got a tab on my tongue
these dudes don't impress me

don't give me everything that i could want cuz
im being honest
ill fuck it up

and again and again and again and again
it was genuine art that i chose to defend
so if i switch up on friends that i swore to protect
its because this internet love meant more to them in the end

u ever wonder how it's actually kinda impressive how uve come so far without having a mental breakdown like how tf did u hold everything in for so long? thats pretty fucking metal bro

fuck the second chorus imma end it with a mental breakdown
ten toes turned to nubs
i can't bare to stand now

im tired of these fuckers trynna make me
if im a disappointment that's who imma be

i'm desperate
apathetic i lost all my motivation
who i love and care about 
turned to complete strangers

can i give it all up?
fuck it all up
shatter glass until my teeth turn into a bloody color

and go ahead
dont even bother to text me back
only person i trust
fell asleep inside their bed
before i could approach them
so who the fucks gonna care if i 
slash my arms and throat then
and when i crash and burn you could say that i can't control it
no i won't be right back 
scared of fake love 
and losin my will fight to back
my persona imploded	
to a thousands pieces 
would u like that?

now i'm wondering how	

my best friends the person in my head
who wants me dead

internet love

@55depths
@knights-ofren
guess nothing stays the same...

produced by ren <3

lyrics:
so let me in or drown me out
(let me in, let me in)
i watched this sun set from the south
(i watched it fall)
three fucking words to leave you lips
(can you say it once or twice?)
*i love you*
but never mine, only for him
(it's all i ever wanted)

and i can feel you let go
and i can feel the pain in your eyes
with nothing to say
the thought of your face
guess nothing stays the same

so what do you wanna do about this?
there's nothing really new about it
i'm bleeding slowly on the bedroom floor
(on the floor)
and tell me what you think about it
there's something you should know about him
(it's all i ever wanted, it's all i ever wanted)
i'm bleeding softly on the bedroom floor

spotify

all i ever wanted (knightsofren)

guitar by MelonMusik
https://www.instagram.com/melonmusik 
prod me =/
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lyrics:
swear that i got it all figured out
needed a sec to catch my breath
had my back, where are you now?
i'm getting close to giving out

my head is getting light
and my eyes are blacking out
every word you speak
just keeps on filling me w/ doubt
i dont wanna talk
cuz everytime i do we fight
i personally feel that it is
just a waste of time

IM LOST
MISPLACED MY HEART
NOW I'LL WAIT, DECAY
NOW WE'RE BOTH SHARING OUR DNA 
going back n forth, its just not okay
another day
 
i try to reach out to you
yet you pretend im not there
and in the end i think to myself
does anyone even care
why do good things always end
right as i lift my hair
i feel as if its just a trick
to make me sit and stare

a better me better evolve
im losing more friends 
and now i'm losing myself
im waiting for a new me to grow
i needa improve, isolate & learn

swear that i got it all figured out
needed a sec to catch my breath
had my back, where are you now?
i'm this close to giving out
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inspo : https://soundcloud.com/heylog/thanks

decay

Recorded 1/15/23, 6:09pm Somewhere in Indiana. #LLD #LLBR