realise that the blocks don't stop
want u to keep jumping and thinking
at this very moment i push it all away
need things to go in my head
these hills are silent
it's so easy to stay inside
like the few square feet around me
are the essence of this life of mine

why even talk about happy things
when it always just loops back to black
why bother with friendships
when it all just ends and we're all gonna go mad
of loneliness
i see all around me noones without it
these screens do help
dive in and now we're knowing and righteous

but i know this is all just me
im awful
i wish upon others what i have
misfortune

u keep saying its not my fault but ik ive done something im sorry its happened like this

sing this once and never again

diary