detest me

happy ever after

im going up. no1 is gonna stop me now.

verse 1:
play this game way too much
trade some lies from our tongues
shoot my heart with your gun
put your lips on my blunt 
your mama say you selfish 'cause you get what you want
like "baby, how you bring home birkin? you not making enough"
you don't like your life, you're taking ketamine just for fun
that's cool, but girl, don't talk to me if i'm not the one
a fool i was to think that you'd want me off them drugs
that's cool, but i don't want you 'round my crew just because

hook:
i'm zenned out, i'm feeling so hazy 
i don't give a fuck about my friends cause they can't save me
i don't need no shawties, i don't need no babies
i know that i'm popular with all the fucking ladies
don't be mad that your favorite label wants me
i just know that i should put on for my city
i just know whatever happens, imma get green
i just know that you better fucking come clean

verse 2: 
sticks and stones used to break
you say you go to clubs like every weekend just to shake
i don't know your mama but i bet that she's ashamed
i don't think that molly's doing good things to your brain
i don't think that i'm the one for you
i don't really wanna see this through
i've been wasting all my time on you
i'm really just another drug you use

hook x2

Zen (ria)

poison

i need some water, my throat is getting dry again
hard to keep my attention when i'm off of a xan
bad bitch shit, bet you're new to it
i told you not to talk to me don't wanna hear that stupid shit you gotta say
digging up a shallow grave 
(honestly!)

LAX to NYC
All designer brands on me
Fuck that! (ohhh)
I'm just tryna get a big bag!
They keep asking if I'm (upppppppp)
Bitch I been that

I think I'm becoming selfish
And I don't think I wanna change regardless
of what I've been on
moving in silence i'm moving alone
labels keep texting me shit that i don't understand but i'm getting my check and I'm gone
bringing him into my whip i'mma hit it and dip i could never show him some respect
i done lost so many friends, but they all crawling back now they know that I'm next up

and I'm stressed and they want my life and I don't know why

Yeah my life is filled with 
dog tags
prada bags
fake bitches
jetlag

rolling up
counting up
popping beans and getting st- stuck

cherry fanta
pop a bus
redbull
(throw it up)

face down
asphalt
Don't know when I've had enough

bad bitch shit p. billsburyjoeboi x ria

pretending

mental anguish

prod
@1hallow
@suyuki
mixed by @janeremover
[lyrics]
im starting realize that its my fault
cause i dont know where i woke up 
or what we did last night
she tell her mama that im awful
heard he was talking, left his body
where it wont see the light
its 2am, i feel my nose sting 
fuck, i heard my phone ring
i promise ima call you back
too intoxicated, keep it lowkey
please dont say you know me
cause no one ever had my back

all to say, where i've been,
is a mouthful
i cant blame, what you said,
cause im awful
we're on and off like every second
say "i love you" and regret it
cant stay off the pharmaceutics 
all the shit, that you said, 
is a mouthful
say im dumb and misled
guess im awful
you tried your hardest to forget it 
you still call me when your stressing
blame it on the pharmaceutics

i know
that even when you're with him 
you feel alone
and i wish i could help you, but it's
too late now, the sun's gone down
and its cold, its so cold
and when the withdrawls kick, and you feel so sick
well just know
you're still home

all to say, where i've been,
is a mouthful
i cant blame, what you said,
cause im awful
we're on and off like every second
say "i love you" and regret it
cant stay off the pharmaceutics 
all the shit, that you said, 
is a mouthful
say im dumb and misled
guess im awful
you tried your hardest to forget it 
you still call me when your stressing
blame it on the pharmaceutics

awful (hallow + suyuki)

THANK U FOR 100K ON PLAY PRETEND I LOV EU ALL. 

produced by 31sentinel + simon m 

AWOWAOEIAIEA AWOOOGA AWOOGA WOEOAIE cybertraash

SOS w/ reef (31sentinel + simon m)

Get back 
I don’t want nobody who could make me feel like that 
“Don’t Call”
In your contacts 
You left your prescriptions 
Now you’re coming over, a contradiction 
But really we not new to it 

Last time you was telling me I talk to much about it 
Now you’re telling me to say sum’n?
If it’s not a problem 
You gon make one 
Tryna start it over
Selling page one 

Not coming back
Funny as hell
Hoping you enjoy yourself 
Now you outside screaming 
I don’t need your help
Now you outside 
Hoping you not lost without it 

Baby I don’t wanna be your lover
You don’t really want no love 
Tryna work it out I doubt it 
You not showing out enough 
All we do is, screaming, shouting 
Baby have we danced enough?
You can see it all surrounding 
I just had to beat your punch 

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

and I could sit around 
But I’m better than you told me
It ain’t a problem being lonely 
I tow the line with myself 
And cut the ties with you 
I ain’t walking back to this hell 

I was lying whichu 
Told me I’m a bastard
That’s how you felt 
You say you hate getting mad and baby
We couldn’t tell 
You telling me I’m the problem really
You shouldn’t yell
Preeing ya hands at the table baby
That’s show and tell

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

pretending

glaive