i feel so upset

black ops

handguns are beautiful

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I can see you got a lot on your mind
But you're still in my brain
18 years was long enough
To be going on this way
When I taped my windows shut
I knew I'd gone insane
But I let things get so bad
It all made so much sense to me
You made things so bad too
Should I express it all for you?


19 years passed by quick
There's alot inside my brain
This might've been long enough
It hurts to go on this way
When I taped my windows shut
could you tell I was insane?
You let things get so bad
That makes so much sense to me
Cuz you made it so easy to
Express it all for you


20 years have passed in a flash
Do you even remember?
The little boy I used to be
Mom do you remember me?
When I taped my windows shut
It wasn't much to me
Things hurt so bad all the time
And that makes so much sense to me
It's gonna be so easy to
Express it all for you

express it all for you - acoustic version

#techclub
lyrics:

suicide, i'll find my way
i'm just praying for no more days
leave me here
and maybe leave me to waste
you could leave me rotting in my dying days
leave me rotting, starving in my room
no one could be here, i fear i'm doomed
my feelings are strong
my feelings of apathy are great
it feels so visceral
think ima need to share the pain

oooo
oooo

murdermind, i'm filled with pain
i'm just kneeling there pistol to my brain
leave me there
please leave me to waste
leave me rotting in my dying days
leave me rotting, starving in my room
no one could save me, i fear i'm doomed
i fear i'm dooooomed

rotting (starving in my room)

ive waken up 
i feel so alone
im not thinking much
ive been giving up
oh no
got nowhere to go
even in my home 
i shouldnt be alone
in my head im not
in my bed im always stuck
so stuck
such a lazy fuck
ive been giving up
oh no
you cant even tell
im so overwhelmed
oh im out my mind
im waking up
im feeling so alone
im not thinking much
ive been giving up
oh no
i feel super stuck
ive got no luck no hope

june 1st 9:30 PM

Lately

Pleasure in the flesh
It is all that's left
Loading up my guns
And killing just for fun
Nothing here is real
Nowhere to appeal
Actions have no weight 
I'm in outerspace
It is so surreal
Each bullet carries so much sorrow
Can't hear em yeah your cries ring hollow
Like dogs begging for their dinner
My bushmaster makes your bones splinter
In bullet time I can see slowmo
Skull splitter coming for your head yo
You'll die and it won't matter
Turn the gun on myself go splatter
Surreal

express it all for you - acoustic version

︎heelflip