self sabotage ★

🔥🔥🔥

produced by heylog

lyrics:
am i alive? guess we'll know if i breathe
i killed them all i can live in peace
i lost a lot, praying for enemies
avoiding evil that i might bring
i'll fight till death if it keeps u safe
i'll kill them all just to make sure ur okay
they charge at me, hold my ground, be brave
i lost my mind and there's nothing that remains

(one, two, three, go)

i just wrote you a letter
i wish u the best
yea i been doin better
and that's a big step
u got what u asked for
a life with no us
but u come back for more
and it's never enough
i just sent a letter
all the way from home
i'll miss u forever
why'd u have to go
i'm caught up in the center
baby i could die
it has been a pleasure
i'll meet u in the sky
this is it yea can't let down my guard
i never talk man, don't put me in charge
i cut her off should've done that from the start
leaving marks
i don't love me
why do i continue? swim in agony
we were so close until u stabbed me
i cut u off too cause u were bad for me
don't come back to me no

i'm so nervous right now i'm tweaking, why can i not speak
i fidget, it's so obvious i have anxiety
u sat there and did nothing while u saw me slowly bleed
i wiped it from my skin now there's scars for eternity
am i okay? guess we'll know if i breathe
check for my pulse to make sure it beats
i lost a lot, it's too much for me to see
i talk to god, praying for my enemies

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the war II

Produced by: grasior

lyrics:
how could you know what would go wrong
end of your days didn't last long
break him to pieces and hold his bones
find a solution that brings the unknown

but in the darkness that we know lies the lost
follow you back with your dreams to haunt
losing your sight, who are you
wont let it breath but its new
the hatred inside will swallow you whole         
try to hold on but you lose control
emotions n tension is building up
its too much to bear so you let him go

yet the chains consumed
who you really are
but the past is dark
for the ones who never bloomed

so can the world hold you still
for your blessing too fulfill

what is the burden that you hold
oh what's the burden that you hold

but pain can go cold
and dark slowly mold
never let I go
you might feel it hold
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flower petals ✾

chains

produced by xona

@heylog

-lyrics-
deep within my own skin
i stay low until my breath
runs out and i hold my neck
cause deep down i need to rest
the only thing i need is you
a little late, i ain’t got to lose
anything to get us through
but I’ll stay like back then too

well, it’s awful to think
you’re on my mind and can’t let it deplete
sit in my room then write the lyrics to sing
but I’m discarding this energy to bring back the old me
its a tragic that i let it go
i couldn’t tell if you need me close 
well it’s too late for that now
so i can’t keep you around 
don’t need to make another sound

baby i know you love it when you see me overthink
got me pushing buttons tryna get this thing to play
never thought a girl would challenge me to use my brain
think outside the box using my logic against her game

i know you love it when you see me overthink
baby please
tell me what it means
these other guys try to steal you from me
they're enemies
break em to their knees
cut the rope
let the river flow
one at a time
kill em, let em know
baby go
get inside the boat
it's business for me to kill all them very slow

hazel

hazel w/ heylog

produced by heylog

lyrics:
we went through a lot of ups and downs
yet you still stayed close to my side
we often dug straight to the ground
you don't know what i look like now
just a number in my phone
i'll love you the most
march is a horrible month
why's it always cold
spent the end to cry
i miss you every night
don't call me when you see this
i'll hit decline
i don't look the same
as i used to
is this a bad thing
log, i don't know you
i don't look the same
like before
and i don't recognize myself
anymore

2 weeks 'till i go home
can't wait to see you, oh
october is when you go
now things are coming to
an end

she'll only love me if i just love myself
but baby with you i felt things i don't feel
i couldn't imagine to feel someone else
the thought of it always gets me overwhelmed
i hate separating from people i love
but i go forever without anyone
i will go for days and not say any words
you won't hear from me cause i sit back and lurk
closing the drapes to block out any light
the things that i do i would never advise
it's so bad for me and hm, i wonder why
growing more acne and i'm not surprised
don't look at me, please don't look at my face
the way that you stare makes me humiliate
i swear i get uglier
i don't look the same
you won't recognize me by how much i've changed
changed

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produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

weak w/ heylog [oc]

alyona x @grasior prod @xona

"alyona"
spiral through
past the bend
cant see anything with the glare in my lens
to foreclose
ill make amends
so ill set you aside and take my chance to ascend

step onto the field
WATCH THE GROUND SPLIT IN HALF
twitching in my eye,
HAVENT SLEPT IN DAYS MAN
force myself out of bed,
EVEN WHEN I CANT
muster up the courage,
GHAUL OR STRENGTH

"grasior"
i would lie to cross away with you
how many losses for a blood moon
weeks spent in a lonely hue
wake up i hear your fate is soon

heard you whispers now i cant let go
keep on climbing oh your a coward no?
fall apart the only thing is hope
you keep on talking with nobody home

who do you think you are
talk behind their back like they never go far
seasons change in your head
when you keep talking about
how cold the air is how cold the air is

keep on talking hard like you'd never go far
i've been wondering if you know who you are
you keep on living life in your fantasy world
how true (x2)

ice breaker w/ grasior

kiryano & mental - focus (taylor morgan)

produced by mix :<
https://open.spotify.com/track/3vsUEARbBYl2sVUUxj8BzJ?si=a8223fb7c4324dd3

enjoy <3

lyrics:

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

oh it's over, not the slightest
chance, not a four-leaf clover
but you keep going getting on closer
oh closer no, no closer

you know where im at
if you ever wanna

𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

ill turn him to dust
so dont make me say it

𝚝𝚠𝚒𝚌𝚎

we're going blow for blow
finna make him see

𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎

now he's bleeding from
the neck down, lost his

𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

(@dawsin)

i dont give a fuck, so go fuck on ur man,
i saw him outside the outskirts of japan,
remember the past when i passed you with a sigh,
now i cut the head of the snake with a scythe

your a cheating bitch that's someone i cant stand,
your acting more like a whore im not a fan.
PUT A CROSS ON MY HEART AND HOPE HE DIES
NOW SHES PESTERING ME, ANNOYING LIKE A FLY

𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚕𝚢-

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑

𝗌𝗁𝖾𝗌 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝖻𝗂𝗍𝖼𝗁 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾
𝖿𝗈𝗅𝗅𝗈𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍
𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗅𝗈𝗈𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝖺𝗉𝗌
𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗋𝖺𝗌𝗁, 𝗒𝗈𝗎
𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖺 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗍-

𝚜𝚑𝚑, 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢, 𝚜𝚑𝚑 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢

gnat

prod by me

- lyrics -
temptations kicking in lip the cigarette of sin
see the body count stacking up i know ill never be enough
what's the point of this lately falling in
i know ill never see the daylight i want to take you back
but i know its out i should see this out
 
come too see it are you ok
pop another pill is this escape
i know you feel alone yeah
castle built for him yeah
ill just move along yeah
ill just move it ill just move it ill just
sip the bottle till i cant see you
image flattened in my head 
do you even want to picture him
in all the places that we've been yeah

keeping apart my heart keeping a part of my faults
dealing with stress on the low thoughts goin on all my own
told me "u hate me" baby I never had hound
told me you "can't stand" when I was standing alone 

you'll never do the same
I'll never be the same
I'll never take away
from you

come too see it are you ok
pop another pill is this escape
i know you feel alone yeah
castle built for him yeah
ill just move along yeah
ill just move it ill just move it ill just
sip the bottle till i cant see you
image flattened in my head 
do you even want to picture him
in all the places that we've been yeah
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flower petals ✾

gnat

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