performed & written by me @mental
produced by @lilac @winter

lyrics:

i keep on thinking im better off dead
wake up to sleep hanging on by a thread
i cant exist without you in my bed
said every word that i shouldnt have said
heartbreak and anger my only two friends
if i died, what would you do then?
i don't know how long i can pretend
it's not enough just to feel this regret

can't trust cause they lie every single time
fake love feels so cold like the wintertime
and i tried, it don't matter i can't get it right
heart in my hands offered to the sky

never been the best at letting go
tell me things i don't wanna know
take my heart made my heart froze
that's the way that my heart goes
you're the place that my heart needs
i'm just tryna say sorry
i'm just tryna say i want it
if you love me i got it

yeah i got it
hate myself being honest
if you love me then stop it
stop it
if you love me i'll make it right
i don't really wanna say goodbye
take my heart then i'll take my life
take my heart then i'll take my life

#Nightcore

Spotify

cant trust :( prod lilac & winter

i cant believe u wanna end this 
i'm feeling down i wanna end this 
i cant go on i gotta end this 
i just feel pain i wanna end this 

lately i've been feeling so alone 
i cant get up no i cant leave my room 
i wish u cared, but u dont 
yeah lately i've been so alone 

no more i cant take no more 
on the floor, i cant get up from the floor
no more i cant take no more 
on the floor, i cant get up from the floor

i cant take it no more 
i cant take it no more

end this [prod. kojo & 7ripp0]

The Reason Why

love letter ft. whyhaze (yandere, violet)

ive tasted a lot of broken people
i guess u just see me as your equal
and your so fine, the way you capture the moonlight
i moved like a predator with no whim
i though i could buy you my leopard skin
but you want mine, its all the same to tonight

flying down a highway road
shawty still haunt me when im tryna go home
and then i would kiss you and it still feel like the first time
even when im tortured shawty never leave my mind
even when my eyes are sharp n my shoulder cold
baby got golden teeth smile in my clothes
and then i would hold you like it was gon be the last time
can you save me, make me, love me, keep me by your bedside
can i kiss you goodnight

it would take a lot to make me blue
i started dancing on my own and it felt like a bullet wound
i think im right, for now
im only flexing what i earned
i take my drugs with her
and i dont need anything else
you could turn a pirouette for me
and make those spirals in your eyes hypnotize me so perfectly
i think im right, for now
im only flexing what i earned
i take my drugs with her
and i dont need anything else  

ensure that i
can take my time
and we'll get it right
one of these days baby i

dancing on my own (valentinesday)

with jichu, akura, yuzue, arisu, yashio, kyoa, sumtherr and zixx 

ty to my goat jichu for everything

see you later i guess

let go w/ blue (methboiswag)

ft @inssekt
prod @dep4rted

@stellathepixie
dont remember who i was
violins singing, bringing bad bad luck to me
and think i loved you once
sky falling down, ima go down easily 

so much for havin fun
when i grow up, ima flex until im free
truth is i miss you a lot
ima get caught, cos ur bad bad company

stay alright
gonna bloom rest of my life 
and you dont try to be nice
gonna leave and i wont say goodbye
tonight...

i know that youre gonna tell me im
bad bad bad
afterlyfe
and none of this will burden me
bad bad bad
alive for life

@inssekt
i miss ur touch
i miss ur love
im a loser
i know that much
i jus dropped a pill it felt like ur hug

ur warm embrace 
keeps me out the shade
dont think that im movin on but this is feels great
its the calm before the storm eventually ill break

i break out
girl i thought that u were different
forever wanna live it
as long as u r with me...

let go w/ blue (methboiswag)

inchworm