need a grip up on my own life or i'll end up dying
i'll hold it close
don't let it go
a vacant soul it haunts my fucking room i told you
you make wna -
i would throw it all away
if it makes you happy
maybe i should stay
so you'll end up laughing

something with meaning

inspo @1kaido

with @maxrrss

main @oroahh

adore w/ maxrrss

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Zb6IFiMkT0WwKw8u9vkcJ?si=ce7a676df2a04657
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/teller


produced by nate & jacob
written and performed by me
twit & ig: @1spoder
nate ig: @__nerc
jacob ig: @jacoblincoln_

something more upbeat for next one i promise
thank you for listening :)

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i'm failing right down
you're a waste of time, wasted mine
waste of life
keep my feelings fortified
tell the teller if you really wanna die (die, oh die)
would you, would you put your trust in me
would you, would you turn your back on me (i tried, i try)
stay on weird timing (i stole this from humza)
i'm lost but i'll find it
an anecdote alive in
a pit in my stomach
responsible for pain
there's this thought in my-

beaten right down
a waste of life
i'll build a wall of concrete lies
i should've told you
i can't focus well
your soft spoken yell

head on the floor
walk in circles
you're all i adore
i'm still hurt though
is this how it's supposed to end?
is this how it's supposed to end?

i gave my all
you like watching me fall
i don't get it at all
whether right or it's wrong

teller

prod aftrr and maxwell4k
a celebration of everything, ty 4 all the love
out on all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/aftrr/sorry-not-sorry

lyrics: 
what u need
tell me its just me n u
maybe we could rendezvous
take u out then back ur room
ill see u soon
get a table just for two
i kno im not here for a long time
so tell me whats ur mood

im out in town like where u at?
dont get too close dont get attached
i spend my money make it back
my heart been runnin, livin fast
i whip it, dip in the mazi
shawty she tweak off the molly
in the club she thought she saw me
hate me, im sorry not sorry

money like manny but i aint no fighter
u still rockin Pandas, im rockin desiigner
bitch im a playa like word to luh tyler
i keep that beam on me, shoot like tie fighter
i keep that fye like a bic no lighter
dripped in all black let my chain shine brighter
aint no surprise, on my  grind, all nighter
did it by myself, need no help
im still self made
they said that im toxic
idgaf im well paid
she so bad 4 me but out of spite
i'll love her anyway
yo pockets falling apart
im sippin chardonnay 

bitch im the man of my city im finna hold it down
bp born and raised, for my fam ill turn they life around
gotta keep goin i dont think ill ever settle down
pretty hoe like how i do it she likin how i sound

im out in town like where u at?
dont get too close dont get attached
i spend my money make it back
my heart been runnin, livin fast
i whip it, dip in the mazi
shawty she tweak off the molly
in the club she thought she saw me
hate me, im sorry not sorry

drank, molly water
whole fit top dolla
oh all these lil boy they my son
im the shot caller
spend a bag, make it flip
double that, dont give a shit
spend a bag, make it flip
double that then take a flick

baby do u really need me?
when i talk to u, u dont listen, u only see me
idk, lmk if u really moved on
where to go, yeah u know, wya just reach me

(this last section is inspired by tyler the creator's pillowtalk remix :D)

im out in town like where u at?
dont get too close dont get attached
i spend my money make it back
my heart been runnin, livin fast
i whip it, dip in the mazi
shawty she tweak off the molly
in the club she thought she saw me
hate me, im sorry not sorry

SPOTIFY !

sorry not sorry (aftrr maxwell4k)

this will change your life prod me pk anem0s billsburyjoeboi kbl and chat

love island w/ reef & vasto

https://soundcloud.com/c4reful/nightfall

practicing producing

nightfall

lazy lil cover
some notes are definitely wrong and off time but whooooo careees

https://soundcloud.com/heavenindaclouds/the-elder-sister-1

elder sister (heavn cover)

self prod

made this a couple months back while sick

feels like its been so damn long

cough demo

Playin Dumb Prod Bool Man

with @riensu

produced by @ihateukidu

spotify: https://spotify.link/QvikfVoncDb

me:

tell me what you want
i cant help but follow through
you know what it was
you gon tear my heart in two
dont got time to lose
its way too hard to choose
you aint been in my shoes nah
girl what i need to prove im

falling out of love
you dont see it though
driving me insane girl
way too many lows
times not the issue
cant lie swear i miss you
all the shit we been through
tell me if it tempts you

i dont wanna mess it up
girl u dont know how to trust
got no time to readjust
many times my heart been crushed
girl you break down
all my walls
damn i hate it
when you call
said i wouldnt get involved
girl you dont love me at all

run around,
when the sun is down
do you love me now?
girl are you playing around?
run around,
when the sun is down
do you love me now?
girl are you playing around?

riensu:

baby you know that i still think of you
you got me thinking what did i get myself into
i been needing you
i hope you need me too
dont wanna waste my time
on you
youre the only one that i've been needing in my life
speeding on the highway, bae im going 85
only when im with you is when i feel so alive
so let me know if youre down to ride

tempts you w/ riensu (kidu)

i've lost it
no passion i'm exhausted
no rest i swear i'm worse than you
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god
mother i've grown so distant
condolence for the way i'm living
spoke too many lies
i'll pack all my bags and i'll move out tonight
but i gave it a try
spoke too many lies
i'll pack all my bags and i'll move out tonight
the strongest of hues are impaling your eyes
although i'm not perfect i gave it a try
i gave it a try
gave it a
i've lost it
no passion i'm exhausted
no rest i swear i'm worse than you
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god
mother i've grown so distant
mother i've grown so distant
mother i've grown so distant
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god

elder sister (heavn cover)

nooks

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