circa december 2022

oh ill do it my way
just a whisper planting thoughts in my brain
i can't understand why you look sideways
i don't understand why you like dying
move this way ill hold you
you're so pissed off
i told you
i would run if you needed my help
im tired of feeling like im on the shelf
ill splatter my brain and leave it on the walls
im tired of liking you it wont resolve
open that door you know i can't do that
i'm jus a fool with intentions to move back

sideways

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/16aPg17al8DKBm8LyMn4eE?si=9f8e74ca0f344527
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/cd-feat-ry-2

guitar by othello
additional production by me and ryan
written and performed by me and ryan
with @rywrrd (show him love please)

i lied i'm sorry next one will be a summer tune <3
thank you for listening always :)

///
a toast,
play your cd
the music brings you peace
alone
so don't mind me
I had a stupid dream again

you thought you had from the start
I don't want have to break your heart
but it broke
and now that cd drowns in static
a sour note
I highly doubt it

your favourite song
your radio I turn it on
we fell in love in your shitty car
with static on your heart
screaming out our favourite part

I made a stupid decision
in my mind, clouded dumb inference
I gave it all that I had
but all I had was indifferent
I'd break my arms off to help you
if it meant that you would listen
I stare and talk to the wall
scratched disc had tarnished the image
I thought I loved you

cd w/ ry

unmastered
produced by me
exclusive for soundcloud

lyrics:
woah
you want to live vicariously
its getting old

i want to get my hopes up
but i think i lost control

i take up the whole place
in the room inside my head
and i don't want to know what's left
you're the voice that i project

i know i get selfish
i wish you could help it
even if it's respite

every night i'm restless
yet i fail to mention
that i'm up just putting people first
with no intention

anvils sink deep inside my chest
chancels i go in distress
i'm scared of being alone
man i confess

so i got out the way
you don't want to stay
i don't want to be that kid

we got money to make
can't pay you to chance
my name can't escape your lip

was just part of the game
might cut out the frame
my image of you was sick

snake in the grass
i hear you hiss
the next one couldn't treat me like this

yeah,
woah
you want to live vicariously
its getting old

i want to get my hopes up
but i think i lost control

i take up the whole place
in the room inside my head
and i don't want to know what's left
you're the voice that i project

i'm number one
im tired of last
i put me first huh, huh
foot on the gas, yeah

i take up the whole place
in the room inside my head
and i don't want to know what's left
you're the voice that i project

last place* (p. me)

ALL PLATS NOV 19th: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/imnotvrycreative/bitter-2
prod: @tonch-t

tryna get better and start getting bitter and shit
i cant lose, like they payed me to win
give a damn my dear, like gone to the wind
it come off of the dome, i aint jotting a pen
feel like the options exhausted again
supposed to wish good, i wish awful for him
kept that shit to myself for some years, cause how imma sell it? i hate what im offering them
notice myself getting bitter and shit
i cant lose, like they payed me to win
give a damn my dear, like gone to the wind
it come off of the dome, i aint jotting a pen
feel like the options exhausted again
supposed to wish good, i wish awful for him
kept that shit to myself for some years, cause how imma sell it? i hate what im offering them

i aint make no progress with it
im just buying time fr
its some shit ill never deal with, push that aside for real
no gun, just iron and steel
intentions good, why it feeling ill?
i want the pape, i want the green, like the flag to Brazil

notice myself getting bitter and shit
i cant lose, like they payed me to win
give a damn my dear, like gone to the wind
it come off of the dome, i aint jotting a pen
feel like the options exhausted again
supposed to wish good, i wish awful for him
kept that shit to myself for some years, cause how imma sell it? i hate what im offering them
notice myself getting bitter and shit
i cant lose, like they payed me to win
give a damn my dear, like gone to the wind
it come off of the dome, i aint jotting a pen
feel like the options exhausted again
supposed to wish good, i wish awful for him
kept that shit to myself for some years, cause how imma sell it? i hate what im offering them

bitter [p. Tonch]

cover art: @alexksmh
i know i already made a mochji remix but this the mochji remix competition yeah this guy made me make a remix in 3 days i cant make music that quickly bro 💔
im gonna start making my own songs soon enough remixing
and im really hungry

update: im not hungry anymore and this won me 3rd place in the competition yippee

mochji (remix competition) - not2sober {stein flip}

stream on all platforms: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/strangers16/call-it-feat-imnotvrycreative-sav--terraine/
one hit wonder💔


cover art: @1mugwump
prod: @ZUUBEK

lyrics:
@imnotvrycreative
Too imperfect to want perfection
And my intention ain't to leave you guessing
It's not the plan, and it never was
And if it's broken, still count my blessings
You down on your luck, then I'd use up all the wishes that I can
And you know I would
You say the word, and I'd cut back just to cut off slack
If you need a scapegoat, then it's all my bad
And I would still call it worth
And I'd give back everything I have in exchange for a few things that you haven't
And you know I would

@savpass9
Yeah, I didn't wanna let you notice
Fall in love with the one who's closest
Got me losing track of what's important to me
Wanna be the only focus
When the night comes, will you call it?
Or will you leave our feelings dormant?
Let me stay another night, another night
When the night comes, will you call it?

@terraineterraine
When you wish upon a star
Know I know right where you are
Way you treated me was blasphemy
You're tearing me apart
You want me to play my part
Why you keeping me afar?
Wanna be my other half
You should've said that from the start
Didn't wanna let you notice me
Come stand close to me
While you're staring at the ceiling
Know I see you in my dreams
Know the act of chasing after you is not as easy as it seems
All these thoughts can cloud my judgment
It's as simple as I need you to believe

@savpass9
Yeah, I didn't wanna let you notice
Fall in love with the one who's closest
Got me losing track of what's important to me
Wanna be the only focus
When the night comes, will you call it?
Or will you leave our feelings dormant?
Let me stay another night, another night
When the night comes, will you call it?

CALL IT [prod. ZUUBEK]

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham
outro by aftrr
additional production by me

I packed all my bags and left my home town
And when I come I want to be something
Make my dad proud
Oh isn’t it obvious love?
That I miss you so dearly
Can you hear me?
Oh I’ll make it easy

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Wore up your shoes kicking dirt in my face
It’s how it’s supposed to be love
God strike me down from above
Just tell me what you really want
What you really want

At a rest stop in a car with some people I don’t know
Maybe if we didn’t live far then our eyes would both be glowing gold
Dream girl don’t love me no more (don’t throw it away)
Threw my morals out like a whore (you threw it away)
You don’t gotta save me darling
I spent the last month getting high
Wishing I wasn’t alive and steady crying
I told myself don’t die yet
That’d be so violent

I’ve been up all night for you
Ruin my mind for you
Giving all this time for you
Peeling back my eyes for you
Oh baby can’t you see? (that my head is on the floor, bae head is on the floor)
Oh baby can’t you see? (do you love me anymore bae, love me anymore?)
Love me anymore

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be? (go!)
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?

home

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by neverforever
additional production by me

They say, “give it time”
Suppose it’s only right
I wore a smile until the days had turn to night
I watched my knees give out as soon as I saw the text
I laid my conscience down to rest
I watched my options fade to grey
Till there was nothing left
I don’t wanna feel this way
I don’t wanna deal with it no more
The things I love about you
Are things I wish I could change

Are things I wish I could change
Are things I wish I could change
Wish I could change
You tore a hole in my brain
Pick up a piece of my remains
And leave the rest up to fate (are things I wish I could change)
Cause babe I feel like a slave
And I can’t deal with the pain
Don’t tell me it was all in vein
Oh these are things I wish I could change

change

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by kire

Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me this shit is not real
Tell me it’s all a damn lie
I won’t give up this time
I won’t give up this-

Spent a month baby fuck- a lifetime
How do I say this so it come out right
Felt god let my hand out
Let it freeze up cause it felt nice
Pray I’ll see you again
Pray to god the phone rings and we’ll make amends
Pray to god my life don’t end
Pray to god won’t bloody up my arms and cry my eyes out again
Pray to god you’ll be fine if I’m on tomorrow’s paper
Love I hate to be a hater
But my eyes have grown so vacant
Know you love it when I say it
Like some shit about my music
Wrote my songs about you, won’t you take a listen?

Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me sweet lies baby
Tell me this shit is not real
Tell me it’s all a damn lie
I won’t give up this time
I won’t give up this-

forswear

you're okay
you're all fine now
you'll pick yourself up in the morning
you'll pick yourself up in the morning

see the lights flicker then i'm gone
i don't wanna bother anyone
if i told a secret would you keep it?
ash on my jeans, ash on my teeth, ash on my face
tell me would you stand by my side if i came last place?
i don't wanna be a bother
i don't wanna be nothing
what would you do if the world ending
would you bury your head in my arms?
would you kiss your father goodbye?
would you tell him the things that you've done?
would you tell me the things that you've done?
would you tell me i'm the only one?

you're okay
you're all fine now
you'll pick yourself up in the morning
you'll pick yourself up in the morning 
you'll pick yourself up in the morning


change

spoder

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