i notice

one last life
one more try
one last breath
one more cry
is this what love sounds like
show me what love looks like
i ripped out the pages
i lied i threw up
oh the truth, i can't face it
I'll be emanciated
act like i don't recall
what you said about it all
think I'll rest before you call

phone call

i made a wrong move
i tie both my shoes straight
darling what's new?
you're half a world away
i bite my tongue and graze my teeth
at something only god can see
ask the teller, "what's got into me?"
he just sighed and gave me sympathy
my love, what's new?
my love, what's new?
my brown leather skin
your face of an angel
i repent for my sins
hear your voice close my eyes i'm in that condo again
when i was only a kid
when i was only a kid
when i was only a kid

what's new

//Lyrics
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind
You're like a shell of your former self bae
You just wont tell off nobody else, yet

Well you know too well
that it cant be helped
take, one look at your body and im falling down
through the depths of hell
Where i wont be found
Im a mess and you can tell cus its just part of your spell

Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
Im going through hell just to hear you out
I know I could tell how you see me now
I could keep it real while you keep me down
but you still want me around
you're like a shell of your former self, bae
And you wont tell off nobody else, yet
I dont think id ever
make you feel welcome
this just cant happen
but, you keep sticking in my mind

candlelight [p. sai]

produced by chromecue (n me a little)

cover art drawn by my brother & edited by ilxrrrr

//lyrics 

you been keeping my eyes wide open
you been leading a life im hopin
i can have a part in i chose it
dont know where we started
well, i forgot it but
oh well
dont tell nobody else
i need you to myself, oh
been waiting on a call all week
ill take it like its all on me
just give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
aint been getting much sleep, lately
around 3 terrified of that dream
i swear to god if i dont get sleep, ill
have you running back to me
my tears have only grown old
right here you saw me stone cold
my fears, ive never once shown
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together

like im in a coma
wrapped 'round me like a cobra
dont talk like i aint been in this so long
i got some memories that i could pull up
speaking of
i just wanna talk to you, baby
one stop till it all goes, crazy
dont drop what we all know
I, get a call when its autumn
it says you right there, (f*ck it)
it says you right there
we aint talk in so long
its like i dont even know ya
i dont care cause we're so in
scared and we know it
and i dont wanna give it up
tied around you and its pitiful
you dont act surprised its by design
tell me everything
it alligns i treat it like your medicine
like a crutch telling me it hasnt been, over
we gotta cut it off while we're still young
we'll grow old
its just fun, till your part of my soul now i need to grow up
we've grown cold
dont treat me like a sword in the stone bae if it all
depends on the weather
you cant move on when its said and, done
if you cant get better
dont, come to me with all your letters ill run
till we cross ill be far away from that era
when you fall i wont wanna get back together

cobra

fuck my mic brok e

produced by cmb
written, mixed, performed by me
i love you always
hope you're well ^.^

///
you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again 

i told my pops i'll be okay
he knows that i can't sleep at night
the thought of you with someone else replays like hell i'm petrified 
my arms stained crimson red
i wish you'd kiss me and tell me that it's all in my head
feel like a psycho i stalk you and then go back to bed
without you i would rather be dead
without you i would

forget all that i said
unscrew my head and put another, lay me down to rest
couple folks told me i need to let it go
told them they’re crazy and i left
i know that i could be a handful baby it’s part of my nature
fool me once, you fooled me twice, so much for asking for a favour
why do you look so blue?
your eyes have lost their colour bae, what’s bothering you?
don’t mistake me for a loon, i see right through you
it’s not a secret i miss you oh i see right through you
it’s not a secret i love you

you were once in a lifetime
no i don't want to die for someone else
once in a lifetime
i'll toss my hurt and hide it on the shelf
no i wouldn't be with no one else
no i wouldn't be with no one else
but you're gone and i'm lost again

lifetime

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS

p. mitsa and young cobain

breath like cigarette smoke
staring out my window
im waiting for a text back
are we even official?
im overthinking all the time
i cant get you off my mind
im texting “can we hangout”
i just wanna see your eyes
darlin its a little bit to cold outside
your nose is gettin red 
please lets just go inside
oh i can warm your hands up
do you want all my love?
you say that your leaving
and going back to your house

oh why
did you lie?
oh you made me hate myself
so much more back then
oh why
did you lie?
oh you dont know right from wrong
baby just give it up

snow right on ur windshield
smoke coming from your car 
kissing in the back seat
scared of getting addicted
are we moving to fast for you?
do you like the things that i do?

i walk past your house
see your bedroom light on
my hearts beating so fast
please dont tell me its true
i see another guy in the bed
where im supposed to be 
it should be me in the same room with you
laying next to me 

oh why
did you lie?
oh you made me hate myself
so much more back then
oh why
did you lie?
oh you dont know right from wrong
baby just give it up
(x2)

why did you lie

ivory (p. sickboi)

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by neverforever
additional production by me

They say, “give it time”
Suppose it’s only right
I wore a smile until the days had turn to night
I watched my knees give out as soon as I saw the text
I laid my conscience down to rest
I watched my options fade to grey
Till there was nothing left
I don’t wanna feel this way
I don’t wanna deal with it no more
The things I love about you
Are things I wish I could change

Are things I wish I could change
Are things I wish I could change
Wish I could change
You tore a hole in my brain
Pick up a piece of my remains
And leave the rest up to fate (are things I wish I could change)
Cause babe I feel like a slave
And I can’t deal with the pain
Don’t tell me it was all in vein
Oh these are things I wish I could change

change

spoder