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death wish

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/64GfZxurvekpLsiJLfxm9y?si=2648166d5df14f6d

produced by me
mix and mastered by me
written by me
different from my other tunes, regardless i hope you enjoy

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blood along the floor
i've been tryna find a purpose
i'm not sure
you've been running round in circles
they didn't mean to hurt you
playing my part i got nothing else to give you
blood along the floor
i've been tryna find a purpose
i'm not sure
you've been running round in circles
they didn't mean to hurt you
playing my part i got nothing else to give you

it crossed my mind
how you break me down
and ruin my life
but its fine!
all cool
i apologize,
if i came off rude
i couldnt help it if i tried to
you know more than i do
i'ma take a walk so i won't be home
but it provided no use for me
eyes darken when i clench my teeth
you find a way to throw it all
i lost my patience i'ma crash and fall

blood along the floor
i've been tryna find a purpose
i'm not sure
you've been running round in circles
they didn't mean to hurt you
playing my part i got nothing else to give you
blood along the floor
i've been tryna find a purpose
i'm not sure
you've been running round in circles
they didn't mean to hurt you
playing my part i got nothing else to give you

purpose

honest

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4lwq80jSYhe7jYi6SQRGpJ?si=3972c9994a224673

p. zbeatz, b2nny, spoder
mixed by me and b2nny
with @b2nny
happy holidays
note: sorry abt the high end, it will be fixed from now on, listen on like 80% volume 

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[spoder]
every thought up in my brain
every problem that i had
it all comes right back to you
don't you come here and break my rules love

remember what i said bout winter?
i'll have a couple cold nights but i swear that it'd get better
and i'll run back to you
but you've been falling apart
building back my roof, again

why you acting so tough for no reason?
when you're on the damn floor fucking bleeding
dirt up on your name
i don't want to be so pessimistic
all these people lame
but i really feel like i've been missing

a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh
a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh

[b2nny]
don’t know how to contact you
when you way in the back of a filled up room
it’s when you're lost in my mind
caught in my head
i feel the pressure
i'd rather be dead
than be alive at this time feeling nothing at all
i'd rather smash my fucking brain on this whole damn wall
don’t want a second alone
to bathe in my thoughts
thought that i canceled tonight but i guess we can take a walk for a minute
under the flashing street lights
don’t see me winning
this moment never feel right
to me, to you, to any watchers watching
i knew this wasn't the night

[spoder]
a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh
a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh

human contact w/ b2nny

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3FeLYX0lYV5CkrFakaqTjj?si=edd3f4d959054cae
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/septembers-burial

produced by ryan (@rywrrd)
 + a little from me

unorthodox and mellow but means a lot, thank you for listening <3
i'll be more consistent next year, i promise 

i know it goes without saying but i hate your guts
spent a couple months, fucked around, came close to giving up
don't show up, right now
i've grown older, i'm not that dumb now
i'll tell you it's fine and i'll leave you to be
you've got no right here to cry and i'm grinding my teeth for you
i've got a lot to say,
but i'd rather not speak 'till you’re up at my grave
the stupid look on my face
you could take it back but i promise the damage won't be replaced
i'll, move far so i don't have a care
that's if i don't die before next year
for the better or the worse,
i flipped my insides out and tried to make it work
won't it be fun when they find out
out through your door and through the gate your quiet speech is like a mouse
tell me, who is laughing now?
there's so much for you to see
i bite down and clench my teeth
there's so much for you to see
i'll be there, give me a week.

september's burial

september's burial (ry)

@1spoder
prod roku
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/bruise

lyrics -
open up the fuckin door hun
is this everything you wanted?
tell me did you really wanna
tell me did you really wanna
pop another bottle up
tell me is it lust is it really love
pop another bottle up
is it really lust is it really love
can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

are you amused?
go tie up that noose (it's all my fault)
acting like you nuanced and shit
alright love then burn off that bridge
tell me love how I'm supposed to live
kick yo feet up
wanna be us
she want more not enough
is it all you dream of
all you need love
fall in now I'm stuck
will you pull through?
I don't like you no more

can you see what I see
through your stupid lies
it gets harder to breathe
every time

walk it down
throw it up love
love to be the one that you want
I keep falling down, keep falling out
did everything you told me to
talk every way you want me to
fuck it up
it's a dud
I don't love you
I tried it, no use
stuck in silence I bruise (I feel overwhelmed)
stuck in silence I bruise (I tried)
stuck in silence I bruise

spoder - bruise

wishes

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHobHG2OXfE
stream: fordis.lnk.to/wishes

-

i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left it in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (so long)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

so i act like i ain't numb and im so strong
and am i a waste of time cause you moved on?
closing both my eyes hope i respawn
left me on my own had to sit and write a new song

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (it's not worth it)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left you in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own
—

wishes

guitar by will rhead

when it's all said and done
when i leave home and no one's round
will you save me a seat to the sun?
to somewhere i could never be found
i don't wanna let go
oh i don't wanna leave home
i made my momma cry
i told her i'd call her on the phone
i'll kiss my cats goodbye
i'm sorry i left you all alone
oh i don't wanna leave home
oh i don't wanna leave home
i'll do all the things you taught me
i'll try my best, i'll be a man, won't hate my body
stand on my own two feet
i'll make it through twelve weeks
i'lll make it back with my own hands, i'll make you proud of me

proud

no, we cant fall
guess i dont know
but, you're damn wrong
i try to focus on everyone
just not you
just not you
i guess the serotonin answers to my veins
i guess it all depends on what you wanna claim
i saw a vision of our life the other day
i want it so bad, so bad
i shut off
i shut up
i need attention to be with my girl
told you to listen, a step in my world
never been out here, on my own
dance on the roof with the city lights
hands all on you if the feelings right
can i talk to you girl im terrified
without you
without you
you live a lie
at war with yourself baby watch it go by
ive been on both sides
pick up the time
no amount of help could make you switch all your tides
now its all goodbye
i wish you well
wont call and get you help but
ive been through hell, so i might need it myself
i wish you well
wont call and get you help but
ive been through hell, just thinking to myself
i guess the serotonin answers to my veins
i guess it all depends on what you wanna claim
i saw a vision of our life the other day
i want it so bad, so bad
i shut off
i shut up
i need attention to be with my girl
told you to listen, a step in my world
never been out here, on my own
dance on the roof with the city lights
hands all on you if the feelings right
can i talk to you girl im terrified
without you
without you

no, we cant fall
but you're damn wrong
i cant just focus on anyone
thats not you
thats not you

wish you well

wish you well [p. sai & adrien]

i swear

[Lyrics]

Tryna lie about her ex, shit that he said
She want love but I don't wanna be next
Lying bout her ex, saw all the texts
You got some problems, all in your fucking head

Shawty a 10, hate all your friends
I wanna tell you
hHow much you really meant
Time is a bitch, now it's the end
Wanna turn it back, I only feel regret

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
She lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
But she lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

Wanna know just what she talking about
I'm asking questions, we talking it out
I wanna know why you hide it
She always be talking like she my bitch
My bitch

I don't even know your fucking name ho
Buy her roses just so she could claim those
Said, she on the floor like she JLO
Text me whenever she on her way home

She still gone, you want it bad
But you keep it on the low for me
And when we talk, all these words, they just flowing with ease
She told me what's wrong, girl, just do it on the phone
Cause I just wanna be alone, baby, tell me what you need

Got a haunted past, she caused it
Out of smoke, gas, I be feeling nauseous, yeah
So tell me I'm the 'worst that you had' for me
Didn't know that you were lyin, but I could tell that you bad for me

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
She lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

You lyin bout' your ex, she lie, she lyin' bout her ex
Don't lie to me, girl I saw all of the texts
But she lyin', she lyin' bout her fucking ex

september's burial (ry)

spoder

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