loosin brain cells

maybe

max ruben

[verse 1]
i ain't think that i should make it this far in life
but my music growing big, i think thats a sign
my wallet begging to be filled so i try and shine
and my bros go up without me, ill wait my time

[hook x2]
window watching everybody pass
she tell me i should live every damn day like its my last
i act like no one talks to me but i cant open back
i check the mirror every night and i see broken glass
and thats facts, cause im 

[verse 2]
tired of responsibility
talking to my therapist cause thats just what i need
he tell me i rely on everybody except me
i told him im just tired of seeing myself bleed

[bridge]
and i know that i need help, i just dont know how
and im shooting for marriage but i suck with vows
and i dont control words coming out of my mouth
i need you around, im stuck in my house

[hook x2]

window watching

produced by soju!! @buginfestedfloorboards (go follow them rn)
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bird: https://twitter.com/kaido2k
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spotify
https://open.spotify.com/artist/0UENogXhLeGTZjub4eejjX?si=1qMa0dAtQrSr3Yx8mqphnQ&dl_branch=1

ty for listening :)
[Lyrics]
you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

why would i wanna see that
its cool id never be there
never gave me a reason
been like this every season
i wish i could help you
i don't fucking know how to
and everyone doubts you
fuck everyone that surrounds you
i've got a silly dream
its better when its you n me
feel better when you're feeling me
well can you fucking stayy
i don't wanna be away
i gotta hit it off
its reoccurring in my head
tell them to fuck it all
can we just end it all
can we just break it off
do i look better off
i don't wanna be alone

you sit in her beauty
you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

recluse

@prodbytoshi @newgarasu
失われたものを忘れる🎋🎋

ヽ(*ﾟдﾟ)ノ

prbly gna remastr dis soons wher i rec a lot of rvrb '(

https://open.spotify.com/album/6pF9eAcG8AIsqej5UlwO8I?si=2yhUf6V6QtiT-AlsaCSRTg&dl_branch=1

[☂˚]
sry bt its nt workn out tht wayy ;//
n iv bn thinkn ab it lik all dayy
if theres nthn tht i cn do than ok
bt it wont b anythn else but this nw alwys (◎ ◎)ゞ	

pls dnt tll me wht i 4gt (シ_ _)シ	
cz it tuk me sm time 
dnt remind me of wht i lost,, cnt subside 
n i cldnt tell u wht this is all4 y ?
its anothr nite tht i cnt close my eyes  ± _ ±

lately hasnt bn tha same
mb i might b2blame,, 
think theres smthn thts beyond tha frame 🐾🐾
nw its fadn i4gt ur name 

blame blame blame blame 🎋🎋
same same same same ☂˚☂˚
same same same same ☂˚☂˚

tll me wht is wrong i cld nvr stop
n its bn way2long so ofc im lost
mb i shld think 2x ab tha cost 🍓🍓
bt i cldnt live wit known,, i cannot stop

tk me bacc2a time wher i didn deal wit it
bt intha end it is how it is,, guess i gta gt a grip
i dnt wna say tht shtt,, i jus wna b in bliss ##
i dnt think i cn 4gt #.# idk wht all dis is !

⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋

ur name ⋆｡⋆☂˚｡⋆｡˚*•̩̩͙✩ 🎋🎋

prod @kudzmgmt """ + @bodygaard (><^v^><)

[i ]
i jus told her tht im not4her 
she turn arnd tell me tht she so hurt
fln deep inmy wounds dnt burn
dnt kno if i can deal w that sober

turn around n take anthr look
reminds me of ur words 1unfinished book
cn u give me back everythn u tk
n aftr all of tht end up being stuck

idk wht im gna do w u
this or tht which1is the issue
eyesore i cnt rly rly missu
cz rn i gt sum nd2get 2 
theres an issue w the way u think

so diff,, watch me leave me here2sink
ct off ties n im loosin any link
u cn lose it in a sec in a blink

how sad this love is 
n idk enough a novice
take2i got this
wtch me ruin all my options
.......................................................................

[bodygaard]



[i2]
im amazd by u
n im tamed by the truth
ik i lose,, ,, ,,
in the end im still arnd
ik its hard2make sense
weatherin,, reminisce 
weathers bttr i admit
the amnt of times we answered this
still dsnt mk sense,, idk wht is this
might as well mk a list,,

abandon +bodygaard [kudz]

performed, produced, mixed, and mastered by goodbyebrody 

written by goodbyebrody, $haded, and mochji

[verse]
I got everything I wanted
Now I never see you callin'
I swear to God I'm falling
and I'm missin' you if honest

Promise me you’ll never go 
Hide the things you’ll never tell me 
Can't wait for the night
Cause I’m tryna get you right 

Her honesty, I can’t uphold 
Block your friends, you call that healthy
Can't wait for tonight 
Cause you know I’ll get you right

[chorus]
I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

[verse 2]
Holdin' you through all the motions, till you feel the time's right 
Feel your essence when we're kissin' under streetlights
You pull me under, all these feelings I don't wanna hold back, 
Keep me closer, I can tell that you won't it go 

Biting my cheek, hide the pain with many drugs
Driving down, any place you feel like livin' up
Cause you got something, my heart racin', I can't give it up
Cause damn I want you, and babe you know that

[bridge]
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted

(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)

[chorus]
I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

caught my eye

prod. joon & Noah Koslen

Verse 1:
I've been waiting for a lover that could tell me
What I'm really thinking of drinking of,
'till my feelings spill
(you don't waste time)
I've been contemplating everything she sells me
But sometimes it's too good to be true
But you know sometimes I just can't help it

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

(One, two, three, four)

Verse 2:
Having but I'd still rather see you (see you)
But, got people in my rearview (rearview)
Yeah I don't care what they're thinking
Hope you want to walk by me
We won't care who sees
You're just all I need 
You're just all I'm needing baby 'cause I

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why (yeah)
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly

I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

company

produced by aftrr and will rhead
all plats: https://ffm.to/rqj2oyo

lyrics:

[intro]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[verse]
damn
i guess we’re falling apart
everything so unexpected
wish i knew from the start
i kept it copacetic
tried my best to play my own part
still got a few more hours with u before my flight depart
u told me its not me its u
when did love become an issue
i know that im still missing u
but i cant deal with the misuse
and ur on my mind
feels like a waste of time
cant wait for u to decide so

[chorus x2]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[verse 2]
hop in the whip v12 new mazi
pop out the rims new lens they carti
i am too up im ricch like roddy
yellow my cup like piss no potty
u know its up, fw nobody
count up the deads, my pockets zombie
sippin that red, blue pill that molly
ts been killing me slowly
the words that replay, u told me
do u tell ppl u know me?
yeah u know me u know my body
stick to myself, dont say u saw me
i dont pick up when they call me
i dont even trust nobody
cut em off like get off me

[bridge]
we on different sides (baby tell me, tell me)
where ur heart resides
fall in love, fall out, no surprise
fuck it up, run it back, its alright

[chorus]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[verse 3 idk this the drop tho]
tell me what to do (is it me or is it u)
conversations overdue (me or u, who to choose)
cant keep up with the way u move
tell me what do we got to lose
u put my mind in a ruse so

[chorus]
i dont wanna talk if ur just gon run away
break my heart, said u wouldnt want it any other way
and my life, gave it all to u
ended all too soon
picked up my pieces, im not begging u to stay
no more

[outro]
if it's not me then who
u loved me, is that still true
reciprocated love, so overdue

SPOTIFY !

overdue

written: me
mixed: me
produced: @ReAll
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/maxrrss/why-2

Lyrics: 

(intro)

why am i spending so much time with someone selfish
if you really understand me, would you talk now?
i don't know how i can be so understanding
everytime you build me up you bring me back down

(chorus)

why, do i try to get you off my mind
i see you everynight
no that wont work at all
why, do i try to hold you close at night
when all we do is fight
no that wont work at all

(verse)

stopping time no 
i don't need to fall in love
talk about how far you've gone
smoke fill up my fucking lungs,
take your time 
always gotta do shit that i never liked
why you gotta bullshit lying bout your life
I've been chilling on the north end couldn't tell you why

hide my scars so u don't cry
i gave you reasons i wont slide
like who with why you wasting time
i told myself i wouldn't need your lies no more
no more (no more)
no more (no more)
no more (no more)
no more (no more)

why (reall)

prod aftrr and dsi @luv-zhou
all plats: https://ffm.to/pn6eznw

baby are u alright
u aint sleeping at night
got no reason to tease u
its easy to fight
baby are u alright
say the word ill take a flight
is it treason to seek u
i need u tonight

im not one for talking
but i might just talk to u
caught ur eye soon as i walked in
play it off i keep my cool
all ur problems i could solve em
baby its just me and u
u to me my remedy
this feeling, tell me is it true

she some pressure
she dont need nobody
nobody can catch her
baby come to me
we know that man just lesser
falling
sometimes i wish i never met her
tell me where to rendezvous
grab a table just for two
te deseo tanto
tell me what u wanna do
at the club wit yo crew
fk it up, out til noon
camera flash, flashing lights
but im focused on u

(i just wanna talk, i wanna see u)
(see u, see u again)
(this feeling, feeling certain, is it real)

baby are u alright
u aint sleeping at night
got no reason to tease u
its easy to fight
baby are u alright
say the word ill take a flight
is it treason to seek u
i need u tonight

im not one for talking
but i might just talk to u
caught ur eye soon as i walked in
play it off i keep my cool
all ur problems i could solve em
baby its just me and u
u to me my remedy
this feeling, tell me is it true

-

i try to tell u one thing
u only hear another
cant catch my breath im running
the flower blooms by summer
i try to pick up the pieces
dont know where to go
this medicine what im taking
got me moving so slow

im not one for talking
but i might just talk to u
caught ur eye soon as i walked in
play it off i keep my cool
all ur problems i could solve em
baby its just me and u
u to me my remedy
this feeling, tell me is it true

remedy

lyrics:

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

What am I supposed to send
Letters all wrapped in red
A ribbon or two or ten
For anything to make sense at all
Every single thing I said
It's gift-wrapped in my head
All paired up with some greeting cards
I scribbled in my bed

So there’s a ransom for a promise that I'd never hear
Burn it down and build it up for another year
If I take my pictures down will I disappear
That's really what you gotta hear, that's really what you got

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

Hear me out
I'm not a saviour anymore
I keep on melting through the floor so I can't
Stay around
Let me just get my shining armor
And go ride off on my horse

That's what you wanted right
A daydream of a rescue
What you wanted right
A fairytale to run away to
What you wanted right
That’s what you wanted right

SPOTIFY + APPLE

rescue

lyrics
Turn down the lights
Baby it's you and I tonight
Whatever is going on inside
You can tell me what's on your mind
Oh baby, just tell me
What I gotta do
To spend forever with you

Oh,
We don't worry bout what other people say
Cause every night and every day, 
I swear I'll make you feel all my love
If you feel alright, then I'm okay
If that's not the case, I'll find a way
I know that you would do the same

I've been looking all around for
Someone like you
Bae I'll move mountains and oceans
All for you
The moon and stars are shining so bright
And I kinda like the view
Cause all I see is you

Turn down the lights
Baby it's you and I tonight
Whatever is going on inside
You can tell me what's on your mind
Oh baby, just tell me
What I gotta do
To spend forever with you
I've been looking all around for
Someone like you
Bae I'll move mountains and oceans
All for you
The moon and stars are shining so bright
And I kinda like the view
Cause all I see is you

Turn down the lights
Baby it's you and I tonight
Whatever is going on inside
You can tell me what's on your mind
Oh baby, just tell me
What I gotta do
To spend forever with you

to spend forever with you

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5dHWIT5fxB7zBkoykyNIYS?si=ff6b79c35e5146de
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/showman

produced by plantcham
performed mixed written by me
cover art by my girlfriend 

sequel to crawler
thank you for listening like always

///
held it open like a doorman
tell me, why's it always pouring here?
she put it on like a showman
was the moment I knew I was scared
I split my head out wide
though incomplete, I try
I know that it sounds boring to you but this is my life
could you cut me some slack I
know that I'm not a good son
I'll wait till we orbit and then I'll wake up
spent 500 hours on screens in a month
let it burn up my skin so my eyes won't cry
a dumb ear I lended a thousand times
put my right hand on your shoulder darling
I'll tell you that everything will be just fine

it's alright
I've come to find there ain't a right time
so lower your conscience down
there's no use in trying to be found
could've sworn that I thought of it all
a bother so big or so small
a crawler that's stuck to the walls
if it's unfeasible then don't hurt me, falling

can hardly rest, don't let me go
my darling
this place not home
I pace around
you shut my mouth
I fall apart, it gets too loud
I don't wanna hold you
you've sewn and you've closed me up
they tried to console you
but my yells don't make a sound

my yells (my yells)
my yells have exhausted love
have exhausted love
I've had a hell of a day
wash it all up in the drain
don't make a sound
everything's gon' be okay

it's alright
I've come to find there ain't a right time
so lower your conscience down
there's no use in trying to be found
could've sworn that I thought of it all
a bother so big or so small
a crawler that's stuck to the walls
if it's unfeasible then don't hurt me, falling

can hardly rest, don't let me go
my darling
this place not home
I pace around
you shut my mouth
I fall apart, it gets too loud
I don't wanna hold you
you've sewn and you've closed me up
they tried to console you
but my yells don't make a sound

(yells don't make a sound
yells don't-
yells don't make a sound)
my yells don't make a sound
my yells don't make a sound
I'd hate to see you frown
I love you with my heart
I'd rather stay with you for now

showman

alone tonight

feelings

qu1ck trck <<##33

eyez lk g3mz changn lk 10,, u ddnt evn try d0 it agn
write ur nam permanent lk pen,, wip3 it away forever i cnt

i cnt evn d0 wht u want rit now,, i cnt evn feel wen im fa11n dwn
crystalize my <<##33 display thru t0wn,, hesit4te watchn yh u sta11n now

perm4nentt 1nk ##

happee buh day +++)_____+++++++

@distbeatz @kggn

happe bday 2every1111 !!!!! ++ erkko ++ smile 

(((((did this lil song b444 midnighttxx)))

celbrat w me,, do a danc spinnin
sippin on juice,, n im hurtn my kidneyxx
are my 0.0's shining cuz i feel dizzee
ima wait in line4sum fud but its busy buhhh

waitin on,, life ws long,, 
what is nxt,, wtching on
blo out my candlss :*,, imma mk it realxx
dnt kno wut 2wish4,, dnt kno wut 2feel

its my buhdayy,, do my buhday danccee
lukn @ mee,, tak anthr glanccee 0.0
its my bdayy ## do my bday danceee buh
shufflnnn now,, luk at my new pantsxx

bluu bills i dnt kno wut2spend on
gt a new fit tho rockn wit a ## pendant
movn on frum da past,, whers my presnt ??? :P
oldhed,, grown up,, independant

dun,, dun,, dun dun,, i gt monee4clothes
dnt gt monee4fud 
i dnt wnna seem ##rude
i hv nthn 2prov,,
i need2mak a movxx
yh4me n 4u <<##33

i ws up,, i ws up w8n all night
cnt een go2sleep,, yh i try
i cnt evn process my life,, i5
gettn closer2the end,, but i wnt cryy 0.p

bdayy song !!! [p. distbeatz + kuru]

<<##33 @blackwinterwells @pincode8485 <<##33
~ prodd. @angelus7k @alice-gass @ginsengxx

[buh]
heds mixd upp i gta go nw,, *~*
i cn barely thinkk,, i thinkk i gta wtch outt #0.o#
gta gt up,, no i cnt stay dwnxx ._.
thy bn testn me bt rlly @ wht cost nw ?

<<##33's beatn out my chestt bt im lockd inxx ||o.o||
i js rly wna lv wht did i wlk in ?.?
iv bn fln lik a mess i thnk i lostt itxx #_@
i wnt evn say a wordd thers no mor tlkn ;;X

lostt it al bt il mk it bak,, im loosin time yh im loosn tracc ;;//
dnt kno y i fkn laf,, its ovrwhelming yh i cnt do tht d*,,*b

mixd up ++ blackwinterwells ++ 8485 [p. angelus + alice gas + ginseng]

Credits://
@unknwnnn
@bodygaard

Notes://
My life has felt very stagnant lately...
I've been thinking a lot about life choices...
Too much for my own good...

Lyrics://
can you save me or am i lost
it’s just a daydream or am i wrong
your words don’t faze me i’m too far gone
you deprave me and lead me on 

i’ve been desperate all along
ignored my patience for far too long
had me working from dusk till dawn
i buried tears inside my palms

now i ask for your love in return
a quick exchange and a lesson learnt
can you tell me which is worse
being used or being hurt