shoutout @decago n @1altr

every day that passes by
i rly wanna die 
i wanna go 2 sleep forevr i jus wanna cry
ur presense made me feel whole
felt like i could try
n now that ur gone i rly wanna die
restarting my life i wanna fkn damn retry :) 

ik im the problem 
my life that im not solving
counting days till im not here 
cant see myself so clearly
i cant seem 2 escape these problems
i been hiding in the darkness
restarting my life wont solve em 
ik that im the issue- 

i dnt wanna miss u (miss uuu)
i jus wanna kiss u (kiss uuu)
ik im the issue (issue)
crying in my room i miss u

i dnt wanna feel this way jus anymore
i been hating myself 2 the core
i wanna die 
i wanna die baby
i dnt wanna feel my emotions lately
cant keep this 2 myself yeah i cant hide it
evry day that passes by i feel dying
my own life yeah that imma be jus ending
i dnt wanna live this way anymore

itwouldbebetterifiwasdead (decago x altr)

prod @pw4prez n @kiryano
thank u all 4 100 followers
u rlly mean the world 2 me

Lyrics:
heart in my hands girl i gave it all 2 u 
said we’d b together forever x2
flowers any weather even when ur feelin blue 
pull up any weather baby do it all 4 u 

head on my chest 
sayin that u love me while we’re layin in ur bed 
kissin on ur neck 
so u kno i love u 2 
i jus wanna spend this life w u 

take a walk by the lake 
not feelin right in my head 
i jus wanna lay in bed 
not feelin right when im not by ur side 
can u come over 2night 

cuz im not feelin right 

need u by my side 

can u come over 2night 

dark outside n the sun setting quick 
breeze from the lake keep me feelin sane
sayin that u love me dont kno if i feel the same 
got this feelin in my head that i cnt seem 2 shake 

take outside feel alive under moonlight 
4 wall round me and theyre slowly movin in 
if i dont move soon fear that this will b the end 
stuck in a cycle hopin this will end 

got scars on my wrist yeah i got it thru the mud 
6 piercings in my ears yeah i been had it tuff 
swear im not feelin right when im not by ur side 
i jus wanna call u mine

by ur side (sochi + kiryano) *** BONUS ***

s0lemn + bloodcryY - see into u [ssj5]

"the mistakes that haunt me" produced by me
Performed/Written by @counterxo

(lyrics)
I was so wrong 
I can never listen
Trying to be strong in a battle of attrition
It’s been way too long 
Mistakes have been haunting me
I’m on the edge but just know I want peace
Everyday I wake up gasping for some air
You can’t say I gave up, you don’t know I care 
No, I can’t be saved
I just keep this faith for paths I pave
for when I clean up the mess I made

Can’t say that I didn’t try to put my name in the sky
I get too deep in my thoughts, my faults come out when I’m high
Used to be me every night, because I can’t see a light
I know I put up a fight
Still don’t know if I’m alright
So instead I fell for materialism
Instead I become a part of a system
It lead to me ditching all realism
They said that that’s all the help I could give em
I know I promised one thing I’ll never go broke
I got a taste for designer it shows
The car black and white like the cross on my clothes
I’ll pop a tag to subdue all my woes
Step into niemans mcqueen on me
New AF1s they’re as white as my teeth
Hide all my scars with a Burberry tee
Make sure my pain is so hard to see
Addiction is making it hard to leave
The pressure is making it hard to breath
I have no balance with wants and needs
Made myself a promise that’s hard to keep
But in the end what’s the use of finding out the truth?
embracing something new just to cut my old self loose?

the mistakes that haunt me (counter)

⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧
prod+sfx @ssj5-junk
sample // escape the fate - when i go out, i want to go out on a chariot of fire

@s0lemn
no Txt back,, Fuck it Ima Fall asleep ...
Im so Done. Cant even Die in peace ,,
I needa tell Uu but uU Will not Listen .--
i Got a problem In love w/ Prescription"":p
y Tf r U callin Me ??? ./}{||\\
Leave Me alone & Dont Bother me ., ,.
It Hurts if I say Ima b Like u+++
I gotta Feel cuz u nevr Do....

Im Feelin Like shit.
look in My eyez R u noticing This ??.
I think Ima quit,,---
Blood On the Floor ya i Did it Again -...
Im sry Ur rite .,, 
I wana Feel but im Constantly High.,,
Im Talkin Rn cuz im Sayin Goodbye ""''
im Sry2Say tht im Takin my Life<<./33
i Promise its Fine .||}

4get me++ I stg Ima Die ina Bentley ...
Take 20 pillz js so Heaven Wont get Me)))
I'll Go2Hell & I'll tell em U Sent me <<</3 

Kill Me now I'll Take wat I Can..
I 4got Who i even Am ;[[
Shut me Down i Js took A Xan ;:
Dope on The Table ,,, Im fryin Again>..

I wna Live But I swear tht I Cant]]\\
Look at MyFace u Can tell tht im Dead//||\
bb Ur stuck in My head ,, ,,
Im gona Rot In My bed. ,. . . . ..

@counterxo
I just can’t go, I have nothing else
I was solo when I went through hell
Life is hollow in an empty shell
I might have to throw these memories inside a cell

Don’t wait for me
Blinded by a future that I can’t see 
I know that the truth hurts but lies aren’t free
cause I made things worse, couldn’t let them be

Just listen to your heart, even if it tears me apart
I’m wishing from afar 
For a world where we both can restart
You never forgave me
Did you just want to hate me?
It’s better to betray me, knowing you can’t save me
⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧⛧°. ⋆༺♱༻⋆. °⛧

and the light leaves w/ counter [ssj5]

@crimsonkey777

IM BACK WITH EMOPLUGG!!! <3

picknic +Key777 (irisv)

@s0lemn @corpse-disposal @rewind214
#tragedyClub
u Say dat U care , ,, But u wont Evn talk2Me ,. ;'
i Js took A Xann ,,  Still cant fall Asleep ,==
im thinkin Bout u .. . Where do I go ?? .
Run4Uu . 

Its Sadd ,.  shit Would Never work 0ut . .
im Deadd .; but Ur tha 1 I care abt { } "
do U evr think Of coming back ,<<<? ?? >>>
i Saw ur face <<_ [ got A heart Attack ]

Im blacked 0ut from Sippin , ,
its cuz U Nevr Listen . ; ;
Itz my Bad . Im trippn .
i Think I <3 Prescription .///
sry Imma mess & I made u sadd . ,
I ruin Everything tht I Ever had .  . . .

T00k a benz0 ,, I w0nt Even Think2letGo . . ,
Ima Die slow ,, Ion even Need A hal0
fucked Up again & Its On me .+{ :
I Cant even Say dat Im sry . / . 

breakin Down ,, Fill my Head w/ Any doubtt . {
ur Not around ,, But ur all I think abt .. }}
should I Leave it All behind me >?<?><?<
if U Luv Me Uu would Type me .. ..

s0lemn - all i think about (rewind & cd) [hosted by cxris]

stolen moment [me + pk65]

"need to heal" produced by me
performed/written by @counterxo & @s0lemn

(lyrics)
Been in so much pain, lately it’s a trend for me
watching as the rain pours down, will it end shortly?
terrified of change, I can’t ever get that back again 
It hurts to admit what a mess I’ve been
I can’t pretend the attachment’s way too real
but sometimes there’s things I need to feel
Sometimes there’s wounds I need to heal

(s0lemn)
I’m breaking down for real
I’ll dose another pill
I just need to chill, I don’t even know what’s real
Girl you know the deal
Took my dope, feeling ill
I don’t feel the same as you
High as fuck, barely move
Bae I’m on another planet, yeah I still think of you
Pain inside my eyes, keep them shut; suicide
Yeah I’d rather die if you’re not fuckin mine

(counter)
There’s no pain behind my eyes anymore it’s just emptiness
held onto to things that killed me at my core cause of pettiness
I have make it through, can’t ignore it and I’m ready let’s go it’s a long way up
yeah, it’s a deadly test

need to heal w/ s0lemn (counter)

prod @ssj5-junk
sample // famous last words - starting over
ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ

IT WILL BE ALRIGHT .

tell Me ik It hurts U 2 , ,
I feel The same .. Im here 4 U ._ _-
I js Wana get High : p
Ion wna B Alive . <<
Put a Cut on  my sleeve ,, Let it cryY .. 

Y Dont u Believe me ?? >>{ 
I feel Like death & U Dont wna See me . .} }'
Drugz On my Desk ima Do em & Repeatt ,<
Is any1 there , ,, 2 get how Im feeling ?? : {

Ion Talk much ,, Ima fuck Up ..
gota Dirty Cup ion Wna Feel none __((
drugged Up its Nothin I wont do Im So G0ne .. .
Want u 2Listen but  U Will not Hear n0ne ...

theres Reasons I cant even Start ,, 
Im broken & falling Apart .{ _
I Hope tht i Die in this Car . . /
im Swervin I js took A Bar . , ,

Im tryin 2 B wat U need ,,
kno Tht im nothingg >>: Baby Js Leave. . .
Im hopin I die in My sleep .
D0ze on tha Dope 

IT WILL BE ALRIGHT .

ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ

it will be alright [ssj5]

prod Ner0uN! + cr1sis
the goats

been mad busy
but we locked back in

bout to slit they fucking throat now
chop em up
bitch they call me dexter wit my moves now
yuh
and you're sooo
fucked up
i cant catch a fucking break
goddamn


and all the words you said that night
do you mean them?
i really hope you mean them
ex bitch talking shi
like idgaf what you say
so why you stalking on my IG

been a few months but im back
gun to his head
he gon have to take that
ppl always say they care about you
its jus bs
lying like spiting in my face its jus bs
gotta cut those ppl off next year
gotta run those ppl off next year
you know who you are
yeah i made some mistakes

x2

saw (Ner0uN! + cr1sis)

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