just my voice memos ! not produced. some old, and some sorta new

PAST LIVES (voice memos EP) // SECOND SPRING

hey!! all of these are unproduced voice memo songs of my past/ up thru this year! they all have different stories behind them so i thought i would tell them to you! check my insta @2ndspr1ng if you want the behind-the-emo juicy gossip.

lyrics

maybe you could love me
or maybe u should just touch me
you know that you want to 
do you, do you?
when you give me eyes like that
don't you know i want to push you 
back 
we get along 
so we can get it on

god youre so crazy 
i want you to shut up
you tell me make me
got my body heating up 
the heart is fickle yeah
but you're a work of art
you could be my man 
we don't have to be apart

if you want me
then you have me
i'm only ever yours 
whoever and wherever you are

would you tell me how you do that
make me feel like i'm yours
tell me all your secrets
or i will get bored

god youre so crazy
i want you to shut up
you tell me make me
got my body heating up
the heart is fickle yeah
but you're a work of art
you could be my man
we don't have to be apart
you made me start
to love 
and i'll never give that up
i like it when we fuck 
yeah when you fucking talk to me
tell me oh tell me
that you need me 
do you need me?

only ever yours // second spring

hey!! all of these are unproduced voice memo songs of my past/ up thru this year! they all have different stories behind them so i thought i would tell them to you! check my insta @2ndspr1ng if you want the behind-the-emo juicy gossip.

lyrics

for all i say and do
i dont know how to talk to you 
anymore
rumor has it 
but it's true
that i am half in love with you
what a bore

oh what a tangled web we weave
oh how i never seem to sleep
im too busy thinking of things that can never be 

for all i mean to you
i don't know how much is true
probably nothing
but what you mean to me
is for some reason everything
see why it hurts

oh what a tangled web we weave 
oh how i never seem to sleep 
when will i learn to let you be 
it's never gonna work out

on and on 
it goes on and on
when will it stop?

for all i mean to you // second spring

hey!! all of these are unproduced voice memo songs of my past/ up thru this year! they all have different stories behind them so i thought i would tell them to you! check my insta @2ndspr1ng if you want the behind-the-emo juicy gossip.

lyrics

ok, it starts like this
because i can't see you 
this might get a little weird
i'll do my best
you do the rest
i hope that someday you'll appear
maybe in my bedroom 
si vous voulez
or maybe in your living room
nous pouvons parler
nous avons parler

i can see you sitting there
in my mind
tell me what are you thinking of
i'm glad we have all this time
it's so good to have forever
it's so good to not exist
you are just a portrait of a ghost
and all i need is this

except wait 
there has to be more
you can't keep on floating through doors
don't mind me
i'm just scared of being ghosted
cuz i find all of my lovers
in the graveyards that they've haunted

haunt me 
don't you want me
little ghost

portrait of a ghost // second spring

hey!! all of these are unproduced voice memo songs of my past/ up thru this year! they all have different stories behind them so i thought i would tell them to you! check my insta @2ndspr1ng if you want the behind-the-emo juicy gossip.

lyrics

my mother doesn't love him anymore
there's secrets hidden in these doors
i'd like to skip school because
i think that i'm depressed
but instead i sit
and write these songs
and act like i'm not a mess
yeah instead i sit and write these songs
they let me be a mess

i'm everyone and everything
i dont have an identity
but i think i'll be okay
i think i'll be okay
i want to live in the future
cuz i think im better there
but im stuck in the present
missing the moments
watching life pass me by 

i want to love myself for who i am
but who am i 
be like the holy father and
forgive every little sin, yeah
i want to dance
and be in love
with no deeper thinking of
but i think i'll be okay 
yeah we've all been there anyways
i think ill be ok
i hope

we've all been there // second spring

hey!! all of these are unproduced voice memo songs of my past/ up thru this year! they all have different stories behind them so i thought i would tell them to you! check my insta @2ndspr1ng if you want the behind-the-emo juicy gossip.

lyrics

embarrassing, i am 
holding on to pipe dreams
every time that i can 
(which is always)
different 
but also the same
but it don't matter what they say
it all begins when you say my name

say my name
cause me pain

lonely i am 
i'm not making lots of plans
i just like to pretend that i am
one track mind
and swollen heart
tho im always ending
at the start

with poison lungs
i learned to breathe
and i remember everything
with poison lungs
my thoughts can breathe
and i don't listen when i speak