spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4lwq80jSYhe7jYi6SQRGpJ?si=3972c9994a224673

p. zbeatz, b2nny, spoder
mixed by me and b2nny
with @b2nny
happy holidays
note: sorry abt the high end, it will be fixed from now on, listen on like 80% volume 

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[spoder]
every thought up in my brain
every problem that i had
it all comes right back to you
don't you come here and break my rules love

remember what i said bout winter?
i'll have a couple cold nights but i swear that it'd get better
and i'll run back to you
but you've been falling apart
building back my roof, again

why you acting so tough for no reason?
when you're on the damn floor fucking bleeding
dirt up on your name
i don't want to be so pessimistic
all these people lame
but i really feel like i've been missing

a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh
a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh

[b2nny]
don’t know how to contact you
when you way in the back of a filled up room
it’s when you're lost in my mind
caught in my head
i feel the pressure
i'd rather be dead
than be alive at this time feeling nothing at all
i'd rather smash my fucking brain on this whole damn wall
don’t want a second alone
to bathe in my thoughts
thought that i canceled tonight but i guess we can take a walk for a minute
under the flashing street lights
don’t see me winning
this moment never feel right
to me, to you, to any watchers watching
i knew this wasn't the night

[spoder]
a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh
a hug or some human contact and,
i'm falling
and i don't have the will to get back up
so for lack of better words, i'm stuck
i've been praying hard that i get some better luck oh

human contact w/ b2nny

"petrichor" - the distinctive, earthy smell of rain in the air — sometimes detectable before any rain has fallen.

oh i know it sounds insane 
to say 
it seems okay to 
fill your place with time 
oh 
and the days pass 
through my gaze
as i wander 
straight through the slaughter
you made
was all of it worth it now?
and i won’t accept my fate 
the weeds overgrown
but im one step away 
from the good in this place 
so hold on.

petrichor

i've lost it
no passion i'm exhausted
no rest i swear i'm worse than you
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god
mother i've grown so distant
condolence for the way i'm living
spoke too many lies
i'll pack all my bags and i'll move out tonight
but i gave it a try
spoke too many lies
i'll pack all my bags and i'll move out tonight
the strongest of hues are impaling your eyes
although i'm not perfect i gave it a try
i gave it a try
gave it a
i've lost it
no passion i'm exhausted
no rest i swear i'm worse than you
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god
mother i've grown so distant
mother i've grown so distant
mother i've grown so distant
it's bad in the fall, get farther from god

distance

8102023340AM (idea)

give it a month or two, i’ll break my shoes in
cross my hands, it’s so confusing
just tell me how to do it right
just tell me how to do it
don’t you act like i’m clueless
in a month i’ll be cooling
gotta get it for my brothers cause my brothers show me love
you put my head inside the dirt uhh
tell them that i’ll die for them
got me wishing on the stars on them
it’s in my best interest you’re safe and not crying
say hi to my momma, don’t know that i’m fighting
should’ve texted you back, didn’t have the words to reply and
i’m stuck up on things i should’ve forgot like years ago
it’s fuck it though

months

ACTIVE SHOOTER

li.sten.to/tansea-s4tc

Lyrics:
If you couldn’t tell, I’m broken
Think it’s kinda odd you didn’t notice
Why you think I’m never really joking?
Cus’ I could never really stay focused

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Would you really do me like that?
Would you really spit on my name?
I don’t really want to fight back
But I’d do it to just keep you safe

Just know that I’m a call away
It never hurts to speak
But I can’t let you go, yeah

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go
I can’t let you go

If you couldn’t tell, I’m broken
Think it’s kinda odd you didn’t notice
Why you think I’m never really joking?
Cus’ I could never really stay focused

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

Gotta tell myself “onto the next one”
If you ever asked I’d never tell ya
Life is like a movie, I’m an extra
And yet I never smiled for the camera

ALL PLATFORMS

smileforthecamera (p. me)

i wasted all my time on you
i moved to a new city its big out here all alone
(alone)
you said youll be back in a month
i guess i got my hopes up for nothing
i feel so disgusted
cant believe your lying to me 
why were you the one i trusted
why did i put all my love in you?
you said everything i wanna hear
you said that its my fault i been chasing
i love the complacence 
my heart i left vacant all for you
all for you 
love your smile
its been awhile

i see you standing there next to another guy
happier then you and i
i can see it in your eyes
under the city sky 
standing with another guy
happier then you and i 
i can see it in your eyes
under the city sky
sky
sky
under the city sky
sky
sky
happier then you and i

its been a year now
i still think about you there and here now
i wonder if your doing okay
i wonder if you remember my face
i wonder if you call out my name 
while your laying in bed
next to the man of yours dreams
hes prollly wishing i was dead
but hey atleast im in your head
up all night
i cant sleep
insomnia killing me
i cant stop thinking about 

you next to another guy
happier then you and i
i can see it in your eyes
under the city sky
you next to another guy
happier then you and i
i can see it in your eyes
under the city sky
sky 
sky
happier then you and i
i
i
under the city sky.

city sky

七尾旅人のサーカスナイトを青葉市子がカバーしたやつが好きで、これはその真似です。

months

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