give it a month or two, i’ll break my shoes in
cross my hands, it’s so confusing
just tell me how to do it right
just tell me how to do it
don’t you act like i’m clueless
in a month i’ll be cooling
gotta get it for my brothers cause my brothers show me love
you put my head inside the dirt uhh
tell them that i’ll die for them
got me wishing on the stars on them
it’s in my best interest you’re safe and not crying
say hi to my momma, don’t know that i’m fighting
should’ve texted you back, didn’t have the words to reply and
i’m stuck up on things i should’ve forgot like years ago
it’s fuck it though

months

demo track (lost original project file n only had this demo version)
logo in cover art by @myrosaryblade
produced by andriano haeckel
mixed and mastered by me
lyrics by me



You say that I’m dumb, (You say that I’m dumb)
You said it could never be and I’m worthless 
You’re ruining the fun, (Do I deserve it?)
Falling from out the sky, to the surface
Couldn’t get it right, get it by to you
You’ve been on my mind, every night, for the past week
Just set a time, anytime, I wanna see you
(I’m terrified)
And if I, (If I)

If I found you
Inside of a coffin, then I’d choose 
To stand there and sob, girl, 'cause I’d lose
Everything inside this world that meant to me
(You’re my everything and anything)

Well, god damn
I’m falling apart, girl, but you don’t care
You leave in a month, girl, it’s not fair
So why would I waste my time with anything you do?
Oh, why don’t you tell me like all you know?
I can tell you’re the center piece to everything that holds
My future and everything, girl, you’re all I want
But you’re switching sides
(All my life, couldn’t help but think)

You say that I’m dumb, (You say that I’m dumb)
You said it could never be and I’m worthless, (I’m worthless)
You’re ruining the fun, (Do I deserve it?)
(Falling from out the sky, to the surface)

If I found you, (Found you)
Inside of a coffin, then I’d choose, (I’d choose)
To stand there and sob, girl, 'cause I’d lose, (I’d lose)
Everything inside this world that meant to me
(You’re my everything and anything)

(If I found you)
(Inside of a coffin, then I’d choose)
(To stand there and sob, girl, 'cause I’d lose)
(Everything inside this world that meant to me)
(You’re my everything-)

dumb - demo [p. andriano haeckel]

had to start this year off with something different than usual, im hoping to drop every month :] i love you thank you for pressing play

crazy

thank you again, be ready for a lot to hear this year.

empty

get back up put your shoes on
the job ain't finished make a new song
and watch like everyone around you get a move on
so get a move on
i smoke another bowl
i wanna be alone
i've seen like everyone surpass me
oh god i miss my family
i'll make it where you can be
just throw me a lifeline or something i can hold
and it's only september how'd it get so cold
do you remember the winter on the phone
it's getting close to december so you know where to go

don't go yet i love you my darling
i feel it rush through my skin and my bones
is it that hard to tell that i've lost it
don't go

vent song

prod. @catfight1

@catfight1 :
ill hold the warm gun
if you hold the camera
i thought i could do this
but im just an amateur 

jayne: 
if i got some cold hands 
could you be the fire?
i hate when you leave
it adds fuel to the lighter

catfight:
so hold up the cam cord
and tie down my arms 
watch as the tears fall
and wait for the gunshot

jayne:
cause now that your gone
who do i have to hold the camera
got myself in the mirror 
telling me to put my hands up

cause i got a warm gun 
you hate when im violent 
take pictures of me 
ill change with the new lighting
cause you want the old me 
but you hated him too
i wish i could go back 
but the past made a fool

mf toxic 
you think that im clueless?
i been own 
all the time 
i been thru this
i dont wanna talk 
all you do is assume shit
i dont wanna talk 
all you do is assume shit
i been in my room making songs
hella music
if that shit dont hit 
then i wont fucking use it
spent all my money 
on shit im never using
might buy a new bag 
for a bitch i call useless

catfight:
ill hold the warm gun
if you hold the camera
i thought i could do this
but im just an amateur 

jayne: 
if i got some cold hands 
could you be the fire?
i hate when you leave
it adds fuel to the lighter

catfight:
so hold up the cam cord
and tie down my arms 
watch as the tears fall
and wait for the gunshot

jayne:
cause now that your gone
who do i have to hold the camera
got myself in the mirror 
telling me to put my hands up

warm gun ft. cat fight

how do i tell u

Feel it gritting on my teeth
And cryings for the weak
I was in Turkey months ago
Everything was really cheap
Bought a watch for you out there
And it broke
You said the thought was really sweet
I’ve been pleading on my knees
I just wish you wouldn't leave
I hate that every song is sad
I wish that I could lighten up
I'm finding comfort in the fact
One self is more than enough

oneself demo

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