Beauty

love

sorrow w/ kaido

produced by LARUE MADE IT

ig www.instagram.com/4javan/

you killin' my heart
but you look divine when you do it
it took some time when i turn around
you did me dirty but i aint hear a sound

havent seen u in 500 days baby
would you still believe me
its been bout 500 days baby
just wondering if you love me

now
were talking bout now and forever
i still smell my scent on your sweater 
i know you know 
you know that i am better

sending me messages 
wondering where i been
send in my location 
so you can stop all this
all these thoughts in my head
thought about the things you said
following my old footsteps

now
were talking bout now and forever
i still smell my scent on your sweater 
i know you know 
you know that i am better

you killin' my heart
but you look divine when you do it
it took some time when i turn around
you did me dirty but i aint hear a sound

(no oh oh oh oh oh)

divine

@1spoder
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produced by @prodbyjoshwa
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[lyrics]

(spoder)
you drunk back at 4 am
this shit ain't that easy
tryna find a purpose hoping someone gonna need me
i got a ring, "hello?"
get to the guap, gotta go
i move the pack and i'm gone (bye)
i knew for a fact you were wrong

and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong
and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong

(javan)
something doesn't feel right
feel like i'm dancing with the devil
for like half my life
our love ain't that stable
i been looking for a change
hoping you would do the same
can you tell
this love ain't right for me
lying on the floor 
i been thinking if i'm being used
actin if she cared (cared, cared)
i'm like so confused
why you acting so recluse
i mean it's up to you
you been acting such a fool
i'll just head out soon

(something doesn't feel right
feel like i'm dancing with the devil
for like half my life
our love ain't that stable
i been looking for a change
hoping you would do the same
can you tell
this love ain't right for me)

woke up from the floor
i wanted something more
i'm the one you should adore
(dore, dore, dore)
woke up from the floor
i wanted something more
i'm the one you should adore
(dore, dore, dore)
oooohhhh

(spoder)
and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong
and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong

exploit w/ spoder (joshwa)

prod me

To be honest with you
I don’t know if I am really alright 
Love in disguise
I’ll be just fine 

Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away 
Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away 

She said alladin why you so different
Trust me i change every season 
You know i gotta keep my distance
But now im feelin so different
(You, you, you) 
Calling you my bluff (uh huh)
One I can trust (uh huh)
One who I love (uh huh)

To be honest with you
I don’t know if I am really alright 
Love in disguise
I’ll be just fine 

Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away 
Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away

isolated

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produced by nate & jacob
written and performed by me
twit & ig: @1spoder
nate ig: @__nerc
jacob ig: @jacoblincoln_

something more upbeat for next one i promise
thank you for listening :)

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i'm failing right down
you're a waste of time, wasted mine
waste of life
keep my feelings fortified
tell the teller if you really wanna die (die, oh die)
would you, would you put your trust in me
would you, would you turn your back on me (i tried, i try)
stay on weird timing (i stole this from humza)
i'm lost but i'll find it
an anecdote alive in
a pit in my stomach
responsible for pain
there's this thought in my-

beaten right down
a waste of life
i'll build a wall of concrete lies
i should've told you
i can't focus well
your soft spoken yell

head on the floor
walk in circles
you're all i adore
i'm still hurt though
is this how it's supposed to end?
is this how it's supposed to end?

i gave my all
you like watching me fall
i don't get it at all
whether right or it's wrong

teller

Wave to Earth - love.

not a fan of confrontation
you're so overrated
spent the couple dollars that i had on medication
ma told me i'd be fine as long i stuck to all the pages
oh i'll find my way
alone
i'll run through like every province to find somewhere like home
not a dollar in my pocket and my shoes too small for feet
had my brothers all worried, told them i'd be fine next week
not a fan of confrontation
you're so overrated
spent the couple dollars that i had on medication
ma told me i'd be fine as long i stuck to all the pages
last june i had a dream and i don't think i've been the same since
p me

pages

The perfect pair drill remix Slowed down

For as long as I can remember I have been lost and depressed. I've given tastes of what my music will sound like after my training and it's all lead to this point. The past month has been high stress and extremely brutal on my mental. I give you an actual album. This is dedicated to everyone who is just like me. Scared. Alone. Lost. Suicidal. And depressed. This is the last time you'll hear from me until late autumn / early winter. The best way to experience this is through the stream. I hope you can understand what I'm saying and what I've gone through. This is also dedicated to Paul Alexander. A skateboarder who's story inspired me to make this. You are not alone in this cruel world.

My life is torn2piece$.

By it don't mean I gotta quit.

Neither do you.

Thank you for vibing with me. And keeping me alive.

It truly has meant the world.

- Burney

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