my pain grows silently im solipsist when i fall in the wrong direction

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Satan's lullaby(w/VIRUS)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khUV37yUumQ


dont tell me fucking shit
stop pulling on my strings
tried telling you before
but you just wont seem to quit
im not throwin in 

im making myself known
and im ignoring inside tones
the race just started here we go
im not stopping till we dead
im fucking in

start (prod OmenXIII) (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

MISS U SPENCE <3
FT https://soundcloud.com/barrenwaste
PROD @GREAF
mixed by @prohibeo

gizmo

Shitt, I still miss my fam and my friends but I swear that most of all I miss my bro lil spence, whip tha Acura out Tha pad smokin Newport cigarettes, I still think think about those times, little stress it was the best, but,

Now I gotta grow up, but I'm still wastin my money on green stuff ta roll up, you can eat my dick, if, ya don't know us, and I still ain't shit but I ain't gunna slow up now


Codiene, high - c, back woods fulla terps, Im without a place to be,

Feels like I'm living in a deam, but I'm missin the feelin of when I had you next to me girl

Naw wait, fuck every stupid bitch that twisted ripped my life ta shits,

that's a pain that Ill never forget,

I'm great, I could lie until I'm rich, if you granted me wish, I wouldn't take that shit cuz

I never fucked with my life, and there aiint a single thing, that could make it all right,

Everyday I'm up all night, with the music in my head, it's the only thing I like,

It's so hard to love me you don't wanna look at me I'm fuckin ugly

Fuck me let me disintegrate,

deep into the soil and deteriorate

barren

before i say a word
please listen close this time
i said this all before 
but Ive really lost my mind
i know you're always worried
my fingers looks so blurry
crossing over to a new world
i love the way you look so lovely 
my self worth is so ugly
i am absolutely nothing

contradicting thoughts
read back on the screen
makes no sense to me
its all a dream
i can’t be thinking these
dreadful thoughts about
you and me

I’m living in a void now
just testing all my patience 
with no one to try and say shit
its just a statement
that I’m making
please no mistaking

deteriorating ft barren (prod. GREAF)

i undermined whats undetermined 
whats on your mind i dont mind silence 
i prefer it i know i deserve it
i feel so imperfect
i work so hard for myself
and it never comes out worth it 
but we can work it out 
we can work this out 
i know my demons hurt you 
i hope you're not afraid 
i know i dont deserve you 
i think its all the same 
i dont think its gonna change
all the things ive seen inside my fucking brain
tell me the same
people live and 
love then 
they leave
what can i give when you already have every fucking thing
you're so pristine worth more than diamonds 
but im stuck in things ive seen 
people live 
and love then they leave
and i just wish 
i could give you every thing
i dont have shit 
im so dirty you're so clean 
and innocent
sometimes i feel like im mean 
what does it mean 
why have we seen the things we've seen 
its part of we 
its part of you and part of me 
the worlds a screen
i think we're stuck inside tv
our lifes a show 
a comedy and tragedy 
cus people live and 
love then 
they leave
what can i give when you already have every fucking thing
you're so pristine worth more than diamonds 
but im stuck in things ive seen 
people live 
and love then they leave
and i just wish 
i could give you every thing
i dont have shit 
im so dirty you're so clean

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Live, Love, Leave  (prod ʎpoqou x ÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ )

growing up sucks (prod. frander)

yunggoth✰ - face first (prod. meltycanon)

face first

Didn’t mean to ever break your heart 
but at least the pain keeps you makin art,
Aint shit cool about takin bars 
But u got sum problems that facings hard
We could take this place and then make it ours 
Just a couple of dogs out chasing cars 
Or a few kids out playing in the yard 
who realize recreations a work of art 
And boredoms a lack of imagination 
thats why theres shapes in the constellations
Practice actualizing your aspirations 
Work hard maintain that concentration 
dont get sidetracked by your aggravation
know that joy is stronger than agitation 
I know you’ll reach your destination 
Inhale exhale feel the circulation
Just breathe

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷  - Breathe

Sticks and stones may break my bones 
But words can kill my soul 
I could sleep outside don’t need a home 
Just need to fill this hole 
instruct myself to self destruct 
So I feel in control 
Its been so long since things went wrong 
When can I feel whole 
Its beautiful 
The way it falls apart 
ive never seen pain be that intoxicating.
its horrible 
The way it comes together 
When you know it won’t work out forever.  
Step by step we move along 
To the beat of our own song
Everyone hears different music 
Nothings right or wrong 
So keep it moving keep it goin
Dont slow ur down pace 
i try to hurry up but just end up 
Running in place
motivated by the pain I feel 
When I see ur face
I still think ur beautiful 
It just isnt the same

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Oh.

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - All Hail Discordia

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Purgatory

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Take Ur Time (Prod. $en$ei $lime)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Garden Of Eden // Innocence Lost

i don’t expect you to be submissive 
If I’m transgressive or aggressive 
I don’t intend to be dismissive 
Non attentive or oppressive 
I dont pretend to be cohesive 
Or impressive or permissive
i jus try to be expressive 
And progressive not regressive 
I’ve accepted that my memory’s repressive 
And selective 
Im still working on my self 
Im still crossing off my check list 
I know that you try to help 
And feel helpless when I’m depressive
And I’m sorry
That I’m broken 
And it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning
As I attempt to maintain control 
And I’m learning
That a fire is hard to hold 
But I’m okay
And I think its cause I’m cold 
And that numbs me 
Or at least thats what I’m told
Puzzle pieces fit together til we see th bigger picture 
Smaller patterns create larger patterns with their Lil mixtures
But as I solve the puzzle I see I'm not in the picture 
So I'm staring at u standing there with someone else's figure
Well go figure I'm not perfect I just create the perfect mixture 
Of aggression and depression in my body like some elixir 
And I don't need the scripture like my father or the liquor 
I self medicate in other ways I guess you get th picture 
So I solve these little puzzles getting more frantic by the second 
And as the picture becomes clearer I always start to second guess it 
It's like the puzzles just a mirror and I'm scared of my reflection 
So I hid behind my fear and I suppress my own depression 
So I'm sorry 
that I'm broken 
and it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Purgatory

David

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