cover, prod and vocals by yonklolz.

lyrics:

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

You misuse your influence
Talk down on everything
Desire to not exist
One like and everything flips
And I can't tell you why
My existence is a lie
Bitch, I'm talking
Please don't try to speak
I've been on the low
For the past few weeks
I've been struggling
And I'm sick of it
Make me feel like shit
What's the point of it

Feeling drained completely
Been on the edge for a few weeks
For a few weeks
Bitch, don't test me
Living on the edge
Of insanity
Yeah, you raked me up
With the rest of the leaves
I can't stop thinking that I'm feeling so weak

And I can't seem to find what's real
My mind is a painting but every day it peels
And I wrote so many songs about you
The pictures on my wall all lost their value
And maybe one day, I'll get around you
But this time, I'll just fall

I can't tell if this is real
And I can't seem to swallow my fears
But yet you told the world that I was trying to heal
Cause I'm swimming in an ocean and no one will wipe my tears

spotify

don't test me!

prod
@1hallow
@suyuki
mixed by @janeremover
[lyrics]
im starting realize that its my fault
cause i dont know where i woke up 
or what we did last night
she tell her mama that im awful
heard he was talking, left his body
where it wont see the light
its 2am, i feel my nose sting 
fuck, i heard my phone ring
i promise ima call you back
too intoxicated, keep it lowkey
please dont say you know me
cause no one ever had my back

all to say, where i've been,
is a mouthful
i cant blame, what you said,
cause im awful
we're on and off like every second
say "i love you" and regret it
cant stay off the pharmaceutics 
all the shit, that you said, 
is a mouthful
say im dumb and misled
guess im awful
you tried your hardest to forget it 
you still call me when your stressing
blame it on the pharmaceutics

i know
that even when you're with him 
you feel alone
and i wish i could help you, but it's
too late now, the sun's gone down
and its cold, its so cold
and when the withdrawls kick, and you feel so sick
well just know
you're still home

all to say, where i've been,
is a mouthful
i cant blame, what you said,
cause im awful
we're on and off like every second
say "i love you" and regret it
cant stay off the pharmaceutics 
all the shit, that you said, 
is a mouthful
say im dumb and misled
guess im awful
you tried your hardest to forget it 
you still call me when your stressing
blame it on the pharmaceutics

awful (hallow + suyuki)

@1glaive
pitched up for no strike down btw

glaive - i will follow you into the dark

olivia rodrigo - drivers license (cover) by "glaive"

lyrics:
i guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me (ha)
because you said forever, now i drive alone past your street (fuck)

i've been dodging red lights, stop signs
i still see your face in these white lights, why do i
i wish you were all mine
...

glaive - i will follow you into the dark

3boose