in another life i was destined to be a vocalist in a shitty post hardcore band that disbanded due to petty internal drama

anyway epic song so awesome, some of my longest sustains ever lol
original by pierce the veil (top 5 bands ever)
purely for fun and practice (srsly if u wana improve ur singing cover a song like this) O_O ep soon i hope (i've been endlessly revisiting and scrapping songs somone pls help)

cover art x.com/2uaiueo/status/1982076365089464440

this is also the first song in months where i didn't pitch it up in post savor it
xoxo (this will probably be the norm from now on anyway lol)

Bury me in the bedroom where I
I can sing you to sleep all night
Put me next to the open window, promise me a second time
'Cause I don't wanna leave without you buried by my side
I'd rather kill the one responsible
For falling stars at night
'Cause they fall all around me
The night can be deadly
And they'll never take us alive
(Can you chase away the darkness?)
To live in love and die
Last night, she recited every reason she's fine
So if we're heading there together at the same time
You sing while I drive
Move like a fugitive tonight
(Dance on the ambulance) 
Because I would rather spend my life vacations in bed
With you like drunken summer kites
And this is only a test
Sober and scaring me to death
They'll never take us alive
To live in love and die
And I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're contagious
I would kiss you even if you were dead
Would somebody make me go blind for the rest of my life?
'Cause I'd do anything to hold your hand
And I don't care if you're sick
I don't care if you're contagious
Oh, no
Would somebody make me go blind for the rest of my life?
'Cause I'd do anything, anything, anything
They'll never take us alive
'Cause I'll chase away the darkness
I'll live in love and die
I joined the party for the recently blind
So if we're heading there together, you can sing all night
I'm gonna tear out the thread one by one from your skin
'Till your bones feel embarrassed from all the attention
Kiss me while I drive

i don't care if you're contagious (cover)

track 2 - #tryingtillidie

with my bro @haunted_sad

@haunted_sad  
im so hollow to the core u nvr meant it 
u ripped my heart in two i guess tht ur a liar too
its 4am bby i jus lay awake
ya ur the one tht pushed me jus far down the drain
ya each day baby ya tht jus passed me 
i dnt wanna miss u i jus wanted to kiss u
im counting days baby till im jus gone
im #tryinguntilidie till im succeeding 
but im putting my feet 4ward tryna move on
tryna move on ya baby damn without u
ya ur the one tht pushed me so far astray
cant u see baby that i trusted u?
yeah ur the one tht betrayed me.. *yeahh yeahh
cant u see im nvr alright baby?

@556renzo
u wanted me 2 lose,, girl wats up w u?
bae u were my everything,, bae i needed u
smokin allat gas tryna get away frm u
get away frm u, tryna get away frm u
i dont want u 2 come back 2 me
cause u weren't there when u're all i need
broke me into pieces, bae cant u c?
#tryingtillidie till i succeed
2 high, 2 high
smokin allat gas, imma try till i die
2 high, 2 high
smokin allat gas, till i die

#tryingtillidie w/haunted_sad (!yukik0)

end this bad year

@haunted_sad
i didnt need u baby i guess im leaving anyways
im tryna jus move forward 
im tryna jus forget u
staring at my bedroom ceiling writing another song about u
i scream out jus 4 u 
its been years but i still cant forget u ://

@ilyporo
crashing out
hate life without u
and i never ever doubt u
but u stole my value
a long time ago
a new me but im the same
ill never let u change me
have to be loyal to what i feel

@haunted_sad
im hurtin u cant see it
scars on my arm im #bleeding
im hurtin give my life a reason 
soul shattered into pieces
i thought tht u were my life?
u left me lonely drowning 
now baby i jus help me
gotta move forward without u
cryinginside but im doing #bettr
4am rewinding time baby
im wishing that i nvr met her
cold winter night im deader 
idgaf i think that im all alone..

@sensuku
you changed me- forever, i dont know
you cant save me from this hell
held u closer till i broke
held u closer till i-
i keep you in my heart
i cant cry when its all lost
hate me more than myself
it’s a mistake on my part

cant see- is it all gone?
im falling apart now
theres nothing left of me..

without u theres not much left in me
without u i breathe in
air so cold it stings me
i wish i could look forward

imdyinginsidebutatleastimdoingbetter w/ ilyporo + sensuku  (death)

first song on fl and with new mic omg!! 

lyrics: 

it's getting too much to bear 
i cannot figure it out
and im so tired of bullshit
not treating me well
and im so done with commotion
that's why i stay in a shell 
and I don't know what u hoping 
rather stay by myself 
i feel like im in the open
don't see an exit
im making a choice 
hopefully i don't regret it
im hearing my voice 
and it's telling me to send it
i know that it's wrong
but the feeling is so tempting 

you don't get the message 
you don't understand 
i don't want your attention 
i don't know what's your plan
i don't know what you doing 
why would i even care?
im so done with excuses 
this shit isn't fair



isnt fair (prod. yotocapone)

@s0lemn @okmax @yuk0o

xene:
i dnt even do em drugs, but ill do it4u
ya i keep dat blicky tuck, nd im shootin4u
crash my whip off the lot, yea i skidded 4u
when im lookin at the stars i b wishin 4u

i been takin these drugs
doin 2 much
fuckin it up
it aint worse den losin u
spark up a blunt
smoke in my lungs
it'd be a loss
if i werent choosin u

shawty know i got it bad 4her
bad 4 herr
im in luv w everythin she do
yh she know i got it bad 4her
bad 4her
im in luv w everythin she do

she got me fallin
yh i fell in luv
bbg im pourin
yh im pourin up
yh im thinkin truly
bby ur the one
bae i knw ur the one

s0lemn:
take back if its all bad 4u
cuz i dont even feel sad 4u
its bettr its over
im still never sober
dope on my tongue
im not thinkin it over
im tryin my best
2many pills
u cn put me to rest
my life is a mess
live every moment
im filled w regret

i dnt even stay around
u dnt even see me
i wont evn play around
u dnt wna be me
took hella drugs n i did it 4u
hope wen i die, youll b missin me2

note: shoutout s0lemn thats my brother fr <3

for you +s0lemn (okmax, yuko)

reupload, new revision

(yeah uhuh uhhh
yeah uhuh uhhh
yeah uhuh uhhh
yeah uhuh uhhh

girl you look so good in that white dress
makes me wanna take ur hand
girl u look so fine tonite
can i take u for a dine)

you look so good in that white dress
makes me wanna take ur hand
girl u look so fine tonite
can i take u for a dine
you look so good in that white dress
makes me wanna hold ur hand
girl u look so fine tonite
can i take u for a ride

girl i can take u on a date
cook up meals n put it in ur plate
i will take u everywhere u want
just say the word n i'll be urs
just say the word n i'll come to ya
do you, like how u want it yuh
move my body like how u want me
catching these is what ur gon do
but girl let's 4get that, ik what u want
i knew that u liked me, right from the start
walk down the altar with u as my wife
my little princess, u r my life
I'll fly out of asia so i can go meet ya
so i can go see ya, can't wait till i kiss ya
can't wait till hug ya, can't wait till i date ya
can't wait till i please ya

(fell in luv at first sight
she was shy, can tell by her eyes
asked her name and she asked me "why?"
woah woah)

you look so good in that white dress
makes me wanna take ur hand
girl u look so fine tonite
can i take u for a dine
you look so good in that white dress
makes me wanna hold ur hand
girl u look so fine tonite
can i take u for a ride


beautiful (kyoshi)

this was really an amazing year and im glad i met lots of great people<3
ꉂ(˵˃ ᗜ ˂˵)
SPOTIFY AND YT SOON

lyrics
notice, im always here, so
know this, i want u more, not
farther, away from me, but
closer, right next to me girl

look into ur eyes, 
ik if there is something that u hide
and i been feeling lost
im loosing sight
i dont mean any harm
girl its alright

is there something wrong
i dont know why
but every single time
i see u sigh
i try to say that its ok
but u just cry
or maybe im 2 much and ur just shy

its another lie today
i dont care its way 2 late
ill do whetever u say
i just want u safe ok
its fine if u dont remember
things unsaid are sometimes better
its already late decemberr
now i luv u more than ever!
:DD

right next to me(me)

september-december

𝄞 ♩ ♪ ♪___♩. ♪ |♩ ♪ ♪___♩ 𝄇 ♩ ♪ ♪___♩. ♪ |♩ ♪ ♪___♩ 𝄂

1. + @akrzn
2. solo
3. + @assperrr
4. + @hrtshpdbd
5. + @owekko
6. solo
7. solo
8. + @1audiodiary + @ifanythingiloveyou
9. + @tsurugiblu
10. solo
11. @1audiodiary
12. solo
13. + @1plugsoon
14. solo

𝄢 ♩ ♪ ♪___♩. ♪ |♩ ♪ ♪___♩ 𝄇 ♩ ♪ ♪___♩. ♪ |♩ ♪ ♪___♩ 𝄂

s/o @l3sser-spirits + @1rxmi + @sanableu for music inspo

thanks everyone for 2025

winter ‘25 (w/ akrzn, asperr, hrtshpdbd, owekko, audiodiary, yeongseo, tsurugiblu, 1plugsoon)

Yakousei Electropop, inspired by anime OPs. 

>>> VISUALS: https://youtu.be/tPnEkTRS4fs
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This track went through many rounds of mixing/mastering over a few days and I now have 20 different versions of this song lol. This here is the final and best version.
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LYRICS:
Silent meanings buried under snow
Frozen feelings so cold, you could never shoulder
You and me, we’re standing on the snow
Chosen misdeeds we will never ever get over

So show me something genuine that would last forever
I’ll grant you your wish to be free from all that could ever hurt
I want you to say something that’ll clear this weather tearing our heart
Yukino Yukinoshita

Those lonely autumn nights we stood by
Lost all those dreams we left right behind
Count all those blessings we thought were lies
Wishing we could simply just turn back time

Ever since you chose to come into my life
I’ve turned much wiser
Everything we spoke about through those late nights
Made dark skies brighter
I’ll keep singing even if I’ve lost my lines
Wanna be certain that someday the stars will all align

So tell me what you’re thinking, say what’s on your mind
Like is the pain that we’ve been feeling, more than just frostbite
Cus I’ve been searching for the meanings, that’ll give us some light
While the snow is steady fallin, I’m needing your healing tonight

Winter feelings buried under snow
Melt these sealings and show me something bolder
Always dreaming of the things unknown
Mend and heal it before it start to moulder

I’ll show you something genuine, if you’ll give me your word
Off a drink, and I think, I will never turn sober
There’s no time to think, you don’t need to wait till summer makes a return
Yukino Yukinoshita

What we want is something genuine
But the truth never makes any sense
Falling snow keeps landing in our hands
Thus this winter never seems to end

(repeat hook)

You’re the sun that’ll melt this cold winter
The warmth from you’s all I ever needed
You’re the summer ending this winter
Yukino Yukinoshita

Yukinoshita ⋆⁺₊❅ (prod. HIK4RI)

shoutout to moz for this amazing beat!!

its the second time i have ever fallen in love
whats this feeling i don't want it too much
see your heartbeat and i don't want it to go

if its fine with u 
then i won't forget
you're an open book 
a story that i haven't read
did i take up all your time
was i missing all ur signs
24/7 waiting for u to hit my line

was it u that i was missing every second oh lord
this time i won't go and im breaking down your doors
im still sitting here lookin at 
lookin at your photos

sittin in that room yea i won't forget
for its the first time that we'd have ever met
you were scrolling thru i was on some bullshit
now i realized i didn't want to
no please don't go don't go don't go

if its fine with u then i want another chance
honestly don't know what was in my head
this time ill make it up to u

was it u that i was missing every second oh lord
this time i won't go and im breaking down your doors
im still sitting here lookin at 
lookin at your photos

im sorry if you felt uncomfortable it was never my intention
im only human i make mistakes but now i learnt my lesson
hold me softer now i want you in my arms
im missing you cuz you make me feel warm

every second (moz)

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hate my life but i hope i can make yours a little better
@4aia on discord i dont use anything else
@lightgardennn

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