She Hates Me

featuring @luvwillow

i know that you never really liked me
it's okay i only wanted your body
there's no way i'm gonna make it now
'cause i'm too burnt out and feel too let down
i hate myself and the way i think
somebody like you could ever be in sync
with my fucked up thoughts and bad ideas
for the first time i can see things clear

an acquired taste
so out of place
i could never look you in the face
maybe that's why you went mia
never knew the right words to say
thinking about you is pretty sad
how can i miss something i never had?
give me a chance and i'd run right back
i already know it's too late for that

i'm such a big loser
i can't find my words anymore
haven't been happy since age four
i'm lonely stuck here being poor
it's not my fault that you just suck
kill myself i'm a bastard who lost his luck
if i could take your pain away
i think i'd do it another day

even now i'm still hoping
at this point i'm just coping
never gonna get far
complaining with my guitar

an acquired taste ft. luvwillow

split my head in two
i like you more than i want to
fallen victim to human error
think i'd be better off dead
make my body glitch
maybe that's 'cause you're a bitch
all these questions never answered
running rampant in my head

i hate everything about you
why are you still on my mind?
i think about you all the time
day and night
i can't lie

you feel closer than you are
i see your face up in the stars
where i watch my mind go
i'm losing all of my hope
it feels so good to die though
i love to lie though
i'm dying inside
oh no
i should just tell you how i feel
but i can't explain
it's so surreal
don't want you to think any less of me
it's kinda sad really
i'm getting mad at myself

you've become an obsession
fuelling depression
i know you're no good for me
but i love to bleed
i want you out of my head
like someone better instead
i'm losing it
i'm going sped
didn't choose this shit
fill me with lead

i like you more than i want to

i can see you got a lot on your mind
but you're still in my brain
18 years was long enough
to be going on this way
when i taped my windows shut
i knew i'd gone insane
but i let things get so bad
it all made so much sense to me
you made things so bad too
should i express it all for you?

19 years passed by quick
there's alot inside my brain
this might've been long enough
it hurts to go on this way
when i taped my windows shut
could you tell i was insane?
you let things get so bad
that makes so much sense to me
cuz you made it so easy to
express it all for you


20 years have passed in a flash
do you even remember
the little boy i used to be
mom do you remember me?
when i taped my windows shut
it wasn't much to me
things hurt so bad all the time
and that makes so much sense to me
it's gonna be so easy to
express it all for you


express it all for you

Lyrics:

Cheer up, emo kid 
Don't know what you fucking did 
I won't let you have this validation 
I know you want me 
You want me to

Sorry to be the one who breaks it to you
But being such a chore is so 2004
This cosplay attitude is so forced and skewed 
Of course you'd wanna die if all you do is seclude 
Yourself from anything that's truly worthwhile... 

You don't accept the suffering in life
By sulking in it endlessly...
You suffer now, so you wouldn't later
Doesn't it all make
Such perfect sense?

Cheer up, emo kid 
Don't know what you fucking did 
I won't let you have this validation 
I know you want me 
You want me to

(Don't want you to fade!)
(From the picture!)

You don't accept the suffering in life
By sulking in it endlessly...
You suffer now, so you wouldn't later
Doesn't it all make
Such perfect sense?

Cheer up, emo kid 
Don't know what you fucking did 
I won't let you have this validation 
I know you want me 
You want me to

Cheer Up, Emo Kid

Listen on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7HBa4dju9jKrwcQKAAn0Wb?si=993d0e2464ca4219
Lyrics:

I crappily play 
Every fucking instrument in this song 
Because I have no friends
All I do is sit in my room alone 
So I'll do my best
NEET or Fried by Fluoride impression
I'm not in possession of talent  

Thought I was musicmaxxing
But apparently I was wrong 
This is yet another
Generic incelcore song 

I got 45 followers on soundcloud
So suck my dick you stupid bitch
I'm pulling numbers

Fried my brain 
As a teen
Browsed 4chan a bit too much
(A bit too much...)

Thought I was musicmaxxing
But apparently I was wrong 
This is yet another
Generic incelcore song 

I just wanted a cute femcel so I could hold her
And lover her
Start a nice family away from all this degeneracy 
Is that too much to ask?
And now I'm a music nerd
It's pretty absurd 
I know all the chord shapes and all of the scales
All the production tricks to make me heard 
Yet I'm still so alone...
All because I (All because I...)

Thought I was musicmaxxing
But apparently I was wrong 
This is yet another
Generic incelcore song

Generic Incelcore Song

Lyrics:

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do

When options are infinite
You're stuck in a limbo
Of stagnation and inaction
I won't forget

The times when I was
More than just another adult 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me 

Stagnation 
Kills me deep inside
It's all on me 
It's all on me 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me

They Told Me I Could Be Anything So I Became Nothing

Originally by NEET

Lyrics:

I don’t mean to be a weird guy
But it’s my blood it’s in my mind
I don’t know how to read social cues
I’m scared to make eye contact when talking to you

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking
I’m a social disaster

I feel like a fish up on land
Im out of control, I don’t understand
Why you’re laughing, was it something I said?
I’m just gonna shut up, never talking again

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking
I’m a social disaster

I’m an autism haver
Im fucked forever
I can never talk to you
Cuz I can’t take the pressure

Please Be Patient I Have Autism (NEET Cover)

and i cant take this shit no more
my blood spills out all on the floor
you promised everything to me
but all you did was ruin me

you have lips like razor blades
your words cut through my fucking veins
kiss my neck and bring me pain
my love was always in vain

darling take me back to before
i cant even look at your face anymore
darling i'm losing my mind
you make me want to fucking die

i've had enough of you
nothing you said was true
ran off to some fucking guy
the moment we were through
and i cant take this shit
hope you find someone who loves it

don't go don't go
darling youre all i know
please go please go
you make me feel so alone
don't go don't go
darling youre all i know
please go please go
better off with no home

darling take me back to before
i cant even look at your face anymore
darling i'm losing my mind
you make me want to fucking die

im just ur problem

Listen on spotify :3 https://open.spotify.com/album/7i9IAqXbv2Nk9wbFg5lhmj?si=-yyl_pZfS5eKNVjNEz3dlA

Lyrics: 

Stupid fucking manwhore
Don't you forget it
Where's your mommy, bitch?
Can't get satiated 
No better than any piece of meat
A depraved hedonistic freak

Oh I bet you feel like a big player
It's all fucked so you make yourself a slayer 
It's not punk rock, nor is it really cool
To be a kid in an ice cream shop
A goddamn fucking fool

Stupid fucking manwhore
Don't you forget it 
Where's your mommy, bitch?
Can't get satiated 
No better than any piece of meat
A depraved hedonistic freak

Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
You've got nothing else to offer me

Fuck!
Repent your sins now
Repent, repent, repent, repent 

You can call me trad I think it's pretty rad 
Porn sickness got you mad? Oh so very sad
Collecting coochie like they're medals not gonna do you any good 
I bet it's real fun to finally be understood 
Oh honey, I think that you've got it all wrong 
If it was your sister or your mom you wouldn't be acting so strong...


Stupid fucking manwhore
Don't you forget that 
Where's your mommy, bitch?
Can't get satiated 
No better than any piece of meat
A depraved hedonistic freak

Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
You've got nothing else to offer me

$tup1d M4nwh0r3

(he is cloaked to me
the voices give me nothing)

losing myself for you was my one mistake
delusions dragging me down, cant bury my fate
leaving everything behind 
you'll never see my face again

this is the fucking end 

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

i love when you enjoy my pain
fucking slash my wrists for you baby
bleeding out, its beautiful
that you don't care about me at all
don't change for me now darling
my disease is my love for you
no drugs could help me get through

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

dying 4 ur luv

(lyrics below) Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3ExGB125JobAjvf5QPLSYo?si=knpZYBv5R6Ox5CdL5nZMAQ

If they all hurt me
Why shouldn't I do the same? 
I keep it all in a bottle 
As I sit around, twirl and waddle

Into walls, smash my body on the concrete 
Put a brick on the gas and leave me in the backseat
I guess you were right all along

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

And I wanted you to suffer 
Just as much as I did 
But now I just want you to watch me,
Yeah, I just want you to watch me

Pour my guts out on your shirt
Self myself ablaze, for you it wouldn't hurt 
But to me, this means everything 
This means everything to me 

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

Your eyes, my pain
Your eyes, my pain

Watch Me Hurt Myself (And I'll Be Yours)

death_on_impact

Never

techie cover
on spot soon:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7JpwmseNrC07vpYePNjI9Q?si=CGLRlO85TM2AMIqtWaM-3g

lyrics:

dying in the same town i was born in
that's why i'm so fucking boring
never looking forward to the morning
waiting for the angel's calling
somewhere along the way i lost my soul
never knew anyone could be so cold
can't free myself from this stranglehold
a friendly face is worth more than gold

take me away from here
one of these days imma fucking disappear
make me shed another tear
i'm face to face with what i've always feared
(always feared)

nothing to do, nothing to say
i've nowhere to go, so i stand in the rain
nothing to love, nothing to be
what the fuck is wrong with me?
nothing to do, nothing to say
i've nowhere to go, so i stand in the rain
nothing to love, nothing to be
what the fuck is wrong with...

take me away from here
one of these days imma fucking disappear
make me shed another tear
i'm face to face with what i've always feared
(always feared)
dying in the same town i was born in

dying in the same town i was born in (DethTech Cover)

i feel like shit does every song have to be a hit
cause lately ive not been feeling it
i never know when youre gonna quit
i think im gonna quit i think im gonna quit

writing songs to make you smile
all the fucking while
your heart it drives me wild
my heart stopped check my vitals

is that what she said about me

i cant do this anymore please kill me

it's too bad, that what we had
was glamourized by movie ads
and fads, and trends, and you didn't tell her
and dads, and friends, birds of a feather
fall is over, get her number,
don't call back, don't say you love her
hang up fast, and just fucking ghost her
hang up fast, and just fucking haunt herrrrrrrr

cuz we got a spirit numberrrr
and will possess her
and make her wonder
if we don't like her

I think, we are
fucking, assholes

I think, we need,
to be, better

I don't got all the answers
spooky plans will never work,
I saw them behind the counter
spreading germs, with tongue and laughter
my ringtone blares, but there's no answer
for my spooky spell, didn't quite affect her
my spirit number
my spirit number
my spirit number

Spirit Number

BUTTERMILK BATH
WITH THE CRUD IN THE BOTTOM
I've been dreaming bout the day
where I'd tell her I love them

but the clock on the wall
keeps ticking and ticking
while the sweat on my hands
keep dripping and dripping

(TILL THE CLOCK FALLS
FIVE FINGER SHUFFLE
GLUE THE HANDS OF THE PAST
AROUND THE WAIST OF YOUR MISSES)

AND IT'S ALL IN THE WAY
WHENEVER I HUG YOU
AND ALL IN THE WAY
WHENEVER I TOUCH YOU
AND I CAN'T ESCAPE
THE STICK OF THE PASTE
SO WHY DON'T YOU
TAKE ME AWAY

cuz something about you
is not what I'm used to
Is not what I've seen
cept in 18 Movies

If all it took was a plan from the notebook
then 500 days
would dissolve like a cough drop
and all of the snot would seep into fabric
and all of the shame would be gone in a moment

(TILL THE CLOCK FALLS
FIVE FINGER SHUFFLE
GLUE THE HANDS OF THE PAST
ROUND THE WAIST OF YOUR MISSES)

AND IT'S ALL IN THE WAY
WHENEVER I HUG YOU
AND ALL IN THE WAY
WHENEVER I TOUCH YOU
AND I CAN'T ESCAPE
THE STICK OF THE PASTE
SO WHY DON'T YOU
TAKE ME AWAY

(shitty sample)

AND GIRLLL
I KNOW IT'S OVER
BUT I'LL HOLD ONTO YOU
LIKE YOU'RE MY FOUR LEAF CLOVER

(I'm Falling in love with you and I don't really know what to do, I've been twisting the words in my head with the thoughts of us screwing in bed) x2

Silly Songs For Unfortunate Breakups

Love Liquor

if God doesn't smite you, i will

(Lyrics  to all tracks below) Thank you for listening fren. This EP on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/4bORMCXR1A7lHs45mUENwa?si=De3NEOErS0WpT1TGr3JaYQ

[Lost an iPod?]

My name, my face
Is not important
But I think you should know
I have the best of intentions

Block the exits, make it matter
Worse ways to go than...

This is how it feels to liberate 
The body from the soul (from the soul)
An ancient heresy, can you believe I have faith
Once more?

Will I finally be beautiful if my form ceases to be?
And if so, would you care
To join me?

This is how it feels to liberate 
The body from the soul (from the soul)
An ancient heresy, can you believe I have faith
Once more?

Will I finally be beautiful if my form ceases to be?
Will I finally be beautiful if you die with me?

This is how it feels to liberate 
The body from the soul (from the soul)
An ancient heresy, can you believe I have faith
Once more?

[FtM]

They wanted you to be
So perfect and pure
Be attractive
And don't you dare feel insecure

Put your body out there for them
They tell you that it's all you're worth
But the boys, they don't have to go through this
The boys are judged for what they are...

Tear off what makes me an object
Cut me up until the pain goes away
Tear off what makes me an object
Don't want to be prey...

Reject my name, reject my face
Reject my body, reject myself
Reject my name, reject my face
Reject my body, reject myself

Tear off what makes me an object
Cut me up until the pain goes away
Tear off what makes me an object
Don't want to be prey...

Medicalized

(I cried) I cried over spilled milk
And I got medicalized
Declared defective (defective)
By everyone I know

Dead on arrival
Statistics so vile
They work against you

Classified, put on a file
To eternalize your struggles
Set in stone for the insurance company
Maybe I'm as neurotic as they say

(I cried) I cried over spilled milk
And I got medicalized
Declared defective (defective)
By everyone I know

Medicalized
Medicalized

[Sometimes It's Better Not To Know]

(My eyes)

Don't wanna have to remember
So turn my head
I don't wanna hear about it
Don't wanna hear about it at all

And if I die (if I die)
Without being honest
Please keep it to yourself
Please keep it to yourself

[There is no Misaki]

She's not out there
To save you
That's just fantasy

I waited and waited for so long
For her to show on my doorstep
But she never came

I saw her in a dream
And when I woke up it was the saddest thing
That I've ever felt upon my skin

Since that day
I'm not very talky
Because now I know
There is no Misaki

Lost An IPod?

my attempt at using an audio interface and DAW. I want to drive off a bridge

Gloom 4Ever

god of ear raping
my music is more about lyrics than how it sounds
willy rodriguez and edgemaster42 my main inspiration

grr

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