Mood.

i m  a  m e s s

🥉

💔☹️

Suicidal raps

Alternativ rock :S

sad nigga hours💔😭

Rape Me - Nirvana cover by Lorelei Carlson
Dopamine - EP
https://soundcloud.com/trip-hop-nation/best-of-female-vocals-special-edition-trip-hop-nation-friends
This track has just PREMIERED in Best Of Female Vocals series - special edition: THN FRIENDS mixed by trip-hop veteran Paul Cheeba
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Recorded at Melody Maker Productions
Los Angeles, CA



"Rape Me" Nirvana cover by Lorelei Carlson

Don't Threaten Me With A Good Time- Panic! At The Disco

Oliver ~ bape freestyle (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

OKAGA, CA SLOWED

Recovery

Space Bound

SOFA /// DRIP-133 - DEZ LORONA OFFICIAL

https://youtu.be/L6909hGY3tw
https://1cloudboys.bandcamp.com/track/frfr

Oliver ~ frfr (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DqXjreVzXyM

Oliver ~ work 2016 (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

Oliver ~ JOHNNY TSUNAMI (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

Oliver ~ wwaavvyy (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

im feelin lost and ion know where else to go now
ion really have a place to call my home now
everybody hatin and i feel so cold now
why do everybody make me feel alone like
x2

ive got so much shit to say 
baby take me from this place
i just really cannot stay 
tears are falling down my face
i feel colder every day
know they want me out their way
ill be gone ill be okay 
i just need some fucking space
i walk by i feel them hate 
wanna die cause i relate
wanna cry i feel insane
i get high but cant escape
would they love me if i change
am i lost am i too late
soon im dead i cannot wait
please dont love me its a waste

wanna die so fucking bad
youre the best ive ever had
wanna die when i look back
cause u always made me sad
cant get over shit im done
i just make another song
nothing helps im fucking numb
ill be gone bitch pass the blunt
ive been hurting for so long
baby kill me in your thongs
ive been dying all along
let me go where i belong
get me drunk bitch get me high
give me pills and let me vibe
when its time just let me die
im so tired of this life

let me die

iTunes

let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

LIL NARNIA - i'm sorry (feat. alliknowispain) [prod. charlie shuffler]

thank u foliage <3 

produced/mixed/mastered - @foliyear

i wasn't meant for this 
i'm so sorry that i am the way i am 
cut my body open 
make me whole again
i know you can
yeah i know you can 

i'm so sorry i can't love
i promise i'm trying it won't be enough 
i feel so much in my heart i'm empty at the same time
empty at the same time 
always wanna fucking die 
will i make it through the night

i wasn't meant for this i'm so sorry that i am the way i am

cut my body open make me whole again 
i know you can 

always wanna fucking die will i make it through the night
will i make it

Bury You (Prod. Foliage)

@lilhappylilsad

girl fuck who youve become
i still hate on who u were
u would always do me wrong
i was always drippin blood
baby u could never see, how u laid the blade on me
tryna fight the shit i feel, but some scars just never heal

yeah u did me wrong
so i made some songs
tried to numb the pain u gave me but the numbness never lasted long
yeah u did me wrong
w some other boys
and i tried to get me high like all the time but didnt work that long

im sorry, i never wanted u to hurt
like boy, im sorry
its behind us now lets skrrt and write our story
cause i love you and u love me please dont worry
please dont worry

shes like 4 am, wide awake and writing love notes
thats just who i am, i cant sleep girl i just want u
yr my only friend, u just get me like i get u
u fucked up back then, its okay girl know i love you 

make me whole again, i got blood all on my nightstand
im fucked up like damn, im so lost please take my hand and
let our love expand, fuck what anyone think
they dont know what we have, they dont know where we been

numb the pain (prod. lilhappylilsad)

do you even know (prod. LIL HEARTBREAK)

produced by haruhi
with lil happy lil sad

lie to me (with lil happy lil sad)

@lilhappylilsad @teenpregnancy

lil happy lil sad:

imma break down soon
in the same old room
that i always do
i feel so alone 

make some beats and smoke
pray i make it soon
pray they buy my shit
cause im so damn broke

girl im so damn cold
i might freeze to death
rollin up some dope
smoking trees for stress

fuck the life i had
i dont want it back
fuck the friends i had
they just made me sad

now its me and her
bout to fuck the world
we dont need no help
we came up from dirt

i still hate myself
thats a side of me
wanna kill myself
and ive tried im weak

mom would drive me in
everytime i did
i would ask to leave
and theyd give me pills

that shit on repeat
every other week
they would numb me down
till i couldnt speak

teen pregnancy:

lay me down
i dont wanna die
i cant sleep alone
need u here tonight

you were everything
you were my god damn life
now its all fucked up
and i wont sleep tonight

i was snorting pills
you were up all night
i swear i couldnt feel
i was so damn high

liquor in my blood
you were all i want
i gave you everything
i feel so unloved

you finally got exactly what you want
you were off getting fucked and i was so fucked up
fuck the wedding ring fuck this life i lead
got me feeling numb doing bumps off keys

i dont wanna live
tried to kill myself
girl ill numb you too
take your life as well

i wanna watch you bleed
she gets numb for me
lets kill ourselves
so i can sleep

lil numb w/ Teen Pregnancy (prod. lilhappylilsad)

production by jay vee
vocals by shinigami

@ihateshinigami
full project together soon

grew up too fast
like a bullet breaking thru the glass
remember that
fell asleep in every single class
i hate the fact
that ive become an insomniac
i hate the fact
that im never ever going back

cant even say that im feeling sad
i cant help but dwell on everything i had back when i was a kid
all those emotions they cease to exist

the world was so new woke up bright every day
now im just jaded its faded to grey
and i lay in a coffin that i helped create
facing the fact that ill never feel great again

shinigami - grew up 2 fast (prod. jay vee)

Fuck Love

Cover Art Credit: http://vsco.co/rosieshulman

You completely destroy me
You destroyed me like you never knew you could
I'm not over you and I never will be
The thing about love is that simple things like her lips and her eyes break my heart
They're not mine and I don't know who's they'll be
Her hair is therapy to my cold and brittle heart

I used to find safety in her smile
I used to feel warmth in the look on her face
I've been left an empty shell to whither and fade away
I used to think of all the things that we'd be
Now I only think of all the things that we never really were

I used to call you mine but now you just don't know
What am I left to do but stand here in the cold
All I've got left are some photos of you and your voice stuck in my head
Saying how you'd be there always and forever until the very end

You were everything to me, and you always will be
Deep in my heart that aches for the sound of your voice
But no longer will I have the choice

I'm sorry for anything that I've done
For the person I've become that you learned to love but then turned your back like a setting sun

If I hurt you I pray that you forgive me
I mean all the words that I say please believe me

And see me as the person you always knew I was
I've never been perfect not in a single way
And that day that you saved me is when I fell from grace
I only needed you and I pushed everyone else away

So now I'm left alone
To live this life all on my own
And I hate the fact that someone else is holding you close
And how you broke my heart when I needed you the most
I've always been too scared to be properly diagnosed
Because you were my pill but now you're nothing but a ghost

And I still have your pictures and that letter you wrote
Where you said that you loved me and you'd never let me go
And you saved me from myself and that's something I hope you know
But you cut me down so quick and I've never been so low

And my stomach aches with every breath of air I breathe
Because you were the one that gave me everything I need
But now this pain won't subside I just can't believe you chose to leave
You were my reason for living how could you do such a heinous thing

I was like a boat that got carried out to sea
And I trusted in your waves, that you wouldn't harm me
You protected me from the storm and gave me a chance at life
And I love the way you cared and asked if I was alright

But something died, something changed and I sunk to the ocean floor
You no longer wanted to hold me up and I drowned from within my core

And every essence of my being is still just too afraid to fight
Because I'm terrified to keep on living without you by my side

And all the things that people said I guess this whole time they were right
Love can never last this way when the flame burns too bright

But I hope you're happy

I hope you're doing fine

I love you still today

Just like you were still mine

I still love the way you laughed
And the things you said to me
You'll never leave my heart
Nor my memory

I just wish I could understand
Why you had to leave
I can't do this on my own
I need you here with me

But you've turned into a ghost
And you're nowhere to be seen
And I can't hear your voice
I won't see your message on the screen

We won't have a family
We won't have a house
We won't raise our kids
You won't be my spouse

We won't grow old together
Like we always planned
You disappeared forever
And alone here shall I stand

you completely destroy me

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

@lilhappylilsad

music video: https://youtu.be/qSVPoTjlw-8

she told me i was nothing n it hurt
she used to make me happy n feel special with her words
i tried to shed some light on all the dark inside of her
she used to be my everything and now im off the drugs 

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

always in my bed i made her leave me here alone
screamin at her crying i would point her to the door
all i ever want is her to be here when im low
i try to act unbothered but i end up hurting more
x2

i fell to the ground
im smoking all the time
just tryna survive
i might kill myself tonight

i never fucking know
when im gonna go
cause one day i am happy
next im strangled by the noose

i fell to the ground
crying all the time
sadness in my sound
i am always on the grind

im always feeling low
stuck inside my mind
i just wanna go
but i never seem to die

survive (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

netherrealm w/ shy

blessed are the forgetful

produced by @notmorgn
with @cpt_sad and @guccihighwaters

spotify

in the wind (w/ yesterday and guccihighwaters)

produced by @taylorkingmusic

lyrics:

how u wanna do this
i been in advance 
i been working i been moving

people going stupid
party got a molly plug
everybody too lit

numbers say im growing
i just get ideas then i put them all in motion
feel it flowing smooth

drop top roof
hot box bentley
only going up broke boys keep filling with jealousy, envy
running through veins
white ash on the blunt high grade
while u promoting ur shit i bang out a tape
we are not the same

bitch u will never be like me
get out of my psyche
u must have been bumping like all my old shit cause u sounding just like me

these rappers that like me, bite me
if u wanna get at me, fight me
pull up on me and ignite me
if u want it dirty then sprite me

i got pains inside my chest when i breathe
i should really get a vape but that shit gonna cost me
im broke as fuck i dropped a rack on balmain jeans
i dont know why cause that shit so damn ugly

how u wanna do this
i been in advance 
i been working i been moving

numbers say im growing
i just get ideas then i put them all in motion
feel it flowing smooth

dont invite ur friends if u tell me u wanna see me
i dont like em dont u get it fuck theyre ur friends for a reason
i dont need em if u wanna u can skip our plans and see em
to be honest i was gonna hit u up and say im sleepin

grey goose orange 
in some fresca 
in a stainless steel bottle 
take a shot 
take a sip 
and swallow 
and im gone now
look around 
everything
in slow mo 
its home time
lets get out
i really think we should go now

how u wanna do this
i been in advance 
i been working i been moving

numbers say im growing
i just get ideas then i put them all in motion
feel it flowing smooth

drop top roof
hot box bentley
only going up broke boys keep filling with jealousy envy
running through veins
white ash on the blunt high grade
while u promoting ur shit i bang out a tape
we are not the same

drop top roof
hot box bentley
only going up broke boys keep filling with jealousy envy
running through veins
white ash on the blunt high grade
while u promoting ur shit i bang out a tape
we are not the same

envy (prod. taylor king)

@lilillmusic
https://twitter.com/xXlil_illXx
https://www.instagram.com/xxlil_illxx/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfMTV-VYE7C4RshErkdomOg?view_as=subscriber

@tothegood
https://twitter.com/tothegoodx
http://instagram.com/tothegoodx

feel like i’m suffocating
when i’m medicated
we separated
now i’m fucking wasted

cold heart
no hood
all my bitches bad but my drugs good
real reckless
but i’m all good
lil ill 2 sick up in ur hospital

wit a cold heart
no hood
all my bitches bad but my drugs good
i’m reckless
but i’m all good
lil ill 2 sick up in ur hospital

and i’m suffocating
and i’m picturing u naked
got all your clothes on the pavement
smoking weed
getting head down in the basement

cold heart
no hood
all my bitches bad but my drugs good
real reckless
but i’m all good
lil ill 2 sick up in ur hospital

wit a cold heart
no hood
all my bitches bad but my drugs good
i’m reckless
but i’m all good
lil ill 2 sick up in ur hospital

cut ties
missed calls
i helped them find your body when u overdosed
blame me
say it’s all my fault
sayin now that i’m gone i’m all you’ll ever want
babe i need ur validation 
what she told me
ur my dopamine
my fucking one and only
i’ll do anything you want babe
write your name on my body
i’ll tell everyone you own me
she in the dm’s getting naughty
with a boy

wit a cold heart
no hood
all my bitches bad but my drugs good
i’m reckless
but i’m all good
lil ill 2 sick up in ur hospital
 
wit a cold heart
no hood
all my bitches bad but my drugs good
i’m reckless
but i’m all good
lil ill 2 sick up in ur hospital

Cold Heart (Prod. Tothegood) - (Now on all streaming platforms)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

my life is like a movie (prod. pvscale)

my life is like a movie (prod. ☆ ultraviolet ☆)

produced by @paysrmusic

lyrics:

imma try to be sober for a week
tossing turning i been fucking up the sheets
why continue when the futures looking bleak
barely living and my chest is scaring me

i could give you the attention that you seek
i could help a thousand people to their feet
i could fucking save a life but never me
dont you try cause theres no way your saving me

i could feel heart palpatations happen when i breathe
i could feel the acid climbing everytime i eat
they say its a scary life
take this itll work
its been half a year
and im only feeling worse

residential doctors tell me its anxiety
i could fucking tell you that now get to helping me
i wonder what the feelings like of breathing normally
cant identify the happiness when its so new to me

slow down
i cant even
smoke now
i been on the same damn
come down
since this time last year
this time last year
this time last

march now
hot or cold i never go out
see my friends like once a week at best
cause im in the zone now
im not myself when its cold out

i been seeing shadow figures 
in the corner of my vision
i been thinking bout my friends
and all their thoughts and all there feelings
i dont think they really like me
and that thought really frightens me

im being honest
and that doesnt happen alot

honesty (prod.  PAYSR)

mixed/mastered/artwork by www.soundcloud.com/scottysplash

Don't Tell Mom (Prod. scottysplash)

tears in my angel wings

Ｉ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　Ｉ＇Ｍ　ＦＥＥＬＩＮ＇　ＦＡＮＴＡＳＴＩＣ

//テストしない//

i've been so fucking hyped to drop this. thank you guys for being so patient with releases lately. shit has been strange, but we're back on top of tings. i can't thank my homies colcaine & lil biscuit enough for the birth of this track. i love you guys

@september11th2001
@l1lbiscuit

follow lil biscuit

plastic (feat. colcaine)(prod. by lil biscuit)

Ft. @RudyxWhite
Prod. @NoFeeling @AntonGxldn

Lyrics:
all these thoughts up in my head
all these things that I regret
somewhere lost at 2am
and no one can save me
spending all this time alone
sitting in my broken home
spread my ashes in the snow
cause no one can save me

all my friends don't understand 
all my friends are in my head
met a lot of fucking people 
but they never really cared
only asking me what’s wrong 
so the blood ain’t on their hands
they like what's that in the snow 
call it red dead despair

broken hearts as frail as glass
being haunted by my past 
somewhere lost a 2am 
and no one can save me
living fast so I’ll die slow
when did my path become a road
spread my ashes in the snow 
cause no one can save me

the lights turn black everything we had means nothing
searching for something to numb this feeling 
the lights turn black everything we had means nothing
searching for something to numb this feeling

✦ Other Platforms

Red Dead Despair Ft. Rudy White

produced by nicholas allan found at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChXjXO9F6i4O8fnrQc1lpzA/about

lyrics:

mouth like guns
lately all it do is blow smoke
ill never find new love
if im chasing the one from before
fuckings not fun
when it doesnt feel like before
got me checking every newsfeed
as soon as i walk in my door

cold like numb
had to wipe the pictures from my phone
swept up moved on
but i feel her touch to my bones
if i ever blow up
will i see your name on my phone
promise i would never judge you baby
how the fuck could i judge home

watching the process of falling
in love with a person other than me
i dont think i can handle this
but ill unconditionally
love you, even if its not me,
with you, even if you hate me,
i just wanna see you happy
thats been helping me breathe
baby

come back and grind your body on mine
we kiss we hitting our teeth
bit lips until they would bleed
we'd strip and take off the sheets
lights on she said she wanna see love making
youll come round eventually
you can be as late as you please
they can build my grave with two seats
baby

mouth like guns
lately all it do is blow smoke
ill never find new love
if im chasing the one from before
fuckings not fun
when it doesnt feel like before
got me checking every newsfeed
as soon as i walk in my door

cold like numb
had to wipe the pictures from my phone
swept up moved on
but i feel her touch to my bones
if i ever blow up
will i see your name on my phone
promise i would never judge you baby
how the fuck could i judge home

my home (prod. nicholas allan)

this is for everyone who has ever felt completely heart broken. lost and not knowing who you are. the whole world seems to be falling apart around you. when nowhere feels like home. how you wish the memories would fade away. looking for a place that doesn’t exist. uncertain. worthless. scared. 

we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love.

you aren’t alone. one day it will be okay. i must believe that.

www.SOWET69.com

Lil Bo Weep - Untitled
https://soundcloud.com/lilboweep

ColdHart - Lawn Chairs
https://soundcloud.com/coldhart

Matchbook Romance - Promise

Shinigami - i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares
https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami

Wicca Phase Springs Eternal -  It Takes [prod. Drip-133 & Wicca]
https://soundcloud.com/wiccaphasespringseternal https://soundcloud.com/drip-133

Lil Lotus -  just a memory ft. Lil Zubin [prod. Nedarb]
https://soundcloud.com/lilxlotus https://soundcloud.com/lilzubin https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom

Blink 182 - I Miss You

Familypet - so long, goodbye ft. Lil Lotus
https://soundcloud.com/familypet https://soundcloud.com/lilxlotus

Chiodos - Baby, You Wouldn't Last A Minute On The Creek

Falls - i still remember it all ft. Nothing,Nowhere.
https://soundcloud.com/falls-2 https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic

Y2K & Smrtdeath - porcelain
https://soundcloud.com/smrtdeath https://soundcloud.com/y2k2y

Onlyevva - Cut (Bones Cover)
https://soundcloud.com/onlyevva

Never,Forever. - wooden home
https://soundcloud.com/neverforevermusic

King Christian - True Love Will Find You In The End (Daniel Johnston cover)
https://soundcloud.com/refeboykc

i keep falling

Prod: https://soundcloud.com/eyeamperiod
Engineer and co prod: https://soundcloud.com/nettibeats

Thank you for all of the support you guys show me. I love you all so much more than I'll ever be able to explain.
~4ever

Follow me on twitter: https://twitter.com/_4everunknown_

Never Ends (Prod. EyeAm.)

Lyrics: 
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

wipe my tears cause I gotta get the cash now
no more fears but I feel it when the lights out 
world so cold it’s like I’m living in the arctic
so unknown sometimes I feel like I’m arson
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions 
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

all the shit I done and all the things I seen
made me build a wall to block my memories
yeah, these drugs they got me falling like some leaves
need some novocaine but it ain’t for my teeth
I been fighting all these demons in my sleep
yeah, I’m faded yeah, I’m faded off the lean
don't give a fuck if I don't wake up from this dream
pass me a rope so I can leave reality

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

The Pain That Never Ends

✦ VIDEO OUT NOW

Green Day - Jesus of Suburbia

New Verse from Chance The Rapper (Song also features Freeway, Uno Hype, & Hassani Kwess) -

Prod. By The Odd Couple

From The Odd Couple debut mix tape called "separated at birth" 


ChanceRaps.com

Burnthecity (Prod. by The Odd Couple)

BOUT A DOLLA (Prod. Blended Babies) Ft. Chuck Inglish, Chip The Ripper, Chance The Rapper, Twista

Living In Vain (Ft. Chance The Rapper)

'Holding On To You' by twenty one pilots from Vessel - available now on Fueled By Ramen.