maisonn margella

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The Silence In Black And White

Nothing Left w/ Shadyxwade (Prod. ten50)

toxic love xoxo [prod. sketchmyname]

Will be available on all other platforms soon (:

when the rain falls (prod. pastnight)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/0cpqtqT8PRz94BOSJ2iPeU?si=esjkVkHARfGHkAS1sMS9Jg

Closure [Black Rover Pt. 2]

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:
trapped inside this life that I didn't choose
why do I play this game when I always lose?
it's driving me insane, now I'm thinking 
life is fucked, such is life
I come from a place that's seldomly sunny 
I'm in low spirits cause the weather is crummy
I wanna find whoever took my happiness from me
cause lately my lyric book has been getting real ugly
life is a joke but it's not funny
my tracks suck, other artists give me a run for my money
everybody else just seems so high above me
now I'm crying alone because nobody loves me
will somebody please shoot me
I would love for nothing more than someone to come and stick a knife right through me
and kill me like a victim in a shitty horror movie
I got psychiatric help from lucy
but I'm still thinking that life's a bitch like the mother of snoopy
outside is gloomy
I'm hyper moody
my mind is loopy 
and my eyes are droopy
trying hard to make sense of all of this
but nothing I've found can fill this hollowness
I guess I've just gotta stay positive
I'm trying hard just to stay positive
trapped inside this life that I didn't choose
why do I play this game when I always lose?
it's driving me insane, now I'm thinking 
life is fucked, such is life
trapped inside this life that I didn't choose (trying hard to make sense of all of this)
why do I play this game when I always lose? (but nothing I've found can fill this hollowness)
it's driving me insane, now I'm thinking (I guess I've just gotta stay positive)
life is fucked, such is life (I'm trying hard just to stay positive)

life is fucked (prod. mothfries)

prod. @irby314

lyrics:
nowadays everything just seems to hurt me
feeling like life as a whole has done me dirty
not getting love from anybody
yelling all my thoughts and feelings straight into the void
I want a connection that's everlasting
people only care about me in passing
now I'm sitting all alone wondering if I did something to cause things to be this way
broke friends keep dreaming about what they could be
while rich friends don't seem as happy as they should be
I can't find any inspiration
my apathy strangles me
it's getting too hard to breathe 
I'm constantly getting upset about shit
something will bother me, I'll forget about it
then still feel upset
even though I don't remember what it was that made me feel that way
surrounded by all this stupid immaturity 
going online, seeing dudes pushing 30
still posting on facebook about metalcore bands they listened to back in 2008
seems like all of my friends who make music are glowing
I'm lagging behind
they never send me opens
I feel like a failed artist 
but I guess making music's just a dumb childish hobby anyway
I've taken too many blows that weren't softened
and been used as a punching bag way too often
by people who notice things in me that they hate about themselves
dumping their shame onto me
I do it too, just not to people's faces 
but behind their backs because that way's the safest
most of my hatred stays hidden
just lurking in the shadows where no one can fully see
my life is the worst that its been and I hate it
but every single time I try to escape it
I just end up reverting back to my old ways
it seems like people rarely actually change
I'll only cheer up to ultimately feel sad
a drug binge right after getting out of rehab
all of those addicts are so far gone
I don't have hope for anybody much less myself
I regret not having a life that's fulfilling
like going to work in a government building 
saving money to buy a house
with a backyard to unwind in at the end of the day
spend my weekends hanging out at a cottage
reminiscing with old friends about college
instead I'm here by myself feeling embarrassed 
with nowhere to be and nothing to say

Stream on Spotify

government building (prod. irby)

prod. @fantom-instrumentals

lyrics:
you're the bane of my existence
and a stain in every instance
you should be ashamed of your existence
you're the lamest in existence
the bane of my existence
you bring pain to my existence
just go away and keep your distance
there's no way of coexistence 
you're the lamest in existence
the bane of my existence
a vibekiller in every way
like ben stiller in heavyweights
I'm richard dreyfuss in what about bob and you're bill murray
it's like you read a manual on how to be cool
without realizing that the author is a tool
spoonfeeding you the worst advice that he could possibly come up with
you're the bane of my existence
and a stain in every instance
you should be ashamed of your existence
you're the lamest in existence
the bane of my existence
you bring pain to my existence
just go away and keep your distance
there's no way of coexistence 
you're the lamest in existence
the bane of my existence
your deluded reality will soon come crashing down, you'll see
and then you'll understand this song
and maybe on some distant day
in an odd astonishing way
we might finally get along
all of your obnoxiousness is so painfully obvious
to anybody that's ever been near you
what's it like to be a narcissist without any accomplishments?
the coolest person in the room
but every room you're in, everyone else just vacates
the bane of my existence 
bane of my existence 
you're the bane of my existence
the bane of my existence 
bane of my existence 
you're the bane of my existence
you're the bane of my existence
and a stain in every instance
you should be ashamed of your existence
you're the lamest in existence
the bane of my existence
you bring pain to my existence
just go away and keep your distance
there's no way of coexistence 
you're the lamest in existence
the bane of my existence

bane of my existence (prod. fantom)

art/mix/master by me


it's only fake you don't know me at all
i'm irreplaceable isn't a soul
i couldn't take it no more had to let them know
you're only breaking me down never lift me up
i can do it all on my own
i don't get along with no one
only want my love when it's all gone
i'm gone
it's all good

only want my love when it's gone

is anybody here real anymore ?
(no)
it’s hard to relating to anyone
(it’s hard)
i can’t hold in what i feel anymore
(nooo)
my enemies i'm revealing them all

you won’t get to me now
not a kid anymore
& when it come between the shit i love i would kill anyone 
(swear to god)
part the heavens ascend to the clouds
you’re only part of my history now

i guess we weren't a good fit after all
i'm letting go of the ones that would do me wrong

when the rain falls (prod. pastnight)

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