I Learned How to Disappear

**"For me, AccessDenied isn’t just a name – it’s a feeling. It’s about all those moments in life when you try to break through, but something invisible holds you back. I write music to push past that wall. My songs aren’t perfect — they’re raw, vulnerable, and alive — just like me. Every beat is a thought I couldn’t say out loud, every drop is a breath I’ve been holding for too long.

AccessDenied is my outlet and my rebellion. I blend the electronic with the human, the dark with the hopeful. I want people to feel free to be broken, angry, happy, or everything at once. Because in the end, it’s not about escaping reality — it’s about facing it with open eyes, and letting the music speak when words can’t."**
— AccessDenied

So happy you found me here♪

My goal is to create grand original songs with an atmosphere similar to rock or metal, layered with piano and strings.
The main themes of the songs are emotional themes such as love and dreams, as well as natural themes such as the universe, the world, the sky, and the sea.

I recorded the guitar, bass, piano and drums myself, although I'm not very good at them. 
This track features vocals by Koharu Rikka (小春六花), a singing voice synthesizer.
Some elements like certain string parts, ambient sounds, and subtle adjustments were programmed using MIDI — although some of the string sounds were also played and recorded using an electric piano.

In particular, I love and cherish the structure of the songs, including the piano playing, the powerful and beautiful melodies, and the worldview created by the strings.

Please note that I don’t use Messages. Feel free to leave a comment instead.

I hope my original songs reach your heart.
Thank you for listening.

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