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Softheart

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im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Walking With Fire

I Have So Much Love Inside Of Me To Give

Sunray, the thunderstorm

Frostbite

With the Wind (I Could Be Anywhere With Friends)

I saw this girl

produced by kassgocrazy
mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
vocals performed by sewerperson

COVERART BY @UNNANOUNCED ON INSTAGRAM

i want you to suffer (feat. sewerperson)

your appetite is not easy on me

mindless little conversations
i can see you hiding what youre thinking about 
im sick of you staring at me
like youre tryna figure something out 
i fucking hate grocery shopping
sometimes i cant tell if they wanna kill or fuck me
i left my keys at your apartment
and i think i forgot to pay for the parking
i feel so much its impossible
cant describe without sounding obnoxious 

but the world looks different from outside of the love
outside its rough
all scars and flaws
my heart shaped glasses they distract enough 
i saw the glow the light shines in dark 

they said someones gonna rip ur heart out if ur not careful
either if its someone else or it just gets dull
never cared that much about all of that pessimism
rather get the flood now then see how long the dam holds
lets go make ourselves whole
see how long we can hold
lets make something special 
keep it just for us two
i hate people so much
but i fuckin love u
because i just do

porcelain mask

prod. nevrfall and branwen  
@nevrfall 
@branwenmusic

i take this small one and bend 
its like this battle dont got a end
i can get so in my head but still fuck what they say 
i dont know you and you not my friend
i know that i said i wouldnt get fucked up today
but look at me here i am 
i always end up just going the opposite way
if they try to tell me that i cant 
ill do that shit just to spite you and laugh
fuck out my face bout that i give a damn
i dont know you i dont trust you thats facts 
that shit is just how it is 
i would change it if i could but i cant
i let the world try to make me abandon myself
just to be something for them 
just to be something for somebody else

i push away
everything because i need help
bleed out
on the tile i left a big puddle
i love something
and it gets me into big trouble 
do u need enough 
all these tests i hope i bleed enough 
i left that old part of me where 2016 was 
reasons 
i dont need to ever speak of
leave me 
in a big clump
ima big cluts 
bleeding 
from these thick cuts
i can get rid of 

when i stretch
and this conflict eats me to my bone
cant this toxic world leave me alone 
its ingrown 
if its wrong 
let me reap what i sow

dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died 
and it goes like 
dont go closing your eyes
you never know whats gonna wanna come n hurt you right
and when your outside keep some sort of weapon close to your side
im so sick of hearing bad news somebody died

dont go, closing your eyes

....
I sit still in the tall grass
I breathe in as much as I can hold inside my chest
I trust in the sun to beam and lungs to catch my breath
Sometimes it gets hard for me but I still try my best
I'm stuck in the yard right by the broken water fountain
I just saw somebody in the window of that house
I gathered my courage and walked in to check it out
I went to the master bedroom and I looked around
I saw the closet open slightly towards where I was standing
I think I hear someone inside it and it's very scary
I gather all these skeletons up like a cemetery
I swear I didn't wanna lie but it was necessary
I wake up from a bad dream and I go to start the day
I forget about what exactly, just that there was pain
I act like nothing even happened and I'm all okay
I see a new horrible image and I look away
I'm inside the woods way out 
I'm swinging my head, jack-o'-lantern around
October in this ******** town 
Got big leaves lit, I let the rest fall down
And the pines, only thing that survives
Once this winter arrives
And this cold season start up
... ur only sorta right
You make me mortified
And I don't wanna fight
And I'm still someone's daughter
.
.
Like some bands i count the spirits in this monster house
I ain't slowin down im on the highway to hell 
Fuck my opposition smile like I wish you well
I got information that I won't ever tell
I take up to 2 but any more would put me out
I won't face it now, in the morning put me down
Stuck all by myself-

Don't know how it happened, it's a force in this house
Don't know how I keep a forest in this mason jar
I'm so lucky that I told her meet me in the car
Could've turned out so bad, thank god
4 AM in Boston walking with this magic wand
It's cool, you'd think that i was totally cool
With thinking bout bad things 
I'm thinkin bout bad things 
Unwillingly

monster house - Copy

this is a repost of salemjournl and is not my work

pillow pit

pillow pit - SalemJournl

Lyrics:

Its GX, motherfucker

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
I’m a ghost
Theres a hole
And i’m bleeding out

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
Down to the bone
I have always been nothing 

Shove it down your throat
Abandon every hope x2

Still i could never be one of you
Most of us never had an option to choose

Frustration 
Impatience 

Eviscerate the souls of the broken
Swallow your words and leave your thoughts unspoken

Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening when you scream

Why am i like this?
I’m a ghost
Theres a hole
And i’m bleeding out

Why am i like this?
Why am i like this?
Down to the bone
I have always been nothing 

Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening
Nobody’s listening when you scream

Poison coursing thru my veins
This world’s nothing but a stage
My heart is filled with so much hate for all of you 

Poison coursing thru my veins
This world’s nothing but a stage
I will never change
But i will never be like you

turmoil

Lyrics:

What a slap in the face
I’m wiping blood from an open wound
I haven’t slept in a day
I’m watching ghosts roam a vacant room

The trees are all dying
The angels are crying
Move closer
Move closer to me

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

An echo of hope
Extinguished by flames 
You worship my words
But they’re born from my pain

Drag my body under
In your crosshairs
Taking cover
You taught me how to run away
As far as i can

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Should i just leave it?

Everything falls to the floor
Should i pick up the pieces?
Give me a reason

everything falls to the floor

maybe ill leave, take a trip out of state for a while

Tidalwave (live From Home)

guitar & drums performed by Cisco
@waitingoncisco

destiny calls 
and then i open doors  
just dont press me at all
i run out on the porch 
and then out on the yard
im crushing leaves when i stomp
i get lost tell me 
who the imposter and
who swiped the card
only human interaction is 
through discord calls
and the creeks
in the floor
sound like your name in these halls
bang my head
on the wall 
oh how foolish i was
to believe 
anything
any opinion at all 

innocence 
on the kids face 
telling you its so hard to love you 
so hard to cry its like my eyes are all just shriveled up 
no thoughts, rivers ran dry 

and i cant go back to my decisions in the past
but for some reason that don't stop me from thinkin bout 'em
all the time

if theres somewhere i could be its 
you holding me in your arms 
i keep pushing on the feeling
while trying my best to hold on 

i can be dramatic
overload my senses 
I'm over my head
I'm just holding my breath in
theres somn bout the fresh snow
on the deck 
looks so nostalgic
i grab my blanket
and curl myself into a ball
my chest still drops when my phone goes off
as if you're still calling its so dumb, i 

try not to lose the magic
i just mess it up if i 
think too much about it
try my best to stop always thinkin bout bad shit
life's got both aspects its euphoric and tragic
i can't pretend as if one is more valid
i'll find the balance 
at least i hope, i hope, i hope

Tidalwave (live From Home)

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