the cadence of your vocals oh my god ...to say you're talented is an insulting understatement. you're groundbreaking dude. 😩

I been livin this song for far too long. Such a great piece of artistry. Respect brethren 🫡

BUT I LIKE PAIN A LOT / U JUST LIKE THAT IM FUCKED

Please Listen To This

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12" Pre-order: bit.ly/uncontrollablelp

Kristina Esfandiari is Miserable. Based in the Bay Area and the vocalist in King Woman, Kristina writes and performs a brand of moving and evocative music that oozes with nostalgia – and the forthcoming Uncontrollable LP is no different.

Succeeding a string of EPs (Halloween Dream and Dog Days), Uncontrollable follows as Kristina's most complete and nuanced work. Written and recorded over the course of a year, this debut LP is consequentially the most emotional, and quite frankly, saddest release in her history as an artist. Wrestling with insecurities, grief, and the lingering feeling of lack of control, Uncontrollable compiles nine songs drenched with feeling. 

Uncontrollable will be released on April 29th, both digitally and on limited edition vinyl.

12" Vinyl

Miserable – Oven

prod. @notmorgn

its been a minute
still no closure
she in my bed no clothes
but im colder
remember 2010
now im much older
remember feeling fine
those days are way over

20 degrees 
30 mph breeze
freezin up my chest
everytime im tryna breathe
why the east so cold like this?
im dead by the way 
don’t need condolences 

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live
chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i want the push start
i want the bag gotta be goyard
everybody gonna notice 
that i go hard
she got a G string
i ain’t talkin mozart
top off
i ain’t talkin go karts
gotta up my prices
ain’t nobody like this
spent the whole day sleepin
and i dont work a night shift
fuck a 9 to 5 
i don’t fit in that box bitch
song take a couple hours 
but it come out timeless

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i was really struggling 
to save my own life
til’ i started typing words 
spent a check on a mic
i really could’ve 
stayed that night
but my perspective all changed 
since all we did was fight

(slowed)

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

chipped black nails

no samples
prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

My real life.

prod by taylor king 💘

LYRICS:
you my best friend 
and my enemy
i pop one then i pop five 
you my remedy
and i don't know what 
what comes over me
i get fucked up 
my soul ebony

only dream off a bean ya
tryna be up in the scene ya 
(aye) clips limousine ya
why she callin me a feen ya ya
sad faces 
i aint got no heart
cold cases 
i ain't never gettin caught
ya she too basic 
i could never love a thot yuh
too shameless
i aint never give a fuck no

the pillies is silly
but i cannot quit it
woke up in the pital
my demons is winnin
why i'm always sinnin
downin this liquor
drownding myself in this venom 
ya ya ya

(the sample i used is from skins :)

My Best Friend

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

i know its all my fault
i know its all my fault

I can hardly sleep with all this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in my mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

swear this shit gotta stop
but i like pain a lot
and you like that im fucked
you just wont admit it
i've been biting my tongue
goosebumps up on my arm
i'll just talk to this cup
and forget the issue

I can hardly sleep with this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in the mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

PPL THT I LUV THE MOST

pulled up so late that i missed the whole party

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

prod. by @ayjd
cover art by jake clifford

lyrics
--------
we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

with you
and i
we laugh
and we cry
and we’ll dance
till we die
cause the rate that we’re moving’s alarming
compared to the shit that’s happening outside

truthfully the talk about the virus freak me out
yeah eleven thousand people died this shit is heading south
and if the world is gonna end by august please just hear me out
put some optimism in & take your fingers out your mouth

we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

follow ay!jd

contact (prod. ay!jd)

prod/mix/ft @anxietyattackss

lyrics:

93:
Never feel the same
Never feel okay
Hit me up to take 
Always fade away
I’ve been hittin dabs
Til the panic takes
You can’t have my heart
But we can share the pain 

You can’t have my word
But we can still exchange 
Left her in the past
With my bad jacket
Hex across my neck
Like she’s black magic 
I fell out of love
With bags of plastic 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

AA:
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me leave there’s nothing left for me to hold down
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me get away there’s nothing left to hold down 
On the back roads smoking on a backwood
Playin sad songs, sitting in a parking lot 
We live in shadows, don't matter if it’s dark or not
But it gets dark a lot, ya ya 
It’s bad enough, i know the pressures adding up 
And if you feel like giving up
Just know the story never ends, it’s all a dream

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways

PPL THT I LUV THE MOST

93FEETOFSMOKE

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