xsrvnge

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lyrics:

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

i don’t wanna make u feel bad
but it hurts that u never looked back
u kissed me like i was fragile glass
and dropped me like i never had cracks

i still remember the curve of your spine
when u told me “baby, you’re not mine”
i still feel it deep in my chest
how easy it was for you to forget

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

maybe i was just a pause in your story
a soft interlude, a girl u called sorry
but i stayed awake to hear u breathe
and now i can’t sleep without ur grief

they say i should move on and be free
but u haunt my dreams like a melody
u were my prayer, my ache, my plea
u were the one who abandoned me

i won’t take up any more of your time
but if u see this, just know i tried
i gave u pieces i didn’t have to spare
and all i wanted was for u to care

do u remember the things u said?
do u remember the texts i left unread?
do u feel me in your silence too?
do u remember me like i do you?

do u still remember? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

hold my breath
watch the tide take what’s left
what if peace comes after death?
trace my veins, find out myself

cut my ties, float away
salt water hides my face
wish i knew why i stay
when i dream of the grave

waves crash like my thoughts do
quiet screams, nothing new
all the nights i drowned in you
fool me twice, blame me too

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

(cut my ties, float away)
(salt water hides my face)
(what if peace comes after death?)
trace my veins, find out myself

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

where’d you go this time?
what if i lose my mind?
what if i make you cry?
what if i end my fucking life?

what if i end my life? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
white walls keep whispering
names i swore i’d forget
mirror shows a ghost of me
stained eyes, silhouette

i leave my letters in the drawer
like secrets sewn into my skin
wonder if you’d even mourn
the girl you couldn’t let in

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

silence tastes like blood and pills
numbness cuts so sweet and still
found dead humming songs of you
found dead thinking of—

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

don’t look for me in crowded rooms
i’m somewhere lost between my wounds
white noise sings my lullaby
i’ll kiss the world a soft goodbye

kurt cobain (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
i been feelin so sad
feelin so upset
feelin like my life doesn't matter anymore 
nothing really helps
been thinking of suicide
i'm too afraid to die 
i don't really wanna go outside
fuck everybody, ima fuckin hide
i'm all alone
don't have anyone 
i'm so fucking numb
i cry but nobody cares
tried to call but there's nobody there
losing my mind
i'm in despair
don't wanna go
out bad
out sad
hope you remember me
will i even last here?
need another pill
i'm not even 23
i'll die before i can see
hope you remember this
ima be gone like a dream
this is my last note so u can read

xsrvnge

AaronTheShadow