wow beautiful:) so nice smooth downtempo vibez, hey i have 4 spots rn in my "sadboisyndicate" new launched collective/clique and id love to have u in it :) </3 so much talent omfg!! i hope u hit me back! @kidsketchy on all socials handles all plats!! & msg me on discord if ur interested!! i pray u are heheh beauty voice omg!!!! </333

on replay:) much luv my gang! so excited 2 have u apart the fam</333

xsrvnge

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lyrics:

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

i don’t wanna make u feel bad
but it hurts that u never looked back
u kissed me like i was fragile glass
and dropped me like i never had cracks

i still remember the curve of your spine
when u told me “baby, you’re not mine”
i still feel it deep in my chest
how easy it was for you to forget

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

maybe i was just a pause in your story
a soft interlude, a girl u called sorry
but i stayed awake to hear u breathe
and now i can’t sleep without ur grief

they say i should move on and be free
but u haunt my dreams like a melody
u were my prayer, my ache, my plea
u were the one who abandoned me

i won’t take up any more of your time
but if u see this, just know i tried
i gave u pieces i didn’t have to spare
and all i wanted was for u to care

do u remember the things u said?
do u remember the texts i left unread?
do u feel me in your silence too?
do u remember me like i do you?

do u still remember? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

hold my breath
watch the tide take what’s left
what if peace comes after death?
trace my veins, find out myself

cut my ties, float away
salt water hides my face
wish i knew why i stay
when i dream of the grave

waves crash like my thoughts do
quiet screams, nothing new
all the nights i drowned in you
fool me twice, blame me too

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

(cut my ties, float away)
(salt water hides my face)
(what if peace comes after death?)
trace my veins, find out myself

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

where’d you go this time?
what if i lose my mind?
what if i make you cry?
what if i end my fucking life?

what if i end my life? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
you said you’d love me clean
but you loved me high
tryna kiss my veins
while i’m sayin’ goodbye

bathroom tiles, cold and white
staring up at neon lights
you hold me tight
but you’re not my life

these pills don’t fix me
but they hush the noise
and your love feels empty
but i got no choice

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from all the shit i’ve done

baby, do you love me still?
when my eyes glaze over still
would you kiss me through the spill?
when i’m drowning in these pills

you trace my scars
like love letters you wrote
whisper “you’re my star”
but i’m starting to float

movie scenes of blood and glass
someone’s screaming, it fades fast
we were perfect, then we cracked
now i’m lost and you’re my past

these pills don’t fix me
but they hush the noise
and your love feels empty
but i got no choice

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from all the shit i’ve done

baby, do you love me still?
when my eyes glaze over still
would you kiss me through the spill?
when i’m drowning in these pills

i see us in a movie frame
two ghosts screaming each other’s names
drugs and love feel just the same
fading out like burning flames

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from everything i’ve become

ur love feels empty (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
white walls keep whispering
names i swore i’d forget
mirror shows a ghost of me
stained eyes, silhouette

i leave my letters in the drawer
like secrets sewn into my skin
wonder if you’d even mourn
the girl you couldn’t let in

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

silence tastes like blood and pills
numbness cuts so sweet and still
found dead humming songs of you
found dead thinking of—

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

don’t look for me in crowded rooms
i’m somewhere lost between my wounds
white noise sings my lullaby
i’ll kiss the world a soft goodbye

kurt cobain (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
They told me to live my life (My life)
But I been dyin’ every night
Two pills on the floor by the light
I took both and kissed the sky

My depression gets violent, shots go through my brain (My brain)
Found some pills again, I don’t even know the name (The name)
Took that shit and I collapsed face-first in pain (Pain)
Woke up in my blood, now I’m high again (Again)
She said she hate me but sings all my songs (My songs)
I know that hatred was never that strong (That strong)
They stabbed me so much, now I’m numb and alone
I just laugh now when they hit my phone

Yeah, fuck it, I’m done with emotions
All this trauma turned me into someone broken
Gold tooth still gleamin’ while my mind corroded
And I ain’t get a cake since I turned like, what, eleven?
That’s why every birthday I been plannin' heaven
Mixin' meds with coke, yeah, that shit unhealthy
But I don’t care no more, I’m so self-destructive
Every night I try to die, but the pills don't love me

My depression gets violent, shots go through my brain (Through my brain)
Found some pills again, I don’t even know the name (Know the name)
Took that shit and I collapsed face-first in pain (In pain)
Woke up in my blood, now I’m high again (Again)
She said she hate me but sings all my songs (My songs)
I know that hatred was never that strong (That strong)
They stabbed me so much, now I’m numb and alone
I just laugh now when they hit my phone

Yeah, I know I lost my way
Can’t remember yesterday
Might not see another day
But I still say I’m okay
Yeah, they think I’m just insane
But they never felt this way
All this sadness turned to rage
And now I’m stuck inside my brain

fuck emotions (prod. yxngxs)

Cover art by Safehaven

One man’s waste.. is another man’s treasure
I see the way he hurt u, brittle like a feather
please don’t feel stuck, not now, not ever
It’s my breaking my heart, I’ll stitch you back together 
 
He made u doubt every step that you’d take
but I swear to god that you’re not a mistake
I can see it in your eyes that you need a break
Trust In me that I can put a smile on ur face

one girls break is another girls fate
when im away all i see is your face
just a breath to take
then it'll all go away
maybe i can fix what he couldnt face
and i sorry bout what you've been through
its i hard its true your see through
i know its not your fault you can be you
just let me in dont face this alone
just let me be the one you need girl
tell me everything ill listen to you

#song #vails #music

treasure (feat. Vacant)

🍂
lyrics 
she wanna have picnic 
im tryna get my dick licked
she say ima bad vibe
fuckin up her business 

she gimme cold shoulder 
i brush it off like soldiers
we’re only getting olderrrr iiii

i only speak nonsense 
you got better options 
but you chose an artist boy 
leaves falling downhill
in springvillie i’ll cry 

you’re perfect baby i just been in a funk 
don’t wanna talk i been tired as fuck 
lay in my bed and im thinking bout us
you need anything shawty know i’ll be there
100p percent 
leaves falling off my tree feel like deadwood 
shoutout wraith that’s my homie he in deadwood 
i fuck her good yah she know i don’t got deadwood 


she wanna have picnic 
im tryna get my dick licked
she say ima bad vibe
fuckin up her business 

she gimme cold shoulder 
i brush it off like soldiers
we’re only getting olderrrr iiii

i only speak nonsense 
you got better options 
but you chose an artist boy 
leaves falling downhill
in springvillie i’ll cry

leaves (NE’ERDOWELL X 93FEETOFSMOKE)

Lyrics <3 

Taylor - im sorry but I don’t relate , cause there’s no one to call when I break, they tell me im waisting my life cause I’m doing drugs til it rids me away, take a look at myself in the mirror I’m disgusted in everyway, my life full of stress and I’m so depressed , I wish you would pull me outta my brain 

200 the dash , took my pride and threw it in the trash, whole time I was wearing a mask , tryna be someone else didn’t last , 

but either way it goes , imma be alone until I’m bones , all I have is our memories , I’m sorry that I built a broken home ,I’m sorry I was never perfect and sorry I was never worth shit,  I just wanted you to love me and maybe realize I was worth it 

So if we’re being honest I’m a crumb , this ain’t moncler bro I’m a bum, I drink until I go numb , or I drink til I throw upppp , havent seen my daughter in a month , tryna hold it in and act tough , tears drain from my eyelids and nobody cares that I’m fucked

I’m walking in quick sand , sinking by the second , I keep coming back idk when I’ll learn my lesson


Swamp 🐍🐊- It’s muddy in my cup 
And there’s a forest in this blunt 
Ion got time for no bullshit so can we wrap this up
I’m just tryina catch me a buzz
but these Russians ain’t enough 
Should of filled em with more skunk
Instead we’re still here on this love shit 
Like do you even really want this 
Are you upset or just sinkissed 
Like my bad you’re feeling loveless 
I Gues ur skin ain’t the toughest 
Yuh yuh 
But I’m back in ball 
Blockin goofies like a prime Chris Paul 
Oh you wanna talk? Baby don’t hit call 
If your mission is to watch me fall 
Tell the truth, don’t lie to me 
It’s funny I can see the irony 
Let me take a page from Taylor’s diary 
learn to smoke away all my anxiety 
But it’s 
Tough luck 
No chance 
Ima surly fold again 
I’m fucked up 
Oh man 
Don’t leave me here alone my friend


Notahero 🚫🦸‍♂️— burberry glasses on but you’re not in the frame
i don’t wanna leave the house girl i ain’t pregame yet
this shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
and i keep coming back don’t think i learned my lesson
i don’t wanna get to know you
i don’t even know myself
drunk as fuck in this function singing like alvin
simon on my belt
tommy keep me warm when it’s cold
wear that shit like pelt
if its bout my queen then im gon fold
that’s how the cards dealt
baby your so perfect
i can’t treat you wrong and if i do i don’t deserve it
i might be better gone lately i been feeling worthless
but you tell me that im wrong and swear that i have a purpose





Notcursed 🚫🧙‍♀️- i don’t feel much older
but i’m really worn down
wish i knew when i was younger this was how i’d turn out

cold room flooded out the summer
and i’ve been in this dark mood month after another
it’s been feeling daunting lately
no one here to shape me
yeah i could, i know, but my mental needs saving

i might feel better when the winter comes around
i’ve been finding lost letters that were better unfound
i stay locked in this house
the keys been buried now
you’d think i wanna get out
but i don’t know how

i might get better when i learn to love myself
i’ve been writing less letters to girl who never helped
she still looks like me now
down to the skin
i see you’re getting freaked out
should’ve never let you in

I’m sorry, but I can’t relate w/ safehaven , swamp , notahero & notcursed. (Prod by Cxrter)

Vocals by @youngspazz123, @irlswamp, @notaheroo, @notcursed
Mix & Master by @youngspazz123
Produced by @prodcxrter
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Scarlt / safehaven.
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dB8A5P62H-s

lyrics:
(Taylor's Diary)
I'm sorry, but I don’t relate
'Cause there’s no one to call when I break
They tell me i'm wasting my life
'Cause I’m doing drugs til they rids me away
Take a look at myself in the mirror I’m disgusted in everyway
My life full of stress and I’m so depressed
I wish you would pull me outta my brain
200 the dash
Took my pride and threw it in the trash
Whole time I was wearing a mask
Tryna be someone else didn’t last
But either way it goes 
Imma be alone until I’m bones 
All I have is our memories
I’m sorry that I built a broken home
I’m sorry I was never perfect and sorry I was never worth shit
I just wanted you to love me and maybe realize I was worth it
So if we’re being honest I’m a crumb
This ain’t moncler bro I’m a bum
I drink until I go numb
Or I drink til I throw up
Haven't seen my daughter in a month
Tryna hold it in and act tough
Tears drain from my eyelids and nobody cares that I’m fucked
I’m walking in quicksand
Sinking by the second
I keep coming back i don't know when I’ll learn my lesson

(Swamp)
It’s muddy in my cup
And there’s a forest in this blunt
Ion got time for no bullshit so can we wrap this up
I’m just tryina catch me a buzz
But these Russians ain’t enough
Should of filled em with more skunk
Instead we’re still here on this love shit
Like do you even really want this
Are you upset or just sunkissed
Like my bad you’re feeling loveless
I guess your skin ain’t the toughest
But I’m back in ball
Blockin goofies like a prime Chris Paul
Oh you wanna talk? Baby don’t hit call
If your mission is to watch me fall
Tell the truth, don’t lie to me
It’s funny I can see the irony
Let me take a page from Taylor’s diary
Learn to smoke away all my anxiety
But it’s
Tough luck
No chance
Ima surly fold again
I’m fucked up
Oh man
Don’t leave me here alone, my friend
(x3)

(notahero)
Burberry glasses on but you’re not in the frame
I don’t wanna leave the house girl i ain’t pregame yet
This shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
And i keep coming back don’t think i learned my lesson
I don’t wanna get to know you
I don’t even know myself
Drunk as fuck in this function singing like alvin
Simon on my belt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s cold
Wear that shit like pelt
If its bout my queen then i'm gon fold
That’s how the card's dealt
Baby you're so perfect
I can’t treat you wrong and if i do i don’t deserve it
I might be better gone lately i been feeling worthless
But you tell me that i'm wrong and swear that i have a purpose
Yeah, burberry glasses on but i've been feeling worthless
Yeah, this shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
Yeah, i keep coming back don’t think i-
Drunk as fuck in this function singing like, wear this shit like pelt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s cold, yeah, wear that shit like pelt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s, that's how the card's dealt

(Notcursed)
I don’t feel much older
But i’m really worn down
Wish i knew when i was younger this was how i’d turn out

Cold room flooded out the summer
And i’ve been in this dark mood month after another
It’s been feeling daunting lately
No one here to shape me
Yeah i could, i know, but my mental needs saving

I might feel better when the winter comes around
I’ve been finding lost letters that were better unfound
I stay locked in this house
The keys been buried now
You’d think i wanna get out
But i don’t know how

I might get better when i learn to love myself
I’ve been writing less letters to girl who never helped
She still looks like me now
Down to the skin
I see you’re getting freaked out
Should’ve never let you in

Taylor’s Diary - I’m sorry, but I can’t relate (ft. notahero, swamp, notcursed) (cxrter)

i wrote cup of tea a few months back when i felt like i was failing every interaction i had with anyone. it was a few months after i'd moved to nashville, and as i was starting to establish some real friendships, i constantly felt like i was backtracking. everyone continued to treat me with kindness and eagerness, but i was my own worst critic.

this is one of those songs that serves as a stream of consciousness. i really wasn't a fan of it when i wrote it and i think even now that this song might not be for everyone. but then again, maybe i'm criticizing myself more than anyone else will. 

i take the metaphor really far but all of the food references can work for thanksgiving- i love a theme ;) 

also this upload is being completed at two in the morning on a weekday before i go to spend thanksgiving with family so if it's incoherent, sorry, that's two weeks in a row of late-night edits whoops

cup of tea (original, acoustic)

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lyrics:
i been feelin so sad
feelin so upset
feelin like my life doesn't matter anymore 
nothing really helps
been thinking of suicide
i'm too afraid to die 
i don't really wanna go outside
fuck everybody, ima fuckin hide
i'm all alone
don't have anyone 
i'm so fucking numb
i cry but nobody cares
tried to call but there's nobody there
losing my mind
i'm in despair
don't wanna go
out bad
out sad
hope you remember me
will i even last here?
need another pill
i'm not even 23
i'll die before i can see
hope you remember this
ima be gone like a dream
this is my last note so u can read

hope u remember me [miercoles]

hurt

Good morning,
it’s already morning.
I’m still sleepy,
but first I’ll wake up with a cup of coffee.
Oh right, I still have to write that song…
okay, let’s do it.

Lalalala lala lalala
Lalalala lala lalala
These ordinary days like this
feel so precious and dear to me.

Just kidding—
it’s only a little dream I’m having.

kurt cobain (prod. yxngxs)

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