some of my most emotional songs out everywhere<3 love u

Runaway

spotify

runaway (feat. jomie & spookybands)

99th Floor ft. kennedyxoxo (sailor x jolst)

[lyrics]

NOAH THOMAS
aw yeah cypher song, take one breath i know you’re breathing me in, when I’m a thousand miles away how could you still think of him?, you’re on the train home thinking about what y’all could’ve been, when i was right here all along, just kept making amends

SPOOKYBANDS
baby hang on, i’ve been good as far as you know, we don’t need to make problems, i cant love you right now girl, yeah i can fix up that front door that you complain about, you say you can feel a draft still, i dont need you getting colder

SACE6
and I’m still holding on, for it to be the same, if i’m still going on, don’t ask me to stay, i’m so sick of writing paragraphs, no need to cry it wouldn’t last, anyways, anyways

HAMILTON
and i’m so sick of feeling like this, woke up and my body feeling lifeless, i’m at the bottom of the bottle can you pick me up, i’m so sick of feeling this stuck in my head, every single day, memories of you start to fade away and turn gray, as i turn a new page, i’m just another dog trying to break my cage 

KENNY ORLANDO
and if i said that i moved on then you know i’d be lying, how do i put something i love so damn much behind me, i’m stuck in hiding, but let it find me, how do you move on? you do it blindly

KILLMESUMDAY
this time you can lose my number, i don’t know why this happens to me, time flies she still wears my sweater, thats the closest that she’ll get to me, my heart hurts cause i still remember all the lies that you fed to me, we can’t talk you’re always pulling me under, i can’t let you get the best of me

EZRA
you’re far away and i hate you, you won’t find another me i hope it breaks you up, was it a mistake to let you live a dream i hope life f***ing wakes you up, I-95 i’m driving all alone and i’m driving drunk, just stay alive, i’m trying, your heartless words don’t help me much

LOVE JAI
if i'm a piece of your puzzle i just won't ever fit, i feel like some people hate me and they just won't admit, i live up to your expectations i'm a piece of s**t, i got a target on my head and it's hit or miss, don't pay no mind heart intertwined and my hands are tied, i can feel the pressure from all angles I’m not switching sides congratulations your wish is true don’t act so surprised, wont say a word about it and i don’t even know why 

KENNEDYXOXO
it’s like i want what i cant have, i’m so self destructive i suggest that you stand back and you’ll be okay, tough love isn’t that bad, is that sad, now that this is over i wonder who got the last laugh, and its over with i told you i was never okay, you told me to get over it like “oh you don’t say”, i’d be colder and emotionless i dug my own grave, now it’s time for you to leave me here before its too late

JOMIE
when will you care cause i doubt you ever did, yeah we close to the finale hope you had fun cause i did, i feel like robin since my pretty b***h look  to go shopping, anything for her by any means, so run your pockets, vroom vroom got one speed i’m zooming, told her if she got another option she should choose it, why you looking At my face you think that funny s**t amusing, you stay at your momma’s place then make fun of my music, what the f**k you doing, its getting harder to be the bigger person, it’s only a loss if you find you didn’t leaRn s**t, i know i’ve won when i write my name in cursive on your girlfriends lips she says that i’ve earned it

aw yeah cypher song ft. spookybands, hamilton, Love Jai, Ezra, & Jomie

the lights are on but no ones home (king theta)

cruel girl w no.cape (prod. citrusgastank) *not finished*

produced by ig @imrjbender
mix & mastered ig @imrjbender

done (prod @imrjbender)

lost the save so the mix is a$$ but this is my favorite song so im still dropping it (feat. Jomie)

foot on pedal (feat. Jomie)

much more grass (prod. imrjbender)

Self Destruct 💣(prod. Dead Spyro)

context: this is the original version of nickisgonenow’s “there was blood on the floor underneath u” but we had a falling out, and it resulted in him taking me off the song before release 

nick passed away recently; fortunately for me, i was able to squash our issues long before that happened, and we were once again on good terms, he was a super talented person, and seeing the success this song would go on to gain never once bothered me (which is weird because i’m naturally a super jealous person) and i think that’s because i knew he had a banger on his hands, i remember when he first sent me this open and it shook my whole house on the speakers, i lost my mind. this song is perfect as it was without me squeezed on at the end, and i knew it 

nevertheless, any work i have with nick is now public on my profile, he was a character and a super talented person that i had the honour of working with 

i miss ya nick, and i hope whatever greets us after death is treating you well

my verse lyrics: 

and there was blood underneath you
dripping down from your nose 
wanna cry? baby me too 
and i just wanted to see you
bad day, feel ashamed
i just wanted a redo
i don’t feel it
i’m too fucked up to see you
out of my league
all these girls they wanna be you
down another bottle throw my sorrows in the back room
standing in the mirror
say “i love you”, you don’t have to 

__________

beat by: @nickisgonenow
featuring: @nickisgonenow
u the goat nick fr

Self Destruct 💣(prod. Dead Spyro)

Academy