You picked me up, I don’t remember
And I couldn’t tell you why
In these dreams the only place it seems
Where you haven’t died

In the dry early December
No ambulance cries
The silent screams waiting underneath
Tear at us inside

The walls stained cigarette
The floors covered in dust
The place lives on as I remember
Instead of all this rust

Why can’t we go back there
Before time took it’s toll
I need a place I can call home
Before I grow old

No

Nostalgia

I’m back
Hold your cries
I got a black Cadillac
And bloodshot eyes

I’m trapped
It’s my lot in life
You can’t have that
The Lord did not provide

A happy ending where no one really cares
Its just another one sided love affair

And that
Will leave you blind
No pretending
You are not my kind

It’s all over now
I’ll say it again
You keep shooting these lies
Aimed at my head
If you don’t know by now
This is the end
Your pale disguise
Falls down again

We’ve tried it your way now we’ll do mine
A made up story and I’m feeling fine

But you should know by now
This is the end
Over and over, and over, over again

If we could only live again
Remember times you were my friend
If we must falter at the end
From all the lies you’ve had to spin

If we could only live again
Remember times you were my friend
If I should call, lend out a hand
We’ll see how time began

I’m back
For the millionth time
This dragging ending is a fucking crime
And that
Is how you say goodbye
No sign of warning
We’re out of time

Back Again

You think that you see me
For everything that I am
You think that you’ll bleed me
But what you don’t understand
Is pressure’s how I’m made
There’s a fire inside
I never should have stayed
But that is no fault of mine

You think that you need me
That I would hold your hand
You think that I am complete
More like a complete sham
But someday you will see
That I was never alive
I will not judge you for
What you’ve done to survive


Get this thought out of your head
The silence bought my only friend
You know the truth
I’ve nothing to say to you

Turn and toss, it never ends
The deepest loss, I’ve nothing left
Except for you
You know it’s true


You think that you see me
For everything that I am
You think that you’ll bleed me
But what you don’t understand
Is pressure’s how I’m made
There’s a fire inside
I never should have stayed
But that is no fault of mine

You think that you need me
That I would hold your hand
You think that I am complete
More like a complete sham
But someday you will see
That I was never alive
I will not judge you for
What you’ve done to survive


The pain it stops
I can’t hear what you say
We’ve paid the cost
There was no other way

We can’t go on
Can’t live in yesterday
Just sing my song
Tell me it’s OK


You think that you see me
For everything that I am
You think that you’ll bleed me
But what you don’t understand
Is pressure’s how I’m made
There’s a fire inside
I never should have stayed
But that is no fault of mine

You think that you need me
That I would hold your hand
You think that I am complete
More like a complete sham
But someday you will see
That I was never alive
I will not judge you for
What you’ve done to survive

You Think That

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Accuser Of The Brethren - With Intent (OpeDang Remix)

It’s all in my head
You could mistake me for dead
But you can’t comprehend
This world is only pretend
Was it something I said
Or what I really meant
You’ve heard all my words
You get what you get

Why try again
When theres no consequence
It turns and it turns
It’s my only defense
It burns and it burns
Like the bridges I’ve met
And by the next verse
I’ll be forgiven

I will not stop
I will not go
I’m all I’ve got
I’ve lost control

Is it real that I feel
Like we’re all just a mass
It sounds so absurd 
But the matter of fact is
To binge and to purge
Is a natural reaction
To live and to learn
How it really happened

How It Really Happened

Oh don’t you see me
Oh god I’d wish you’d see me
Seeing is believing and
And who’d want to be me

Those words left me reeling
I can’t fight this feeling
Who am I really
Who am I really

It’s all part of the plan
You can’t shake me from this
The words fall through my hands
Full of venom and spit

It’s like you don’t understand
You’ve gone and you’ve made the list
The words fall through my hands
It all ends with a fist

It all ends with a fist

Do or die
There’s no reason why
The truth inside
It’s my turn to cry

If suicide
Won’t end this ride
You said I lied
You said I lied

It’s all part of the plan
You can’t shake me from this
The words fall through my hands
Full of venom and spit

It’s like you don’t understand
You’ve gone and you’ve made the list
The words fall through my hands
It all ends with a fist

It all ends with a fist

It all ends with a fist

It All Ends

I
Don’t feel the same as I used to be
Inside
I feel it growing inside of me
I can’t help it
I am

Lost
I am
Found
I am
One
With the ground
I am
Bought
I am
Crowned
I am
One
With the sound

I
Can’t escape my memory and
I
Don’t feel the same as I used to be

I am
Lost
I am
Found
I am
One
With the ground
I am
Bought
I am
Crowned
I am
One
With the sound
I am
Not
Going to break
I am
Not
Some mistake
That you
Made
I am
All
I am
None
I am
Here now I’m
Gone

I Am

Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to

Falling apart is the new zeitgeist
I’ve paid the piper and doubled the price
And it’s all just sleight of hand
Time escapes these fingers like sand

Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to

I am 
Nothing
I’ll never speak again
Let’s not pretend
I’m something
Other what you said
It’s in my head now
Rotting
I’m better off when I’m dead
I won’t regret
I’m falling
Deeper and deeper yet
The silence comforting

Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to
Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to


Inside Your Head Is Someone You Have Never Met

In the darkest night
Of my neon dreams
It’s made of light
Bursting at the seams

In sudden fright
I heard a scream
Something wasn’t right
It was coming for me

My body gave chase
My breathing heaved
I needed to rest
I needed to leave

When then I saw
In front of me
An open maw
A fall so deep


The light is blinding
As my eyes break
Finding my footing
As I wake

Shake off the rest
Snap into shape
With each step
The whole world shakes

Crowds disperse
Sirens fade
Clouds adjourn
Time elongates

I am the beginning
I am your fate
Alpha omega
Small and great


Judgement Day
The end is nigh
Sackcloth black
Turns the sky

This holy task
To be incurred
Each whip of the lash
Thrice deserved

Apocalypse now
Chaos reigns
The golden cow
Wrought to flame

The dead will rise
And walk again
This paradise
In my name

Neon Dreams

There’s a part of me I wish that I could hide
A slow decay that starts from the inside
I’m crumbling, before my time
An unfinished portrait devoid of pride
All the feelings I get I still can’t cry
All the reasons to live that just don’t rhyme
Days fly past and I’m all out of time
But I can’t go just yet, I can’t say goodbye

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss

No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling

Nostalgia just seems like a putrid disease
These fucked up memories that have me on my knees
Now will God show herself and hear my fucking pleas
Cause I long for comfort and I long for peace
I’m strong as balsa in a torrent of flame
A whore for anguish but I’m fucked just the same
I can’t be a player if I won’t play the game
I won’t be remembered if you don’t know my name

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss

No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling
No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling

I Am

A Darker Breed

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