Music and lyrics by Ekathorik, Horus Blak & XBloodBathX. Production and mixing by Dallas Casper. Mastering by Arthur Rizk. Album art by Mark Cooper.

Guts

My skin white as fright
My heart is black as stain
My blood is immigrant
My future’s only grey
It don’t matter how many
Lives I lead
It is all the same
No more time to grieve

I thought of suicide
I thought of better days
I thought my life’s pride on the line
Would fucking move me
I hear my mother’s words
I feel my father’s pain
I know my brother’s regret
In his last few beats

And in the end, I’ll pretend the regrets have finally stopped
But the unfortunate circumstance of this life can’t be forgot

This certain plan to prove what I am
It waxes and it wanes
A biography I am penning in blood
I’ve poured onto the stage


Do you feel me?
I’m breaking down
These moments collapse
In piles on the ground

Do you hear me?
Do you hate the sound?
These memories collect
Once lost and once found


This is my goddamn song
I won’t right any wrongs
My last fuck burning up
In a 5 foot bong

My path is always astray
Awake and starved for days
You can count my worries
In my filled up ashtray

One time to feel your brain collapsing
I’m about three shots and four whole tabs in
If you got the mic I’ll be the assassin
If you got the blunt then you better pass it


Do you feel me?
I’m breaking down
These moments collapse
In piles on the ground

Do you hear me?
Do you hate the sound?
These memories collect
Once lost and once found

Do you feel me?
I’m breaking down
These moments collapse
In piles on the ground

Do you hear me?
Do you hate the sound?
These memories collect
Once lost and once found

Origins

Shallow Grave

Paranoid
Mind erasing
I can’t face
The mirror
I’m facing to
Call the void
Dark embracing
I can’t reach the 
High I’m chasing
Now

I’m sorry
Don’t do this
I’m not quite
Built right for this
No
I’m not
Whole

My story
My business
You can’t escape
From this mess
No
I’ve lost control

The time has come
To make my mind up
Strung with a bow
My neck is tied up
The noose to close
The ledge to slide off and
I can’t shut my fucking mind off
So

I’m sorry
Don’t do this
I’m not quite
Built right for this
No
I’m not
Whole

My story
My business
You can’t escape
From this mess
No
I’ve lost control

I’m sorry
Don’t do this
I’m not quite
Built right for this
No
I’m not
Whole

My story
My business
You can’t escape
From this mess
No
I’ve lost control

My Business

I hold onto this raft
My ship is sinking fast
I can’t survive this crash 

My world turns to ash 
The sky turns sackcloth black
All my hopes are dashed

Breathe
Deep as your lungs
Start to fill with fire
Catch and release
Burning without a
Desire
Sold to me
At face value to buy
No receipt just the stain on

My soul can’t bleed
I can’t control myself
Won’t someone set me free

My hope is not me
Just as my lungs collapse
Now I can finally be

The sea
Blackened abyss
My body adrift
Rescue me
I can’t exist
Upon this distant
Dream
Somnambulance
Walking towards my
Being
Lost at sea
Body broken and

I hold onto this raft
My ship is sinking fast
I can’t survive this crash 

My world turns to ash 
The sky turns sackcloth black
All my hopes are dashed

My soul can’t bleed
I can’t control myself
Won’t someone set me free

My hope is not me
Just as my lungs collapse
Now I can finally be

The Sea

Oh this scene of calm disarray
This day began like any other day
Now this loss, the sorrow showing
How these cracks just keep on growing

Raced so fast to no avail
You left just one to tell the tale
The sirens quiet, the vans of white
I missed the day turn into night

The story’s done, the chapter rights
This lesson learned of pain and strife
Carved out of my book of life

So stop me if you’ve heard this before
You won’t like what’s trapped behind that door
The lights are on, the waters flowing
You have no choice but to keep on going

Oh this scene it plays more and more
As years go on like waves on the shore
It’s as if you’re here no more

As I relive what I can’t forget
The day you’d gone, the day it ends
My brother, my gift, my beloved friend
There are no words but those you left

So stop me if you’ve heard this before
You won’t like what’s trapped behind that door
The lights are on, the waters flowing
You have no choice but to keep on going

Oh this scene it plays more and more
As years go on like waves on the shore
It’s as if you’re here no more

Stop Me

You’re fucking with the best
One step and there’ll be nothing left
Take a fucking breath
Inhale the smoke of conquest
Blow it out your chest
Relax and pass that bong hit
Make a fucking mess
Jump up and in that mosh pit

Jump up and in that mosh pit
Jump up and in that mosh pit
Jump up and in that mosh pit
Jump up and in that mosh pit

Mosh Pit

I can’t escape my head
It’s pushing me off of this edge
Times is up
The second hand stopped
Save no more face
Except the clock

Just one more time around
Until I’m placed in the ground
Illusions shattered
Give way to grief
It doesn’t matter what you need


You see me there’s nothing left to say
I was never going to make it anyway
Believe me, it shouldn’t end this way
Cut the curtain, start the fade in
It’s my life if I want to take it


Bury me ‘neath my regret
It’s more than I should have said
If I give up and open wide
I’ll start the flood of what’s inside

A Pandora’s jar of my
Feelings and reasons to hide
This constant battle I can’t escape
String the arrow, hold the blade


You see me there’s nothing left to say
I was never going to make it anyway
Believe me, it shouldn’t end this way
Cut the curtain, start the fade in
It’s my life if I want to take it

End This Way

Is this real-life
Is this a dream
It’s time I realize
It’s not what it seems

It’s not my loss
Or all of my grief
Cold tempest tossed
And I’m lost out at sea

Burning to live
Living to burn
I cannot move
If it isn’t my turn

I’m stuck in my place
In time and space
I’m all alone
With this look on my face


Please help me
Time’s bending
This is how my story's ending
Surrounding
Relenting
This is how my story's ending


Head in the clouds
Feet in the grave
This will all pass 
If you only behave

Pushing this plow
For meager pay
Putting my crown
Up for quick sale

Loud is the sound
Throughout my veins
I’m not too proud to
Be broken and lame

This time I found
A fire in me
I’ll watch it grow
I’ll watch it breathe


Please help me
Time’s bending
This is how my story's ending
Surrounding
Relenting
This is how my story's ending

Please help me
Time’s bending
This is how my story's ending
Surrounding
Relenting
This is how my story's ending

My Story's Ending

I watch the moon fall and the darkness fade
The curtain call on a night well played
And through it all I contemplate on
How this day won’t be my fate

No

I’ve been knocked down and I want some more
Spent eight long years on that dirty floor
Paid all these tears to be shown the door
Can you show me what I’m fighting for

Forgive all my stressing
There’s no second-guessing
This is so depressing
Could this be a blessing

I’m broken and bending
I’m done my pretending
Approaching my ending
I’m hoping and fending

Now
That you’ve seen my face
Come down
This is my disgrace
It’s all
My breathing space
The fall
Of my bleeding grace


This won’t be the end of me
Spring it back and let it bleed
Blacken out all you can see
One more task and then you’re free


Paranoid, I’m overjoyed
Tweaking, freaking minds destroyed
I’m thinking we can fill the void
Pretend that we are humanoid
My being, feeling state of mind
I once was lost but now I’m blind
Seeking meaning among my kind
I’m sick of being out of time

Out of time, out of place
Will someone slap me in my face
The things I’ve done to win this race
The things I’ll do to leave this place
These dirty shoes can’t keep pace
I blur my mind with thumping bass and
Everyday I hope and pray
That I will find a higher state


This won’t be the end of me
Spring it back and let it bleed
Blacken out all you can see
One more task and then you’re free


Free

I’m just another
Depressed
Suicidal
Struggle daily for survival
Blasphemous
Burning Bibles
I know when my word is final
Take a hit
Fake a smile
I’ve been dead for quite a while
Old man
Wild child
I don’t even like my style
Broke ass
No class
In the bush with no map
Three tabs
Whole bag
Let me see that ass clap
Smoke weed
Six speed
Don’t know what it all means
Adderall and coffee
Get the fuck up off me

Get back
Stay back
Get fucked
Get away from me

Get the fuck up off me

Get back
Stay back
Get fucked
Get away from me

Get the fuck up off me

Get back
Stay back
Get fucked
Get away from me

Get the fuck up off me

Get back
Stay back
Get fucked
Get away from me

Get the fuck up off me bitch

Back Up

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Origins

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