Music I made for the main menu of my Fallout Tale of Two Wastelands playthrough

Download the mod here
https://www.nexusmods.com/newvegas/mods/89990

The New Wastelands

There’s a part of me I wish that I could hide
A slow decay that starts from the inside
I’m crumbling, before my time
An unfinished portrait devoid of pride
All the feelings I get I still can’t cry
All the reasons to live that just don’t rhyme
Days fly past and I’m all out of time
But I can’t go just yet, I can’t say goodbye

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss

No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling

Nostalgia just seems like a putrid disease
These fucked up memories that have me on my knees
Now will God show herself and hear my fucking pleas
Cause I long for comfort and I long for peace
I’m strong as balsa in a torrent of flame
A whore for anguish but I’m fucked just the same
I can’t be a player if I won’t play the game
I won’t be remembered if you don’t know my name

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss

No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling
No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling

Lifestyle

I need help to clean this mess
I can't help but stress
It's a mess that you made me

My whole life reduced to piles
Can't get around
On my own fucking safely

Can't get ahead no matter what I've read
Just spend and spend til you're broke and dead
It's on my face, it's in my head
This fucking place might be my end

I don't think one thing precludes the other
Could this be something we do together
And it don't matter what they say
It's all our circus anyway

We are the crowd
We are the clowns
We are the flames that burn this down

You are the queen
I am the crown
We are the flames that burn this down

Burn this down

We Are The Flames

Faces all turned their back
The light you cast has all turned black
There are traces of something past
Left alone we show our cracks

Baseless truth in lies
It’s the one thing I can’t abide
So lets take this fucked up ride
Cut all the bullshit get ready to die

You can’t see truth where you don’t believe
You don’t need proof to get on your knees
To pacify your God above
You live in lies and shutter love
You can’t see truth where you don’t believe

The kings crown, a thorned affair
What you breathe is all hot air
You’ll break down from the weight of prayer
Your only hope doesn’t even care

You can’t see truth where you don’t believe
You don’t need proof to get on your knees
To pacify your God above
You live in lies and shutter love
You can’t see truth where you don’t believe

Truth

Separate
You cannot feel this
You can’t say it’s a part of me
As I wait
For it to end

Desecrate
Devour and kill bliss
I can feel it inside of me
Hesitate
My life depends

If it were not for you I’d be collapsing
Fold on myself, my body reacting
Save for my health
Divisions subtracting
Dead

Solemnly sordid I can’t go back there
Visions distorted blurred but you’re right there
Truth be told
I never tried


For You

Turpentine won’t clean it off
There’s nothing left but what you wrought
Deep inside you know the cost
Another day another life was lost

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing’s wrong 
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are all the ghosts you will become


Somethings wrong
No one there
Pass each day without a care
No solemn vow, no mournful prayer
Will bring you back, who knows from where

The name you made now history
Your day to day a mystery
How could you do this to me
Leave all this broken, piece by piece


Turpentine won’t clean it off
There’s nothing left but what you wrought
Deep inside you know the cost
Another day another life was lost

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing’s wrong 
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are all the ghosts you will become


All your plans have up and crashed
Each grain of sand beyond your grasp
Upon the ashes of eras past
Your shadow cast it will not last
From dust to dust to dirt to grass
Year to year they pile up fast


Turpentine won’t clean it off
There’s nothing left but what you wrought
Deep inside you know the cost
Another day another life was lost

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing’s wrong 
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are all the ghosts you will become

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing's wrong
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are the ghosts you will become 

All the Ghosts You Will Become

Hearing you breathe 
Again and again 
Your lips on my teeth 
We are sinking in 
The blood underneath 
This porcelain grin 
You are all that I need 
My favorite sin

I pull away 
But you curl inside of me 
Through night and day 
You stir up the dark in me 
Come what may 
This ache is rightfully 
Where I lay 
With you sighing quietly

Paranoid 
Because I know what’s out there 
Fill the void 
Run your hands in my hair 
I’m destroyed 
With you just gasping right there 
Your voice alloyed 
Hunger feeding despair

Terribly
I know that I want you
Part of me
You know that you want to
Solemnly
Sweetly bearing sharp tooth
Impossibly
Being that combines two

Bruised and bound
You trace what’s left of me
Without a sound
You drink the breath from me
I’m spellbound
This little death of me
Turn around
And take the rest of me

Spellbound

I remember it well
They told us the sun would rise, but I saw it fall
A flash, a roar
That light broke the silent night and left nothing in its wake
Everything I had loved turned to dust


The fall carries songs
On a dead bird’s wing
To avert tragedy
Like a spider’s string

If it were all up to me
We would laugh and sing
Look back on the past
And the beautiful things

Look back at the collapse
Where it all begins
Perhaps we were trapped
From the start of things

It’s thoughts like that 
That get you killed
Take you out back
Till silence fills


In a sky so black
With the stars alight
It won’t change the fact

The sun shines tonight

There’s no turning back
The flames burning bright
With a sudden crack

The sun shines tonight

Your eyes turned to ash
You can’t take the light
The end is coming fast

The sun shines tonight

Goodbye to what we had
Goodbye to the new life
Caught up in the blast

The sun shines tonight

The Sun Shines Tonight


Sick
Why you you always talking to me
Wanna do me
Hit me slay it

Theres an awful lot of truth
I got the proof
I’m gonna say it

You told me 
To count out my words
I’m only folding
And doling out adverbs

This scene again will play tomorrow
The same again will play today
And if you got some sugar to borrow
I can be your honeybee


Seasons
Over and end again
You can’t comprehend

The reason
Why you’re the only one left
There is no more rest

This feeling
Pushing behind your eyes
Pay heed to the wise

My meaning
A twisted hypothesis
Why I don’t exist


Relax
It’s just a modern tactic
Just to light the matchstick
To pretend like I don’t exist

I’m back is just another outfit
To find out about this
Other end of your fucking list

How we bout we take this forward
How bout we push it back
It’s danger we’re going toward
And I got no fucking slack


It’s treason
Enemy behind the lines
There is no disguise

Believing
All your fucking lies
And crocodile cries

I’m reeling
I’m stoned out of mind
I’m going blind

My demons
Hope I fucking die
Fucking try

Honeybee

I am the lover beneath your sheets
I am the hunter
I am the meat

I am the thunder
I am the storm
I am the only
I am the swarm

I am the holy
I am forsaken
I am the last breath to be taken

I am here to remind you that
I am the fear that finds you

I am the thing beneath your bed
I am the ringing in your head

I am the last thing that you’ll see
I am no one else but me

The New Wastelands

A Darker Breed

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