Music I made for the main menu of my Fallout Tale of Two Wastelands playthrough

Download the mod here
https://www.nexusmods.com/newvegas/mods/89990

The New Wastelands

I
Don’t feel the same as I used to be
Inside
I feel it growing inside of me
I can’t help it
I am

Lost
I am
Found
I am
One
With the ground
I am
Bought
I am
Crowned
I am
One
With the sound

I
Can’t escape my memory and
I
Don’t feel the same as I used to be

I am
Lost
I am
Found
I am
One
With the ground
I am
Bought
I am
Crowned
I am
One
With the sound
I am
Not
Going to break
I am
Not
Some mistake
That you
Made
I am
All
I am
None
I am
Here now I’m
Gone

I Am

Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to

Falling apart is the new zeitgeist
I’ve paid the piper and doubled the price
And it’s all just sleight of hand
Time escapes these fingers like sand

Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to

I am 
Nothing
I’ll never speak again
Let’s not pretend
I’m something
Other what you said
It’s in my head now
Rotting
I’m better off when I’m dead
I won’t regret
I’m falling
Deeper and deeper yet
The silence comforting

Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to
Hear me
I’m calling out your name
If it’s only fear I feel then I’m falling down the same, and I said
Believe me
These words will all ring true
Who’s inside my head I’ve never met and I never intend to


Inside Your Head Is Someone You Have Never Met

In the darkest night
Of my neon dreams
It’s made of light
Bursting at the seams

In sudden fright
I heard a scream
Something wasn’t right
It was coming for me

My body gave chase
My breathing heaved
I needed to rest
I needed to leave

When then I saw
In front of me
An open maw
A fall so deep


The light is blinding
As my eyes break
Finding my footing
As I wake

Shake off the rest
Snap into shape
With each step
The whole world shakes

Crowds disperse
Sirens fade
Clouds adjourn
Time elongates

I am the beginning
I am your fate
Alpha omega
Small and great


Judgement Day
The end is nigh
Sackcloth black
Turns the sky

This holy task
To be incurred
Each whip of the lash
Thrice deserved

Apocalypse now
Chaos reigns
The golden cow
Wrought to flame

The dead will rise
And walk again
This paradise
In my name

Neon Dreams

I can’t breathe
I’m collapsed inside
Each breath a task meant
To wound my pride

I will bleed
To show you mine
Now show me yours
And open wide

Can’t you see
It’s all on the line
Each second I need
I run out of time

I can’t breathe
But I’m feeling fine
It’s all an ask
To help me with my
Dying


Suddenly
It all comes back
Each breath I take
Might be the last

Part of me
Stuck in the past
Yet here I stand
A shadow cast

We’ve tread this road
Worn from our tracks
Not far to go
No turning back

I walk alone
As you react
A stepping stone
A trail of black
Dies

I Can't Breathe

There’s a part of me I wish that I could hide
A slow decay that starts from the inside
I’m crumbling, before my time
An unfinished portrait devoid of pride
All the feelings I get I still can’t cry
All the reasons to live that just don’t rhyme
Days fly past and I’m all out of time
But I can’t go just yet, I can’t say goodbye

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss

No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling

Nostalgia just seems like a putrid disease
These fucked up memories that have me on my knees
Now will God show herself and hear my fucking pleas
Cause I long for comfort and I long for peace
I’m strong as balsa in a torrent of flame
A whore for anguish but I’m fucked just the same
I can’t be a player if I won’t play the game
I won’t be remembered if you don’t know my name

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
How can I go on living if I cannot pay the cost

I am just the sum of all my faults
Do not get behind me as I drag my heavy cross
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss
Will I become nothing but a tally of my loss

No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling
No
I can’t stand still
Boxing my emotions into little yellow pills
I’m drowning in this ocean I’m not fucking growing gills
Give me a solution that just isn’t getting killed
No
I don’t feel free
Drudging through this daily is just fucking misery
Waking every morning its just me that isn’t dawning
I’m stuck bleeding and I’m crawling
Like the angel I am falling

Lifestyle

I need help to clean this mess
I can't help but stress
It's a mess that you made me

My whole life reduced to piles
Can't get around
On my own fucking safely

Can't get ahead no matter what I've read
Just spend and spend til you're broke and dead
It's on my face, it's in my head
This fucking place might be my end

I don't think one thing precludes the other
Could this be something we do together
And it don't matter what they say
It's all our circus anyway

We are the crowd
We are the clowns
We are the flames that burn this down

You are the queen
I am the crown
We are the flames that burn this down

Burn this down

We Are The Flames

Faces all turned their back
The light you cast has all turned black
There are traces of something past
Left alone we show our cracks

Baseless truth in lies
It’s the one thing I can’t abide
So lets take this fucked up ride
Cut all the bullshit get ready to die

You can’t see truth where you don’t believe
You don’t need proof to get on your knees
To pacify your God above
You live in lies and shutter love
You can’t see truth where you don’t believe

The kings crown, a thorned affair
What you breathe is all hot air
You’ll break down from the weight of prayer
Your only hope doesn’t even care

You can’t see truth where you don’t believe
You don’t need proof to get on your knees
To pacify your God above
You live in lies and shutter love
You can’t see truth where you don’t believe

Truth

Separate
You cannot feel this
You can’t say it’s a part of me
As I wait
For it to end

Desecrate
Devour and kill bliss
I can feel it inside of me
Hesitate
My life depends

If it were not for you I’d be collapsing
Fold on myself, my body reacting
Save for my health
Divisions subtracting
Dead

Solemnly sordid I can’t go back there
Visions distorted blurred but you’re right there
Truth be told
I never tried


For You

Turpentine won’t clean it off
There’s nothing left but what you wrought
Deep inside you know the cost
Another day another life was lost

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing’s wrong 
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are all the ghosts you will become


Somethings wrong
No one there
Pass each day without a care
No solemn vow, no mournful prayer
Will bring you back, who knows from where

The name you made now history
Your day to day a mystery
How could you do this to me
Leave all this broken, piece by piece


Turpentine won’t clean it off
There’s nothing left but what you wrought
Deep inside you know the cost
Another day another life was lost

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing’s wrong 
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are all the ghosts you will become


All your plans have up and crashed
Each grain of sand beyond your grasp
Upon the ashes of eras past
Your shadow cast it will not last
From dust to dust to dirt to grass
Year to year they pile up fast


Turpentine won’t clean it off
There’s nothing left but what you wrought
Deep inside you know the cost
Another day another life was lost

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing’s wrong 
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are all the ghosts you will become

When your time has come and gone
You lived your life like nothing's wrong
Like the moonlight haunts the sun
These are the ghosts you will become 

All the Ghosts You Will Become

Hearing you breathe 
Again and again 
Your lips on my teeth 
We are sinking in 
The blood underneath 
This porcelain grin 
You are all that I need 
My favorite sin

I pull away 
But you curl inside of me 
Through night and day 
You stir up the dark in me 
Come what may 
This ache is rightfully 
Where I lay 
With you sighing quietly

Paranoid 
Because I know what’s out there 
Fill the void 
Run your hands in my hair 
I’m destroyed 
With you just gasping right there 
Your voice alloyed 
Hunger feeding despair

Terribly
I know that I want you
Part of me
You know that you want to
Solemnly
Sweetly bearing sharp tooth
Impossibly
Being that combines two

Bruised and bound
You trace what’s left of me
Without a sound
You drink the breath from me
I’m spellbound
This little death of me
Turn around
And take the rest of me

The New Wastelands

A Darker Breed