wishing i realized my place in this mess sooner

prod me
https://aaronkusnier.art/until

red stains on my tee
and don't tell no one they were free
can't get past this debris
they're hoping i won't make it out
and that's very lovely
your words were so ugly
such bad taste in meaning
(what's the meaning?)
what's the point in anything you say if all you do is lie
i gave you my trust, you bled it out until it dried
still can't come to terms with anything inside my life
so guessing that's part of the game

and i'm so sick of fighting with the devil
who convinced me that i got no potential
and the cards that played were successful, truly
couldn't put up a fight but that was all before
it's been breaking me down to my core
yet still don't know what i'm fighting for

and i won't ever understand the shit that you said
refuse to let that get to me
wont settle in defeat
nah!!!
talk your fucking shit >:)
'cause you got nothing on me
ima end this softly and
wasted so much time to find an answer
time no one can ever get back
my silver lining is painted in blood, so much anger
now everything is such a drag

outta pocket
they make me wanna tear my eyes out of my sockets
but i won't let them see a day, it's what they started
i know i'll find a way, i'm like a heartless
hoping this is what they wanted

don't know what to seek
feel like i can't be me
still not past the debris
but hoping things will end fine
i've lost all my focus
most days, so hopeless
this world's got sour taste
(tastes like shit)
what's the point in anything at all if everything gets worse
it feels like 18 years i've been stuck inside a curse :/
but i will keep pushing 'cause there's gotta be a worth
until it's all over

and i hope for a day that i can come back
(to) a world of my own, no one can trespass
under the sun laying on the grass
'cause it's all that i have ):

streaming

until it's over

who knows

turned 16 yesterday, so i speedrun making a song for my birthday, but yeah its only a minute and i make this in like, 4 hours lol.

spent 2 hours trying to record a decent guitar chords 💀
I just learned guitar, its kinda sucks but it works (my fingers weak asf bro LIKE GAH DAMNN)
;-;

call @bmud

alone prod. hancan

Listen to 'nobody' in Saintimental Part 2 now!
https://open.spotify.com/album/7cmzbKeFYPSgFN9Yxd8ro5?si=X3b-s6XVSUSPrFg0JMUApw

Lyric Video
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLTvodjdZ2428sZsGNYsgKW7kBmFhlMGMK&si=m7qnM_x56VvgQHa-

https://soundcloud.com/rvld-858884728
https://instagram.com/datboyrvld/

Lyric

Bae can you dance with me?
Get lost in my fantasy, do alot a thing with me
Those eyes so beautiful can you see, can you hold this racks for me?
Shawty hit me two times, better you hit my line
And go fly with me, uh

I don't even know what happen, if that time you ain't hit my phone
You are the only reason why im talkin' about love
Let me hold your waist, look at that smile baby let's go drunk
Talkin' about us, and make me smile I make us song

You're my favorite uh, don't let us gone wrong
Late night with you baby, kiss your lips we go crazy
That time we holding hand, you got the rest of me babe
Yea I can love you more just than that, I swear there is nobody

I swear yea we can do it, there's nobody
Oh yea we making love I tell nobody
Nobody, I swear there is nobody
Nobody, fuck with me, uh
Uh, uh , uh, I swear there's nobody (uh)
I swear there is nobody, uh
I swear there is nobody, uh

Baby take a seat, and go ride with me
I got some good girl, she go shine with me
Baby I know you love it when you hold my hand
Lean to my shoulder, baby you know you got the chance, uh
You the only one, in my mind
We collide, by my side
We go low ligth, you catch my vibe
All the thing, yea we go vibin'

That shawty, to exotic
Call my name bae, yea you know it
You love it bae, don't fake it
Don't post it, they will hate it, uh

Go fly with me, go fly with me, uh (skkrt)
I go fly without the extacy, uh
Fly with me, go fly with me
And then we go like, we see no sunlight
I'll make this go right uh, I love that lip bite, uh
She got that thick thigh, she been looking at my eyes, uh
I like this gone right, I like that lip bite, oh yea

You're my favorite uh, don't let us gone wrong
Late night with you baby, kiss your lips we go crazy
That time we holding hand, you got the rest of me babe
Yea I can love you more just than that, I swear there is nobody

I swear yea we can do it, there's nobody
Oh yea we making love I tell nobody
Nobody, I swear there is nobody
Nobody, fuck with me, uh

who knows

aether net