Feelings❤️‍🩹

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back in business

produced by elavy

lyrics: 

tell me what you think about when you're laying in bed
tell me all the things you ever wish you could've said
tell me everything you'd like to do before you're dead
tell me that instead
tell me your regrets

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me what you want
what would you do for it?
something that you lost but now you're used to it
no matter the cost
just tell me what it is
get anything you want, if you got life to give
I'm stuck and I can't get out
can't remember my way in now
the ceilings caving down
can't remember when I last heard a sound
too late for saving now but I'd rather swim than drown
my heart is pacing now
be quick cuz I'm fading out

tell me would you self yourself for some cash flow
a little dinero, you don't gotta say no
you want it, just say so
no need to aim low
don't worry bout a halo baby
you're not an angel

tell me your regrets
don't hold 'em back
tell me what you wish you said
no strings attached
searching for something you need, something you lack
I think I understand why you still can't relax

tell me what's on your mind
tell me your biggest fears
tell me what you think of when no one else is here
tell me what you would say if no one else could hear
there's not a single soul besides us my dear
x2

tell me your regrets

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

probably my favorite instrumental i made so far

lyrics:

feel myself waiting, feel myself hoping
for people who never played their part

seasons keep changing, my conscious keeps growing
how can i escape when it gets dark?

swear i hold them well, the dreams of somebody else
feelings told and felt, but never for myself

i keep on dreaming, i keep on feinin
i'm losing sight of my life

my gums are bleeding, knew you were fleeting
but i still keep holding on

won't you tell me what to do? you're supposed to help me out
think I'm gonna see you soon, I'm just so done with this life

i'm seeking comfort
away from my problems

oh i do wonder
if i'll ever find my solace

(harmonizing)

i've been growing up and finding out yea
young nigga gon stay the same, i was born for the money and the fame
nigga talk crazy we gon let it bang, like yea

yea

feel the sun shining on my face
find myself hoping you reciprocating

solace.

throwaway

I’ve turned through every page in the book
still don’t know if I shouldn’t or I should
cuz you taste so bittersweet 
it’s like it shouldn’t have been me
but I can’t lie to you, it feels so good

feel like I should’ve known better
is this everything I wanted?
cuz I got it but I wish that i could-

take a u-turn, let it crumble
watch it burn down into rubble 
hoping that you go and find another one of me 

bitch I wish you would
but you prolly could
(oh why?)

wish u would

reupload. someone took it upon themselves to upload "eyelids" to all platforms as their own song and in turn, my upload of my own original song was copyright striked and taken down automatically. this is the same song just slightly pitched down. if it stays up without issue, enjoy.

produced by never forever


lyrics:

i know that i'm clouded
hope the sun shines someday upon me
I’ll open my eyelids
and see what I was missing 
cause my mind was so weak
crack open a smile for all the times I couldn’t speak
my mind

it don’t even matter, never lost faith in it
now I make a little pape with it
fuck around make a name with it
this a cold brew with some pain in it
now the boy got some age in em
same book but the page different
set a bookmark but it kept flipping on me
I’m running outta time

eyelids (reupload)

Count Up Dracula

junkie

find your way to me (demo)

Reaching For You

20 xxxtentacion - I Am! (Prod. Dj Patt)

Hacked recently. Trying to restore what I can. RIP Jahseh Onfroy.

Prod. by GF Retro: https://soundcloud.com/g_f_retro

xxxtentacion - OKAGE THE SHADOW KING

Forever Ever (ft. Young Thug & Reese Laflare)

i like to make things. thats pretty much it

solace.

malik.