I am scared of
Scared of
What I’ll find
Living
Living
In a toxic mind
Kinda deadly
To my self esteem
Can you hear me?

And it makes me kinda lonely
If only, If only, If only i’d change
I try but then there’s only grey around me
If only, If only, If only i’d change

If only if
If only if
If only if
If only if

Go Ahead
Why 
Don’t you
Punish me
Cause silence
Brings out
Brings out
The worst in me

If only if
If only if
If only if
If only if

It’s like a drummer is beating inside my chest
I used to think that a healer’s a cigarette
I only want a single thought
Just give me a single thought
Just give me a single thought
Without regret

It’s like a drummer is beating inside my chest
I used to think that a healer’s a cigarette
I only want a single thought
Just give me a single thought
Just give me a single thought
Without regret

But it makes me kinda lonely
When there’s only grey around me
Yeah it makes me kinda lonely
When there’s only grey around me

Song written by Maella
Produced by Maella, Steven Ansell
Mixed by Steven Ansell
Mastered by Katie Tavini
Visualiser by The Thrill of Losing

If Only

My Wounds Are Bleeding

What Am I Hoping For?

Smoked your love

more alternate versions of my music... raw vocals, chunky metal riffs, grunge, some electronic stuff. I may be little but I love to hit that distortion hard

Krispy Kreme Dream alt version 4

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