prod. cxrter

prod. tiedforsilver 2024

boogies 5

surprise surprise;)
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don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
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lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

spotify

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

TIPTOE (prod. MariMadeIt & 5starcrys) [MV OUT ON YT]

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

stay (tied for silver x flesh)

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

produced by tiedforsilver x avxid

lyrics 


everytime my body n ur body growin closer
if i keep it up like this then my heart will be growing colder
no matter what i do its like im pushing up a boulder
its only been a year but god i feel so much older 
leave me in the past
lemme rot
let me mold
i swear i’ll return 
i will trek out of the cold
i pretend its all fine but honestly im stuck at home
i think that ill blow my cover soon and end up in a hole

theres a void
in my heart
i hate being alone
i grow ever closer
until u make me fold
dont know what to talk about 
its been too long
i cant even walk around 
my knees cant hold

whats the point 
if i cant see u there with me
im a toy for u
but u give security 
and if i die soon i hope ull be holding me
i cant lie , i dont mind that u been pulling me

everytime my body n ur body growin closer
if i keep it up like this then my heart will be growing colder
no matter what i do its like im pushing up a boulder
its only been a year but god i feel so much older 
leave me in the past
lemme rot
let me mold
i swear i’ll return 
i will trek out of the cold
i pretend its all fine but honestly im stuck at home
i think that ill blow my cover soon and end up in a hole

crawling out of the tundra

lyrics

omg omg 
its a lot
say im fine
swear im fine
but im not
tie my hands
close the door
engage the locks
ik u love me cuz u keep me in ur closet
this the knife
that u put
in my lung
this the time
u had kept me 
on my own
keep my close
leave me chained to ur bed
luv the way
u had messed
w my head

closed doors get knocked down theres no one there
problems i got em but i wont share
deep down im damaged but you wont care
somehow i manage it isnt fair
omg omg can you hear me
i get lost in my own fucking feelings
omg omg can you feel me
im the ghost in your walls hear me breathing

omg omg 
its a lot
say im fine
swear im fine
but im not
tie my hands
close the door
engage the locks
ik u love me cuz u keep me in ur closet
this the knife
that u put
in my lung
this the time
u had kept me 
on my own
keep my close
leave me chained to ur bed
luv the way
u had messed
w my head

stockholm syndrome ft 20ofive

prod. acey心 x kill breanna
i really just appreciate yall still supporting me after so long and after so many stabs in the dark with music cus for the longest time i havent even known what ive wanted to do and i dont think i could ever say i truly know who i wanna be or what i wanna make in music but i love you guys so fuckin much and ive never enjoyed music more and its cus u guys make me realize i can be whatever i want in the end anyway. <3

im just tryna learn
what comes first in worth
no way, no way, ill get the time to see what you do
i have to keep my eyes on the road,
i havent felt carefree in so long.

no-o-oh way, that i could ever be exact.
mmh..mmh..
so-o-oh safe, and far away from decency,
i guess im safe, i know my place..
i guess im safe, i know my place..

im just tryna learn,
what comes first in worth:(
no way, no way... no! 
i have to keep my eyes on the road,
i havent felt carefree in so long.

;(
so long
so long
mh..mh..
huh.. oh..
mh..mh..
huh.. oh..
mh..mh..
uh.. woah.. !
uh.. woah..
uh.. woah..
uh.. woah..
so-o-oh safe, and far away from decency..

don’t tell me it’s over w/ treez (prod. cxrter x tiedforsilver)

JUT