prod. cxrter

surprise surprise;)
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don't usually do a surprise release, so take this as a gift lmao
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lyrics:
damn im talking to the moon again,
he's been there all my life but now he's become like a guardian,
my knight in shining armor, shielding me from pain,
but he's not overprotective, i'm still cruisin in my lane,
and maybe i got training wheels,
and maybe i'm up in my feels,
but never will i let that come between my love that's real,
and the person i embody, someone that has always smiled,
but now its painted on my face, i should've made it stretch for miles,

cause maybe then people will not take it for granted,
all the roots that i've planted
have drowned from all the rain that never seems to stop,
and my music seems to flop whenever i put in some thought,
but when i write them in 2 minutes, seems like gold that i have brought,

i promise you i'm not a king with a cave worth of his riches,
just a boy who likes his kisses, and the girl that he misses,
all my tears have collected in the ridges, and my attitude i switch it,
cause i'm bound to find an outfit that won't leave me in the ditches,

yea i hate that place, the anger plastered on my face,
i guess it's time that i replace, my face that's breaking at a pace,
it's got cracks like its a drought, and they are laced with doubt,
held together by the hope that i will make it out


(chorus)


the demons, they're all midgets,
the minutes, i've spent reflecting,
the hardships of comprehending,
the help they've been recommending,
reality i've been bending,
has stopped me from just pretending,
that i'm really fine, when my funeral ive been attending,

in a black suit, black coffin, black world, hope they care,
hope they show some color that they never seem to share,
in a world full of rainbows, im looking pretty gray,
that's probably why she left, i just had boring displays,


(chorus)

talking to the moon again (prod. cxrter)

Huge shout out to carter metro for the fire beats as always

Lyrics

If we weren't so far apart
id let you bloom into my heart baby
but you never give me the time of day
yeah you never look my way
im just another background character in your day to day
i dont think you want me

so help me breathe
yeah help me see
whats wrong with me
please baby

i hate it when you're mad at me 
for things that i cant even see
i swear you're lying right through your teeth
everytime you talk to me

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

these games aren't fun anymore baby
and im getting fed up of the way you treat me
so brutally so brutally

so

why dont you come back down to me
you knew we were fine before you kicked off at me 
for some bullshit last week

now im just asking her..

could you give it to me straight, yeah
could you give it to me straight yeah
i think that would be great yeah
yeah yeah

give it 2 me str8 (cxrter)

shout out to Carter Metro for the beat,  Julia Alexa for the beat vocals

Lyrics

ponder on my pains and which to consider worse
the pain you gave to me or the pain i inflicted first
feelings like a burden to those that i love the most
these demons got an airtight grip round my throat

i cant seem to ease my pain
every fucking day plays out the exact same 
i wake up, breathe air and leave my place
i get home, i starve myself and i fade away

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

I think im outta luck, when it comes to life
i make the same mistakes almost every night
i dont wanna fight this feeling no more
suicidal tendancies knock at my door
and i swear im this close, to just letting them in
i find solace in death, its so calm in the end
finally find some peace from within
some peace from within

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and

i dont care if
you break my heart
cause ive been hurting from the start
x2

im so alone but
you make me feel
all the things i want
and im so broken
but you make me feel
moments that give me hope and...

burden (cxrter)

Old Me (prod. Cxrter x Stafford Beats)

share this song, i hope you enjoy :) 
feature: lil softie // beat maker: cxrter // mix: xsus

why did you leave me? (ft. lil softie) prod. cxrter & xsus

Let You In (Prod. by cxrter x kazba beats)

backyard beetle - them w/ lxst boy (prod. cxrter + dianasty)

Volverte a Encontrar (Prod. Cxrter x Cloud x Bapsxx)

Produced by Cxrter and Sadpra
Mixed by Sam Henderson
Recorded 2022 at Always Be Genius

Better Luck Next Time

De Niro (Feat. Gxthwxxd) (Prod. Cxrter)

ｓｃａｔｔｅｒ　ｍｙ　ａｓｈ　ｔｈｅｎ　ｐｕｔ　ｆｌｏｗｅｒｓ　ｉｎ

keep going
love you guys.
ty all so so much for the support recently
check up on your friends, and in retrospect, more importantly yourself.
thank you so much for listening.
prod @cartermetro x @gavinhadley 🖤

(i barely feel at home right now)
(so i sedate through the drink and hope it all works out)

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

i ain't want screen time
they think i ain't worth shit when my light dies
but i'll brush it off and say, "fine, yeah."
just don't get back to me for hi's
'cause that was our last goodbye

(who am i?) (2x)

avoid coming 'cross me
i don't talk often
sugarcoated but without the chocolate
you got the message, so ignore the comments
but my heart is nauseous, that's the problem
i drink and repeat 'cause i love the peak
down with his men-tal, knights, now the king
stuck in this hell, into hell i will sink
if i died, would you grieve?
i'd like to believe
and i can't remember how i felt
the moment had seized me, it's really so evident
all that remains are reminders and remnants
i wish i told you how i felt.

wade through the rain
cherish the moment
difficulties only prove they're golden
full exhaust, eyes sewn wide open
regard me as dust
just a road with no bliss

foaming at the lips
if i'm human, i admit
i hold a heavy distaste for what you have to say
but i'll listen
i'll listen anyways

cauterize with the lime
press on the wound 'till i start feeling fine
why are the genuine so hard to find
but if i was counterfeit,
i would shatter on the ground when i fall
call; anyone but me at all
i'm out my element, don't be afraid though
i feel like porcelain
scatter my ash then put flowers in

porcelain [prod. cxrter x gavin hadley]

ｕｎｔｉｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｕｓｋ　ｅｒｏｄｅｓ，　ｏｒ　ｆｉｎａｌｌｙ　ｇｅｔｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ

produced by @cartermetro & @gualabeatz

hey, 
workng on a lot; it's been difficult to come by many things lately, 
but i'm really trying to get there
thank you so much for all your support
thank you so much for listening
thank you for being here
take care of yourselves
i love you
drink water 

i don't wanna lose the emotion
i don't wanna sweep it under the floor
'kay girl fuel that substance
like, somehow it knows you need something more
i don't wanna feel real love yet
'cauese love ain't love, it's knowing your core
and i know you know that you're running
better shape up 'fore you keep that

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird

when my neck goes stiff i try to stretch it
get some leverage into heaven
seen a lot of angry faces, disappointed my decisions
cold bed, lost friends, time spent just forgetting
sharp pains, dull fate; stimulate the seven senses

oh my, don't cry, feel fine that you're falling (2x)

fuck time killed over cheap thrills
like wine spills for some dopamine
i still that i'm unreal, so i choose to be who i wanna be
not swept up like room dust, when it turns dusk and i can't see
how i once felt, if i did well, for the person who had wanted me

never really know if it's a drill
am i really dying? wish i'd know that
write it all on the will
this windowsill really goes back
when all i had was to heal
now all i have is to collapse
coffee cans over pills
hands quake from the cold blast

this is not gonna work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect my worth, yea
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i'm just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

40 minutes pass uh
hot water still rolls off of back yo
never can relax, i
step out the moment the feeling retracts
now i feel in mass
got nowhere to go, so i'm making a track
easy as that
you know that you feel it so fade in the grass

neither fight or flight 'cause i'm aware of my abilities
i'll chalk it up until the dusk erodes or finally gets to me
i guess we tend to trust in what we fight for
but don't let a road become an eyesore
open up your mental, persevere and take a dip
just because you weren't there, it doesn't mean they ain't exist
i create to stimulate when no one's there to fill me in
'cause when your home's a hollow body, i could a little pinch, so

we can probably make it work
imagine reinvention
tryna recollect your worth
(worth) 2x
i hope you hear it in the words
or at least over the phone
i am just a broken bird
(i'm just broken)

cans [prod. cxrter x gualabeatz]

worthless (feat. QQUAYEE) prod. cxrter x splashgvng

-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-
Main Artist: xipz
Produced by: xipz x cxrter
Mixed by: xipz
Mastered by: xipz
Cover Art by: xipz
-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-
LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
i guess i understand it, you dont wanna feel right now
i dont wanna feel either
im lost when im not with her
im an ass and i tend to act out
baby i think i need a breather
but i dont wanna breathe right now
i dont even wanna be around
no, not right now

[Verse 2]
i guess i understand it, you dont know what you want
and neither do i
but im falling apart as shes with other guys
so i look at the moon, admire the sky
while i got tears falling out my eyes
god why cant i just be him
whats she need that i cant give
god why cant i just be him
whats she need that i cant give

i guess i understand :/

(prod by @prodcxrter x @prodbykazba)
5/20/23
WRITTEN, PERFORMED AND MIXED BY @capkyle
[for the best listening experience: listen with headphones.]

\\LYRICS//
[INTRO]
When I was 17 I only studied books
Had no Barbie waiting in my car
Were it so easy (haha halo reference in a big bang theory song big funny)

[CHORUS]
My brain is feeling high but my heart is feeling low
How do you return to the feeling that its home
Amy, can you take me?
Take it slow
No nobody will take away my darling

[VERSE]
I just heard a big bang
I think I need a theory
The universe collapsed, could we partner for some teaming?
I'm no young boy
I'll bring science to the masses
Amy, can you believe everything that has happened

[VERSE-CONTINUED]
My cranium could fill up a party
Intellect high, doesn't make this less scary
If I find another pattern I'll be sure to let you know
When we wake up in the morning and I find another note 

[BRIDGE]
When I was 17 I only studied books
Had no Barbie waiting in my car
I remember then 
We were young, no changing
Your the only one that could make me feel famous   
Sitting on a roof
Watching sunset fade in

[CHORUS]
My brain is feeling high but my heart is feeling low
How do you return to the feeling that its home
Amy, can you take me?
Take it slow
No nobody will take   away my darling

[VERSE]
I just heard a big bang
I think I need a theory
The universe collapsed could we partner for some teaming?
I'm no young boy
I'll bring science to the masses
Amy, can you believe everything that has happened

[VERSE-CONTINUED]
Looking in the mirror, can't believe it happened
Ima throw a rope in hopes to pull you back in
When you spill on your shirt
Bitch, I'll throw you another napkin
The universe will start when I stop my bad habits

Amy left me. (prod. cxrter x kazba beats)

Lyrics:

if only i, if only i was happy
if only i, if only i was happy
if only i, if only i was happy
only i

if only i was happy, i could watch the world burn
if only i was happy, i'd be ashes in an urn
if only i was happy, i would lock my heart away
if only i was happy, you could watch my soul decay
if only i, if only i was happy
if only i, I'll never be happy

i'll never be happy, i'll just feed into the laughter
i'll never be happy, i've been hanging from the rafters
i'll never be happy, i've been bleeding for the crowd
i'll never be happy but i'll make them fucking proud
blood on a blank canvas, take my final bow
watch my spirit vanish as i leave my broken shell

i wish i was happy, got me wishing, i wish was happy when i was

Credits:

Art: messy
Production: cxrter x cloud
Mix/Master: Ensenada Beats

happy (actor) prod. cxrter x cloud

last day of spring w/ JUT & r0th (prod. cxrter x bended)

ｔｈｅ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔ　ｍｅ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｌｏｏｓｅ　ｅｎｄ

love all of you guys seriously so much.
this is the only thing  i ever want to do, and your support helps push me to continue with all of this; i would regardless, but i'm grateful to no ends for whatever kind of reception is given back. things have been seriously difficult as of late, and so all i can say is thank you for being here. thank you for listening.
shit's kinda cliche when i say that, but that cliche shit is true sometimes, and i mean it; whatever. thank you 
just the beginning 

prod @cartermetro & @vito2300 

you left (you left)
i crashed (i crashed)
now all we ever had is in the past
(it's all in the past)
i'll stay (away)
detached (from that)
until the very moment i collapse

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
but i couldn't give a shit
hammered down any spite, bring out the knife
lying outside again

and my notes are filled with solutions,
that you might consider delusion
the old me is buried in ruins
the present me is just a loose end
turned off the phone for monochrome daydreams
'cause i don't give a shit if i'm wavy
i mean look at what happened to davy

making a point to you's crazy
crissin' it 'cross like an apple, how tasty
stuck in a drench, while i'm soaking in sweat
more or less i'm expecting nobody to save me
pokemon quest on the blue 2DS
nowadays i'm a wreck, and i stench what i'm craving
heart full of rust,
when the musk fermentates in my chest you can leave what you're hating

i got a pain in my neck, can't stretch it
the hurt in my voice can't be heard over message
so let's make a break where we got no connections
only direction, never perfection
when i talk to the sky, it'll always rain hail
bulimia fucking me up 'till i'm well
"the truth doesn't sell"
leave me for dead with the dread in my head and no breath to inhale

004, blunt force on the baby
there ain't a lure with the potent to save me
getting by as a passerby,
keeping lowered eyes, i'm already hazy
not that i'm lazy,
just marinating in lost time they never gave me
i'm short on breath, should i recollect
or detach, while i'm still straining
i hate that when i fall back into relapse
it's me i'm saving
what a nuisance, when i do this
you're clueless about what i'm saying
so, deuces, 'cause few stick when the roof lifts
i'm sick of waiting
got mucus on my blue lips
from fucked shit i feel on the daily

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
why should i give a shit
hammered down any spite, brought in the knife
i wanna die again

my heart's open
why is my heart open
quick, gotta close it
quick, gotta close it

collapse [prod. cxrter x vito]

JUT & BH MALICE - lies (prod. cxrter & wisssery)

lyrics by v0ice
beat prod. cxrter and cloud

intro
whispers on the wind 
telling secrets we should keep 
i don’t wanna feel i don’t wanna think
mom said that i’m hateful
she hates the way i am
i wish i could go back and try it all again

hook
i prefer a text but you always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

verse
i know i’m getting worse i can’t communicate with anyone
i cannot reply to the texts that are on my phone 
paranoia hitting me i’m locked inside my home
i hate the way they wanna talk just please leave me alone
but i feel so fucking bad 
cause they loved me on their own
this is like my karmic debt im reaping what i sowed
all the words they’ve said to me to get back what they’re owed
momma said i’m said turning bad i’m way too spiteful

i am way too tired to be feeling like this
put me on the pyre then you better light that shit
somehow you’re talking you’re barely making sense
i don’t even answer cause i’m clearly speechless

hook
i prefer a text but you always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

verse
if i could take the time to heal 
i wouldn’t be here
write another song to make you feel like a shit
i don’t even care if you don’t think it’s a hit
gotta watch my back cause i know that people switch
lately i’m the outcast like the block that couldn’t fit
you call me a liar and say that you’re a bitch
i just wanted love but you never could commit
maybe im the wrong one in every single way

cause i cannot escape from overthinking bout my day
staring at the ceiling trying hard to be okay
scars on my heart that will never go away
hopefully the memories will start to slowly fade

hook
i prefer a text but always wanna call me
blowing up my phone but i’m feeling like a zombie 
draining all the energy and colors from around me
feels like the worst day ever
in favorite your zip up sweater

WHISPERS IN THE WIND (cxrter x cloud)

chicagoland producer 💜🖤🩶🤍 | 21 | 🧠♾️
(prod.) credits: @sewerperson @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell